>>81687528 (OP)
>Maybe a girlfriend will allow me some stress-relief
I have never met a person in a relationship that was less stressed out or have been in any relationship with a foid that made my life less stressful. Its all playing pretend to play into their expectations when thats not who you are at all, not only is it distressing to have to act that way around them all the time if you let yourself become at all comfortable around them its over for you, youre cooked and dont even know it because when you relax that is when they start feeling rejected and start nagging for attention or outright looking elsewhere