I want to die by setting myself on fire in my room. I used to want to do it with a gun but it's too quick and easy. It's not that I hate myself that much or I'm trying to make a scene and get attention. I just want the last thing my parents remember of me to be my screams in agony. I really, really hated this life.

It's genuinely so tempting to me and I can't stop thinking about it.

start cutting yourself

>>81694299 (OP)
Self-immolation is actually how my brother killed himself. Nearly burned down the entire apartment complex with him. The intensity with which I miss my brother increases tenfold daily and the sound of his screams bounce around my skull when I try to sleep at night. I still have trouble eating grilled foods. I'm never going to be okay again I'm quite sure.