Found out I have ADHD, anyone else have it? How do you cope? I have persistent suicidal ideation even during my happiest moments my brain screams suicidal shit at me

>>81699334 (OP)
>anyone else have it?
yes
>How do you cope?
constant distractions to keep my brain busy so that it cant think. so, either videogames that force me to stay focused, very loud music, or if im lucky and hyperfixate over something like learning a song or whatever helps. videos that ask me questions also help me to stay focused somewhat, especially if i need to fall asleep.
that or you start taking drugs.

>>81699334 (OP)
Im looking forward to the day im getting meds.
I tried so hard with pure will power but i couldn't keep it up over a couple of days.
If pills help me achieve that state of mind consistently im going to be a multi billionaire or at least a shutin with money.

>>81699399
yeah im considering meds but fuck I hate going to the doctor. I have a few good days and feel like im on top of everything and then all of a sudden I can't do anything and im overwhelmed depressed and isolating. Meds might be worth it if it gets me out of this cycle

>>81699436
Be careful so they don't give you SSRIs for some reason. While appropriate at the time, my doctor gave me some and it basically makes it 100x worse. You just experience adhd more but don't care at all, its terrible. I have never taken any stimulants against ADHD but i have seen others before and after using them and i think its a miracle. There are obviously also downsides but im willing to take the risks.

>im overwhelmed depressed and isolating
yeah that's something against these pills. I don't think that a doctor will give somebody with major depression stimulants. Some is fine like with me, there wasn't even a talk with the doctor about this but i feel like that they would rather you have SSRIs instead.

>>81699495
>While appropriate at the time, my doctor gave me some and it basically makes it 100x worse. You just experience adhd more but don't care at all, its terrible

In my experience at least.
Don't take internet posts as fact.

>>81699495
ive been on SSRIs before, really hit or miss but sertraline was ok, dont want to go back to them though. They were giving me Lorazepam for a bit and that was great but I kept taking too much of them

>>81699527
Can you tell me a little about your experience with SSRIs? I only took them for three months before i got sick of them and stopped.
Others seem to like them however and I'd like to know why.

>>81699536
I first tried them as a young teen, I forget which one they had me on but it was awful and I couldn't pay attention to anything, was completely zombied. Tried another one forget the name in my early 20s but similar experience, switched it to sertraline and it actually worked decently.

The big thing about them is getting on them and getting off them, everything gets worse during these periods. Sertraline made me feel ok, just like a little less feeling, I am a artist and I definitely had less enthusiasm and ideas for my art while on it. I eventually stopped taking them after I got myself into a better situation and gained some protective factors. Coming off it was the worst and I had little brain zaps every 15 seconds for a few weeks, like that feeling when you are falling asleep and jolt awake, that same feeling. When it was working it was pretty good and I would consider going back to them if I didn't have to go through the pain of getting on it and coming off it again, its also hard as fuck for me to remember to take them everyday and if you forget to do it even for one day you can feel pretty weird.

>>81699568
>I couldn't pay attention to anything, was completely zombied
Yeah that is also what made me stop them completely. Its literately the opposite of what i want to do (fixing attention issues) so i stopped with tapering off. Also had these zaps. I cannot to this day recall how i was feeling during that time period too.

were you actually diagnosed or what. if you weren't, shut the fuck up.

>>81699683
>stopped with tapering off
without tapering off*
Just had too much anger to take even a little bit.

>>81699334 (OP)
>I have persistent suicidal ideation even during my happiest moments my brain screams suicidal shit at me
That's not ADHD, you may have comorbid OCD

>>81699334 (OP)
OP pic is how fembots reproduce

Cbt. Every time you have a suicidal thought you push it away. Eventually they stop. That's how it works for those who aren't actively being made suicidal i.e as you're being actively abused.

>>81699495
Ssris fucked my brain and I still felt the affects 10 years after. Brain started to feel normal at the 13 year mark for me.