Anonymous
7/4/2025, 8:57:43 PM No.81714068
I know deep down inside once I get to the point I'm high SMV overall, HOPEFULLY by the time I'm in my early 30s (I turned 25 in June.), that I'll gladly take a girlfriend, even if it feels like a raw deal, since she would've given her best years to young chad. Exercise is most important for your mental health, but having a sexual partner comes second. I'm always going to feel some resentment over this fact.
As a mentalcel, if I ever do achieve a high SMV, it will have been through massive self improvement efforts over many years. I've got OCD, which fucks you over in life in multiple ways. I am not a quitter. I've made lots of progress with time, but damn, there are somehow guys who have seemingly little issue getting girlfriends and getting sex starting in high school, despite not being high achievers or even being far below-average losers, yet social autists like me have to make massive changes to ourselves over many years just to get a girlfriend.
I got back into lifting in January 2024, and I've lost a ton of fat and gained a ton of muscle, including a lot of the muscle I had back when I was 19 before covid. I even started taking steroids at the end of August. I still need to lose around 60 pounds of fat before I'll be lean, though. I do receive NEETbucks, but this is not sustainable, and I'm not going to be able to get a girlfriend while being low income and living with my dad. I occasionally help my dad at work for free, but I haven't been able to get a job all these years due to insomnia caused by OCD. I am incapable of maintaining any sort of schedule. My insomnia has gradually gotten better, and I've made tons of improvements, but I still cannot hold any sort of job that requires me to be present from A time to B time. My current plan is to go back to college this year to study mechanical engineering. I'm hoping that with a mechanical engineering degree, that I could land some sort of job that would be more flexible. I can't think of an alternative.
As a mentalcel, if I ever do achieve a high SMV, it will have been through massive self improvement efforts over many years. I've got OCD, which fucks you over in life in multiple ways. I am not a quitter. I've made lots of progress with time, but damn, there are somehow guys who have seemingly little issue getting girlfriends and getting sex starting in high school, despite not being high achievers or even being far below-average losers, yet social autists like me have to make massive changes to ourselves over many years just to get a girlfriend.
I got back into lifting in January 2024, and I've lost a ton of fat and gained a ton of muscle, including a lot of the muscle I had back when I was 19 before covid. I even started taking steroids at the end of August. I still need to lose around 60 pounds of fat before I'll be lean, though. I do receive NEETbucks, but this is not sustainable, and I'm not going to be able to get a girlfriend while being low income and living with my dad. I occasionally help my dad at work for free, but I haven't been able to get a job all these years due to insomnia caused by OCD. I am incapable of maintaining any sort of schedule. My insomnia has gradually gotten better, and I've made tons of improvements, but I still cannot hold any sort of job that requires me to be present from A time to B time. My current plan is to go back to college this year to study mechanical engineering. I'm hoping that with a mechanical engineering degree, that I could land some sort of job that would be more flexible. I can't think of an alternative.
