>>81717841 (OP)I want to die, I hate being alive.
I don't like to work (and the stress that comes with it) just to be able to eat, pay rent and buy escapism.
I hate having to live as a depressed loser that will never be loved, but be surrounded by people that have no problems with that.
And I hate to mask all these feelings and say "I'm ok" just to not make anyone worry about me (while people close to me still bother me with THEIR problems).
I'm just tired, I want to disappear and stop existing.
I don't enjoy the role I have in this life, nor the dark aspects of life itself. Everyone is just too selfish, theres too much pain in this world and not enough pleasure/peace to make up for it.