>>714653123I also hate my job. The commute's fine, the pay is whatever. I'm mostly on my feet and active. But I've worked the same shift for 4 years, and in that time not a single coworker has ever invited me to the numerous cookouts/hangouts/parties, that they mention offhandedly in conversations, and all seem to show up at together on their social media.
I get along well with several of them, try to be helpful and outgoing, and have never had issues with anybody. But I'm realizing that the only reason they're so friendly and sociable to begin with is that they don't want me to quit, because it's the early as shit 3AM shift that nobody on the day crew (who get invited to those parties btw) wants to switch to. They want to keep their autistic toil monkey.
I'm probably just gonna quit before the end of the year and go back to being a NEET, or maybe killing myself, not sure which yet. I wish I didn't fall for the "try getting a job" meme that family and therapists always try to push as a solution to feeling isolated or disconnected from society, as a mentally ill person... we really just need asylums back desu.
If you're an autistic/schizoidal/etc. weirdo (and I know a good portion of you are) like me, and you're reading this: getting a job wont make you feel more "normal" or like you fit in more... your interactions (and lack thereof) with people will probably just reinforce a lifelong suspicion that you do not belong. My mental health was better when I was just a NEET living in the comfortable delusion that my social ostracization was owed to my actual, physical isolation, instead of an inherent unlikeability.