My family was in Manhattan during 9/11 (East Village), and dad was a first responder, but survived, so I always wrote it off as
>yeah, really sucked, but I didn't lose anyone, so not that bad for me
But it was stressful, even 2 miles away, since we didn't know the scope of the attack, and there were spurious reports of more planes, explosions, and bomb threats (which became regular after 9/11).
Worse, I knew exactly where my dad went, since we spoke before, and then we didn't speak again until probably 5+ hours.
The phone lines were saturated, he was preoccupied, and this was the beeper (not cell phone) era.
Point is, I watched both towers collapse live on TV, and I knew he was probably there.
I was a teenager, not a small child, but it was still traumatic.

>>81730174 (OP)
After, I avoided discussing it much, even with him, and avoided consuming 9/11 media, or even thinking much about it.
I've also joked, in a black humor way, about it, as if to demonstrate to myself and others:
> see how little it fazed me?
which I now realize was bullshit.
If it didn't faze me much, why did I only just visit the memorial for the first time, despite it opening 14 years ago, and me living here the entire time and regularly going to Battery Park and surrounding areas for one thing or another?

chinese century

I feel you. I wish I could give advice dealing with trauma but even the strinks disagee on the best way. sorry the only place you have to dump this js fucking r9k. look at this egm cover

>>81730174 (OP)
Its kinda sounds like you need to grow up

>>81730334
>gcn to wii was 5 years

wtf

>>81730336
nta but fuck yourself faggot

>>81730336
You're not wrong, and I'm mad at myself for not being more self-aware.
I think the issue is I compartmentalized it right after it happened, and I'm only now "processing" it.
But I don't claim to have PTSD. I've never had nightmares about it, and I have no phobias.
I think it's come to the fore because my dad has some kind of neurodegenerative disease (possibly due to WTC exposure) and I'm practically his full-time caregiver.

>>81730347
Is that not a good lifespan for a latest-gen console?

>>81730399
this is honestly how male one track minds work. women act like it just makes evil but the ability to ignore pain and just outside stimulus to keep at your prey

>>81730334
Thanks, anon.
>look at this egm cover
2000-2001 was really great, gaming-wise, wasn't it?
>Code Veronica,
One of my favorite REs, and the last "true RE" to me.
>Power Stone 2
Severely underrated FG series.
>MGS for the GBC
I still have this. Oddly it's never been re-released.

>>81730413
Yeah, I did fine ignoring it, and I can always go back to that.
My father definitely had some issues, some of which I've only just pieced together.

>>81730174 (OP)
>I was a teenager, not a small child, but it was still traumatic.
I was 5 also in manhattan but farther away in UES, the only thing I remember was being annoyed at the sulfur taste in my mouth for a few days after lol. Never thought about it until now but I'm glad I was so young because I didn't understand the gravity of it until years later.

I'm sorry that something made you feel so small. Im sorry that your friends that your family couldn't feel what we do through this time. Im sorry you couldn't experience what Pluto looks like. What the storm on Jupiter looks like. I'm sorry you missed out. I wish you could be here with us. As we walk to the next step as we accept and agree. I'm sorry that I left you all alone. If I knew your name like the lone soilder I would say yours. My boys would scream yours. He has kept us safe. I would apologize. I love you unlimitedly. I love you until tomorrow.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t039p6xqutU

>be at school in eastern europe
>teacher says "shit's going down in yankland yo"
>go home, tv shows skyscrapers in smoke
>fug

https://youtu.be/R6rro6rngis

>>81730739
>sulfur taste in my mouth for a few days after lol
Yeah, I remember the whole city was like that for days after.
It wasn't like a normal fire/smoke smell or taste either.