I'm really fed up, my loneliness is killing me slowly I try to do my best to respect and be nice to everyone even when they treat me like shit but the result is I don't have a girlfriend and only one real friend who is one of the only reasons why I don't fall into depression and madness I hate myself, I must do something bad for everyone to hate me, my friend tells me all the time that I'm just unlucky, I really don't know, I don't want to be a danger to others I don't want to die, I should probably kill myself but I don't have the desire or the balls, my music doesn't even get a little audience but at least it allows me to release all my stress, sorry to tell my life for absolutely nothing I'm just an "attention whore" anyway despite all that thank you for being there r9k you help me not to hate myself even more and to take my mind off things when I need it

>>81733377 (OP)
I am 22, friendless, never had a go etc. not sure that will ever change. I do not really have any interests at all so making friends or getting a gf is highly unlikely. Good chance I will die a virgin.

Youre probably doing better than me if that makes you feel any better lol.