i wish loneliness would kill me faster

>>81746917 (OP)
Same, I need it to happen asap

>>81747131
yeah
i'm pretty sick of living

>>81747154
Ditto, there's no way for me to go back on a path that leads to happiness. My future is shot.

Loneliness already killed me at this point

>>81746917 (OP)
have you tried to kill the loneliness? i try often but it just doesnt die

>>81747194
how would you even do that?
>>81747181
the worst part is that my relatives keep gaslighting me that "everything is possible"
they don't realize how over it truly is. Or maybe they just want me to be satisfied with a subpar life
what a cruel joke.

>>81747194
Not OP, but that doesn't work. Attempting it you'll find people will pretend to care about you and abandon you. Which makes the loneliness worse. You can try to drown it with alcohol, but loneliness can swim and the excess liquid just will come out of your eyes

>>81746917 (OP)
Before I die I would like to experience a few things like sex or a blowjob or GTA 6.

>>81747247
not really interested in gta 6 myself. As for other things, i will never get them anyway.

>>81747216
>how would you even do that?
meeting people that probably could care about me
>>81747216
>Not OP, but that doesn't work.
it has not worked so far, but then why can other people feel not lonely?

>>81747279
>meeting people that probably could care about me
I already know that will never happen
i am completely unlovable

>>81747279
>then why can other people feel not lonely?
They weren't born fundamentally broken. People can sense when you're different and weird. When you're strange people will assume the absolute worst about you and your intentions. It doesn't matter what you do to prove them wrong, they have this uncomfortable feeling about you. That feeling remains in the back of their head no matter how much they try to supress it, and the people around them will notice it too and feel the same. Eventually they will ostracize you, be passive-aggressive towards you, or utilize reactive abuse to try and get you to react poorly so that you live up to the negative assumptions they hold about you. If they know something makes you mad or hurts you badly then they will do that so they can use your reaction as the justification why they were right you were bad.

>>81746917 (OP)
unfortunately its not loneliness itself that kills, its the consequences of it that do. so in the end it still depends on you

>>81747397
>If they know something makes you mad or hurts you badly then they will do that so they can use your reaction as the justification why they were right you were bad.
They will then share this reaction you had ---sans context--- to all their friends who also felt you were 'off.' Everyone will immediately agree with it too, because they sensed those "weird vibes" and it justifies that nagging feeling. Those people in turn will then all yes man each other, and talk about how awful you are and how great it is that person who made you react is rid of you.

I know that feelings. I'm a trans woman myself.

>>81747216
define subpar life, I need to determine if you're just a brat or not

>>81747521
a life with 0 friends or lovers where you just work some shitty menial job and then go home to sleep like some robot with no feelings or hopes or dreams.
>>81747498
elevated levels of cortisol will kill ya faster or something. idk

>>81747576
why can't you have shitty menial job and some friends

>>81747615
because it's impossible to find friends when you're an adult? Also it's depressing. I want to do other things in life but god did not grant me the brains for it.

>>81747498
Consequences like not being able to get fast enough medical attention, and coping mechanisms massively shave off your life. But it also puts your body under chronic stress which shortens your life and makes various illnesses worse.

>>81746917 (OP)
loneliness only takes at most a decade or two off your lifespan
you'll be waiting a long time

>>81747798
People with certain mental illnesses live much shorter lives too. Many people here won't make it to 50.