Why not find happiness in a spiritual life instead of porn, booze, vidya, etc.?

>>81751210 (OP)
The closest I came to being truly spiritual was when I was with an ethnic Muslim woman (I am white) who was obsessed with me and would scold me for drinking but would never actually break up with me (until she did). Her relentless scolding, coupled with her absolute adoration and trust in me, genuinely helped rise me up morally, while for her, my methods of logical/reasonable thinking and emotional control helped her slowly gain more control of her own life and emotional outbursts. That kind of made me realise how male/female relationships are supposed to be.

Then I fucked it up and now I can't really be faithful or spiritual without feeling like a fraud, since I genuinely cannot believe in the supernatural.

>>81751210 (OP)
I have no faith in any higher moral entity. The world can be very cruel and senseless

because thats exactly what the chads and stacies want, for me to either be dead or completely give up competing in the sexual marketplace whilst still contributing to society, satisfied in my own delusions of spiritual fulfillment.

>>81751210 (OP)

The only religion that matters is the one that helps you escape this material plane. Anything else is cope or a distraction or both.

>>81751261

Did you have sex with her or was she actually committed to the whole Muslim chastity thing?

>>81751319
She was committed to the chastity thing, which was infuriating because she was hot. She was also deathly afraid of men and sexuality.

Spiritual things such as Buddhism and Yoga stimulates a deeper engagement with the practice and with oneself body and mind, in which the gratification comes in a more nuanced way with the benefit of maybe positively affecting one's metaphysical condition in comparison to vidya, porn and booze, which are more of pleasure bombs and due to that rather superficial, easy engagement, though, don't impact the metaphysical of one (or maybe make it worse). It's obviously easier to practice those pleasure bombs activities because they are easier and more attractive in the short-term.

>>81751346

>She was committed to the chastity thing
>chastity
>which was infuriating because she was hot
>hot

Okay, then, yeah, you really fucked up, mate. I thought this was a repressed slut situation but gold genuinely slipped through your fingers.

>>81751210 (OP)
Trust me, Christ is the only reason I will never end it.

>>81751419
It was completely my fault, too. She was basically an ideal but I couldn't, in good conscience (or faith) do what she wanted me to do, which was to become devoutly religious. I just couldn't, it felt like an existential lie, and had I done it, I would have been lying to her and her family, which I couldn't live with.

>>81751422

How do you call Him good knowing the kind of world He has put you in?

>>81751434

To be fair, I don't think Muslim women are technically allowed to be dating men of non-Muslim faith although Muslim men can date any woman of the Abrahamic religions. So she fucked up there. It probably means she really liked you.

>>81751210 (OP)
because it doesn't make me feel good?

>>81751462
She did like me, or at least liked the idea of what i could be in the future, my "potential" so to speak. What's miserable is that after we broke up, she found a guy who was like a fucked up facsimile of me (he was a pretentious philosophy student from a wealthy family who genuinely believed he was the smartest person to ever live for reading Nietzsche) and she immediately fucked him to try and get "revenge" on me (which one of her friends told me about). I kind of ruined her entire life.

>>81751210 (OP)
because it sounds like an escape, an admission of defeat.

my *ego* couldn't take that....

Because the only spiritual belief I have now is that we are being farmed and consumed by higher dimensional beings for reasons we'll never fully understand. Whatever the source of it all is, it's impossible to comprehend at all or to even characterize meaningfully. I am not grateful for being cursed with existence. All pursuits are ultimately meaningless egowanks, even a "spiritual" life.

Not that all the other shit you listed will make things much better either. Hell isn't real, but we're definitely within something like it.

>>81751210 (OP)
I stopped doing psychedelics and hallucinogens so now I can't see the spirits anymore

>>81751210 (OP)
I wouldn't mind forsaking the world and joining a monastery but this isn't the 8th century

>>81751506

wow. better love story than twilight

>>81751210 (OP)
Because porn is good, booze is good, vidya is good, and spirituality sucks ass.
>bro stare at the wall until you start giggling bro it's so spiritually enlightening
Fuck off, life is short, I'm gonna spend my evening doing LSD, watching two dudes fist each and playing Tears of the Kingdom