I'm 21 years old and I went to the doctor office for the first time in like 6 years since when I moved out of my parents place I have my own independence. They fell for the meme that doctors are bad for you so they would never take me to one but I have this problem where I can't put on weight and I smell horrible even after wearing deodorant, and I have horrible mood swings. Well turns out I have type 2 diabetes, organ failure, anal fissures, and just whole body inflammation even affecting my brain. You lucky as hell whoever reading this that this isn't your life. I'm not even bothered by people telling me I smell or the weird looks I get on a daily basis since I know its out of my control but I wish I had better parents and an environment in which I could of grown up bettet in. I have no emotions any more im just empty and socially isolated. I'm gonna try to take better care of myself for now and start attending therapy. I just need a place to vent my work situation is the worst people can be so cruel with the staring and the way they treat you I hope no one else has to ho through this experience.

>>81753876 (OP)
Lmao I can only imagine how terrible your diet is to be diabetic for years and now even notice. Lay off the sugar, big dawg. I work in a hospital and type 2 diabetes is one of the most common comorbidities we see, along with obesity. It makes every possible disease outcome worse.

>>81753890
I'm skinny and have no appetite when I was around 9 to 17 all I drank was Coca-Cola no water, I have internal bleeding and bacterial infections in my gut I was enabled my whole life its very hard to concentrate and I haven't even started taking the insulin yet

>>81753913
Whoever raised you belongs in jail. Enjoy the chronic metabolic disease. You should've known that never drinking water was a bad thing.

>>81753947
I'm okay with jokes because its cool having people interacting with me but I'm not sure if I'm gonna be able to live a normal life. I'm gonna jus try tho I really appreciateyou responding =)

>>81753876 (OP)
sounds miserable...
hope things improve for you op
1 small step at a time can lead to big improvements in the long run
<3

>>81753876 (OP)
Your parents neglected you to the point that they ruined your life and almost killed you.

You know what you have to do. No one would blame you it would be self defense.

>>81753999
I wish I had this support irl this stuff making me tear up tank you. I'm still unable to cry i don't resent my parents I jus want human contact never really had friends and I'm too nervous to actually speak to strangers online one one even when playing games I don't hop on the mic out of nervousness.

>>81754020
no i forgive them they're old and its in the past I don't really want negatively in my heart anymore im looking to walk forward and move on

>>81753876 (OP)
That is horrible. What are the prospects of your health improving with lifestyle changes?

>>81754035
I started talking to people over mic recently on omegleme despite also having had voice chat be a fear of mine for a very long time. It has helped out a lot. You will get more confident by trying it more and more

>>81753913
sorry anon, my teeth are fucked up because of shit like that

>>81754060
I have planet fitness membership then after I start taking insulin im gonna have to go for surgery in 2 weeks. I started eating only fruits and taking vitamins since i haven't been doing that until recently. I was planning on getting a tatto just to have but I have to cancel it since I didn't inform them about the diabetes and other health problems. And with the talking with strangers thing im just intimidated like I have no idea how to start a conversation with randoms they get too angry over nothing with no regard for you

>>81753876 (OP)
sorry you gotta deal with all those things anon. i sincerely hope the best for you even if my words cant do much. try your best to resist the blind cruelty of this world

>>81753876 (OP)
there's a direct way to leave hells but idk how to explain it
ask ig
it concerns intent to give up on things that cause you shame, or shame itself, or on denial of there being something wrong that you caused

>>81754063
yea about 6 months ago I started brushing because I didn't know where the smell was coming from, it's like once the smell is so bad and you dont know what to do you just stop caring and it neglects other parts of you and people just assume your unhygienic,
>>81754094
I'm glad to get any support possible , your words mean the world to me

>>81754136
you should try to floss if you can. if you haven't done much it might be scary and your teeth might bleed at first, but it's ok as long as you're gentle. the stuff that comes out will smell horrible if you haven't done it in awhile. might also reveal caivities which might be scary to see but hopefully not

you also might have stuff at the back of your throat/tongue to scrape out that stinks. you can use a small spoon if you want

>>81754172
The back part of my wisdom teeth are black on the right and left should I send a pic of my teeth or will I get banned ?

>>81754195

That sounds like cavities, go to a dentist and get them fixed before you need a root canal or get an infection

also damn anon, Im so sorry your parents were such shit. Im glad youre getting healthcare now

>>81754195
i mean i'm no dentist. black means a cavity is forming but you should be able to take care of it if you keep on brushing and flossing decent. i was just worried about it because i personally struggle with my own teeth. maybe you should try to see a dentist if possible if it hurts a lot or is really sensitive.

i'm gonna go to bed now anon but i hope you can move past this and not let it bog you down. its a lot to manage and it would be easy to let it make you a really bitter person. that's kind of whats been happening to me. but its not fair to us to let our problems define us. but take time to be sad and mad and whatever other emotion if you need it too.

>>81754215
When to a dentist its like he didn't even care that it was black he just told me to consider getting it removed but yea I bought an optic white toothpaste
>>81754218
Good night it was really good engaging with you im so used to people just coming up to as if they were dared to even talk with me its very nice to be around people who choose to engage with me

i'm going through a lot at the moment too and i'm trying to find a therapist as well, i hope you can find the motivation to improve your life

>>81753947
I was a clueless child i genuinely didn't understand the importance of water or eating right until i turned 18

>>81754371
I think I need 2 move i got a decent amount of cash and I hope life gets better for you as well

>>81753876 (OP)
Go /out/, try to find some hiking buddies or something like that. There are some forums and websites for that purpose and hikers are generally agreeable. The smell won't be a problem outside !
I believe in you anon, we can all get better !

>>81753876 (OP)
Never being taken to a doctor is a blessing. It wasn't enough to save you since your parents still severely poisoned you and deprived you of nutrients, but it helped. I wish I was that fortunate

>>81753876 (OP)
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>>81753876 (OP)
Did you attend school? How do you go so many years with the pain and discomfort that comes with these medical issues without ever telling an adult like a teacher or looking things up on the internet about your issues? These types of medical issues don't just happen overnight.

>>81754084
>I started eating only fruits
Why?
>I was planning on getting a tattoo
You have all these life threatening medical issues which would be very apparent based on your physical appearance and smell (according to you) which you chose to ignore but you were planning on getting a tattoo?

you should sue them and they should be paying you reparations for mistreatment and neglect that will affect you for the rest of your life.

>>81757005
I did attend school and when I told a teacher I was taken to the emergency room n they told me that nothing was wrong with me after I mentioned how I feel my diet and all my other symptoms including the smell. After that I got yelled at by my dad because the bill was like 600 dollars and I was told jus keep my mouth shut from now on and don't go to the doctor.
I feel better eating fruits I don't really know what else I'm supposed to eat my mentally and brain functions arent what they used to be and plus I didn't get any medications yet.
Also the tattoo thing I was looking to get like an anime tattoo I don't really know why in hindsight I just feel so lost since I moved out its like bad decision after bad decision. Also I justed moved out so all this stuff with me getting health care and the tatto nonsense is recent but you're right a tatto does seem stupid with all these health concerns.
>>81756827
That image scares me a little bit I don't even know if I should be online at all or if I should be on this site I hate all other social media and my body just got used to the abdominal pain to where I barely even feel it. Maybe it should remain anonymous because I hate the sound of my own voice
>>81757005
That seems kind of kiddish to me I'm kinda getting to the point where social isolation is becoming comforting since I've been around it for so long I don't even call or text them or anyone. I think i need to be alone im just so ashamed with myself. I have 0 social skills and my body is ruined. I'm not even depressed about it i don't know if therapy works or not..

>>81757198
>>81757198
The last one was meant for the other guy my fault ;/ I'm usually just a lurker I rarely even post I've been on 4chan since 2013 when I was 10 I found this place but I never really had that hateful kind of attitude that I see most people here have