I am at the point in my life where everything I do feels pointless. I feel like I am devloping some kind of disorder. Gaming is no longer fun, reading is no longer fun, 4chan is no longer fun, learning about history is no longer fun, anime are no longer fun. I have realized I am nothing, I am boring all my introverted hobbies have made me into a husk. I feel like finding a gf would be the only way to cure that to find somebody I can be close with. I am doing nothing all day other than working, sleeping, staying on 4chan and swiping on dating apps. I feel so misserable I want to die. I have no idea what to do anymore I can't anymore. I don't want to waste more years like this. I am such a giant loser.

>>81759144 (OP)
stop caring, change behavior patterns, do new behavior for a time, re-assess after if things changed or not, change plans accordinly
simple as, just relax

>>81759237
I can't I feel like there is nothing I can do that will change anything. I have tried new things and they were nice while I did them but right after it, I simply felt empty. There is simply a real person in my life missing, someone who is there for me. I have a friend but a gf is just different.

>>81759306
just gfmaxx then

>>81759517
But girls don't like me.

>>81759144 (OP)
you sound like a loser. do you even have a gf?

>>81759596
Yes I am a loser, no I never had one

>>81759630
Absolutely disgusting, I would be depressed as fuck if I was alone.

>>81759144 (OP)
Don't worry
It keeps getting worse with age

>>81759144 (OP)
it's called anhedonia

>>81759306
Do you exercise? Going out for a jog or lifting some weights can make you feel better and STRONG
it sucks while your doing it, but it's easier to do if you bring your friend along

>>81759639
yes because you are zogged goycattle
solitude is a virtue and other people are hell

>>81759822
>some retard is talking about muh solitudemaxxing
>while posting on 4chan

>>81759639
I am but what can I do?
>>81759681
No I don't think I have I feel joy while doing it.
>>81759749
Yes sometimes but I have slacked off. I don't feel that this would change much. I feel like I simply lack a purpose and a place in this world.

>>81759866
>I am but what can I do?
Uhh I don't know, go out and meet girls? ddruuuuuhhh

>>81759882
How and where? I don't like parties and loud sounds. I don't want some random slut. I only felt happy when I had my only e-relationship

>>81759904
>how to be a human
hmmmm

>>81759926
I am autistic, I don't know anything about that.

>>81759976
autistic people are incapable of feeling empathy which seems strange to me.

>>81759988
I can but probably not in the way you do.

>>81759144 (OP)
Go outside and scream at strangers until you feel you get into an altercation or two, then you might feel something

>>81760478
I don't want to go into prison or into some institute. Also I am tall so I doubt many people would want to fight me. But I was thinking of doing something like that just more concentrated.

>>81759144 (OP)
so depression then

>>81760711
Yeah I guess so I thought I was over it but it is coming back in full force. Everything I do fails, I am not good for much. I just crave some real connection not some dwindling online. I often think about just throwing everything away, my job and my shitty life I have build up but I know this won't end well.

Get into the gym dude

>>81761078
For what? That won't change anything and I will have even less time + money.

Well, there isn't exactly a one size fits all solution buuuut something which helped me a lot was to open up to my friends about my struggles. That way, I had people to hold me accountable aaaand also, people who I wanted to better myself for so that they wouldn't have to worry about me. Though, I don't think that it's healthy to rely on just one friend or partner either. Things can change, people grow apart, those people can't ALWAYS be there for you as they have their own things to worry about. Friends and partners are lovely, but they should be a part of your life rather than an extension of yourself or your other half.

Another thing, as typical as this sounds... going outside and touching grass helped me a lot too. It was pleasant to just walk around my neighbourhood, pet the stray cats and look at all the pretty plants around. I also recommend seeking professional help, if you're able to.

Whatever you're going through, I'm sure that you'll be able to get through it all, just like how you've managed to endure all your previous struggles. Please, don't give up. There are brighter days ahead of you. Be sure to take care of yourself. Remember that you are loved and you matter.

>>81761307
I already told my friend about my problems and he has the same problems if just less. There is nobody who can help me, there was never anyone I always had to do everything alone. I honestly don't care about other people, they only time I wanted to be better was when I had a e-gf who loved me back. This was the only time in my life I was happy. I felt like I had to be a man who she could marry and have children with. She ghosted me and now I don't care about anything anymore again.
>Friends and partners are lovely, but they should be a part of your life rather than an extension of yourself or your other half.
With friends yes but not with your gf. Two souls have to become one to be truly a pair.
>>81761330
I did that for 4 months, helped me a bit but took so much of time away. Yes I would feel better but I honestly don't see the point anymore. I would be still alone.

>>81759144 (OP)
Do it bro, get out of the cave and meet new people. Get shredded and jog shirtless. Go to raves, travel, all that normie shit.

>>81761343
Yeah ofc I have to but I don't feel like it is worth it anymore. I am struggling to even do the minimum right now.
No there are no more bright days and nobody cares. It is all just endless grey and being alone.

>>81759988
Autistic people do feel empathy and any other emotion, really. It's just that it's difficult for them to convey those emotions, especially more complex ones.

>>81761398
I don't want that, I would never want that. I just want a peaceful life in a small house, surrounded by nature with a wife and maybe some children later. But this is never going to happen. Mindless sex is worthless, I hate loud music, I did travel and it was fun while I did it but it feels all empty now that I am back. I don't feel like getting fit would change much.

>>81761386
See!!!!! With that e-gf, you were relying on her toooo much. Your partner doesn't HAVE to be your everything, and I say this as somebody who loves their partner dearly. There is so much more to life than just romance and your life shouldn't revolve around that, especially since a lot of partners won't be long term. You should have plenty of other friends and coping mechanisms to rely on and maaaaybe, you should go out and get more friends!! Go join some sort of sports or whatever club with people who have the same interest as you, meet new people and socialise. Maybe even go to an anime convention and make new friends there.

>>81761491
What is wrong with relying on your gf for support? I don't get it at all. I am autistic and have a very hard time metting new people and making friends. I don't even have the time for that and there is no way to form a real connection with people that way. I have zero interest in superficial relationships. I want to do a lot of things, I want to buy lego set and put them togheter, I want to play video games, I want to learn how to shoot the bow, I want to fence, I want to cosplay. Going to an anime convention alone is pointless, I will just stand there and waste my time. I don't even have a cosplay. It is all pointless. I work 8 hours per day then have to sleep at least 7 hours per day. And if I have to comute even more work hours, so called unpaid work preperiaton. And don't even get me started on other things like cleaning, buying groceries, doing other small things etc. Leaving me with only a few hours each day for things. And clubs usualy meet at a fixed time. My job won't allow me that since my working hours change each week. There is nothing I can do. Also all of that costs money.

>>81761418
Heeeey it IS worth it!! I know that you're struggling NOW, but we all have our highs and lows. Aaaaand, people do indeed care. I'm sure that friend you mention cares for you, along with your family and other loves ones. Hell, I care for you! Listen, I used to be in a similar place as you were. I thought I was hopeless. But now, I have a great support system, people I can trust and rely on and a lot of things I find joy in. I still have my lows as I do have clinical depression, but I know that it gets better. If I could get better, who's to say that you can't do the same? I'm rooting for you !!

>>81761549
Okay, I wasn't saying that there was anything wrong with relying on your gf, or literally anyone for support. Rather, that they should be a happy part of your life rather than your whole world since unfortunately, most relationships don't last long-term. Also, you absolutely CAN form a real connection that way. I have plenty of friends who I vent to about my personal stuff and even trauma once I get to know them and trust them. It just takes time getting close with friends. And okay, I can see that your life is very busy buuuut rest assured, after you prioritise and get through the important stuff of course, there's always time to squeeze in a liiiiittle bit of something if you plan things right. Like, doing one of those things you mentioned. Of course, all of this is easier said than done buuuut as daunting as this all sounds, you can do it !!

>>81761427
autistic people are incapable of empathy to be honest.

>>81759144 (OP)
I feel like ever since Covid a ton of ppl started feeling this way. Everything you just explained is exactly how Ive been feeling and ik a lot of ppl say this, but it DOES get better over time. If u havent tried already Id try and go to therapy if u have the time to. Its hard at first to get the energy to go but I promise its worth it talking to a professional like that. I did and got diagnosed with depression and anxiety, and after learning to cope properly and understand my feelings, I feel way better. Always know that there are people who care about you even if it doesnt seem like it.

>>81761660
I'm gonna touch you

>>81761558
You sound like a woman, I don't think you can understand me. Yes he cares but I have already said I need something different. I need tenderness. Even thinking about starting anything feels like a pointless huge task.
>>81761655
Na it is not possible, I simply don't have the time to even spend enough time with this people or do the things I want to form a real connection. I might try to do one of the things but they won't bring me closer to get a gf. Like I can only do one of the things per week at most.

>>81761693
It would already take so long to get into that. I was thinking about going to therapy but I hate talking about my feelings with strangers. I have ton of other trauma issues that I simply burried inside my mind because nobody ever cared.

>>81761660
You just don't have empathy for people who express their empathy in a way you aren't used to.

>>81759144 (OP)
Just go out and try to get a gf.
>but they will reject me
Then you will feel bad so at least you will feel something

>>81761741
I wasn't talking about expressions.

>>81761725
Yes, I'm a woman. I relate to how you feel but as much as I resonate with you, I'll never understand your feelings or situation as much as you do, as these are YOUR experiences and story. As for your need for a partner... best of luck in your romantic life and finding somebody who understands and loves you as much as you do for them. And, about finding it hard to start anything... Same, honestly. That first step is always the hardest but trust me, it's always worth a shot. Even if things don't go as planned, you at least tried. And, you should always keep trying, even when giving up just seems so tempting. Of course, no matter what advice I or any others give, it's up for you to decide what steps you should take in your life and when to start and I can't tell you what to do. Regardless, I wish all the best for you.

>>81761743
Perceiving people as lacking empathy because you can't pick up on it is an issue with expression though.

>>81761824
Omg thank you for this

>>81761824
That's you projecting. I didn't say anything about expression.

>>81761737
lol yeah I understand not being comfortable doing that with others. Tbh I stopped seeing mine after 6 sessions cus I started feeling like I could handle myself fine. Although if u think it could help u can do online therapy? Ur first session is usually free with all therapists so u could just do one online to test it out I think. Also past trauma is definitely related to ur current problems thats horrible that on one cared, just bc of bad experiences opening up in the past doesnt mean u should close off ur emotions completely tho! U need to surround urself by positive and thoughtful ppl who care abt u and ik thats hard to find for u now but u need to try. If it means anything I could totally talk to u!

>>81762013
Insinuating people born with a certain medical condition lack a core human trait despite overwhelming medical evidence to the contrary is the projection. You either just don't like someone with it, so you assume they lack empathy. Or you have it and view yourself as lacking in this department.

>>81762223
I said nothing about myself or someone I don't like. You're just saying random words now.

>>81759144 (OP)
Just run bro. Every day. Exercise, but mostly running. We're already all on a treadmill of sorts anyway, so just start running. RUSH==Run until something happens. Sonicmaxx.

>4Chan is no longer
>keep browsing it

>>81759144 (OP)
I passed that point years ago.
Everyone who loved me is now dead and I am waiting for the end.
Everything serves as a distraction until the sweet release of death.
I do some vidya when I wake up, then shitpost here most of the day.
It would be nice to get some unpaid sex before I turn 40 next year, but modern life is fucked.