All things are temporary. You're only here for a little while. Wasn't this fun? Didn't you have fun?

>>81766464 (OP)
I had fun and then it was almost immediately ruined and now I'm rotting in my bedroom again with a little less hope for my future

>>81766476
Well. If you're not having fun, don't worry. It'll be over soon. :)

>>81766464 (OP)
no, at no point in time in any period of my life have i had fun. literally no point in time in my life has been enjoyable. fuck all of you

>>81766521
That's because your heart is impure.

>>81766464 (OP)
No, my entire life has been awful.

>>81766733
Well then aren't you glad it won't be going on forever?

>>81766464 (OP)
No, a sea monkey like me will suffer here forever

eating good food, chilling in comfortable relaxing surroundings and not working a day in my life playing video games every day and watching movies/animes

yeah pretty good life, anything i want i get except sex which just isnt worth the effort

>>81766700
what exactly makes you say that? because i feel anger and upset that my whole life has been nothing but abuse?

>>81766759
Correct! The things that happen to you are out of your control, but the way you feel is entirely up to you. You chose negativity because you've allowed your heart to blacken as a response to what you've experienced and observed. The braver thing to do would've been to allow your optimism to persist in spite of everything. That would only make you happier. Joy means more when it's juxtaposed against strife. It only becomes more potent with resistance.

>>81766803
Optimism for what? I have literally no avenues of hope to be optimistic about

>>81766845
Hope is created, not found, silly! Hope is illogical! That's precisely what makes it work! When the chips are down, you remain hopeful instead of caving. That is when you win.

>>81766464 (OP)
>fun times neva last
>only fun pipo last

>>81767038
kek i love that fat negro

>>81767052
I remember when he popped up around covid
guy's still milking that shit I think

>>81766464 (OP)
Not really, i really hated this awful evil experience, i tried liking it, i fucking cant :(

>>81767010
Sounds dumb, in fact, i will try to be LESS hopeful as a result of reading your post

>>81766464 (OP)
All I had was fun which is why only the short term exists for me.

But this dream... it's so beautiful.

>>81767710
maybe to you, but not to me :(

The temporary nature of things is bearing down on me hard. I feel death encroaching on everything I love and hate and don't care for. Every second that passes delivers me closer to my absolute end, and what was it all for? What was my life about?
I'm trying in vain to reach into the greater things, to grasp ideas greater men than I conceived and explored, but I just can't. I feel painfully inadequate to be anything other than I am. Was it determined to be this way since I was born, I wonder, or was it the way I grew up, or was it written from the moment the universe began its tireless motion that I would write this post, feeling as I do. I don't know and I will never know because I am no genius, not even intelligent. I am no artist, no philosopher, no writer. I am nothing.
I don't feel like a puppet on strings, I feel like the motion coursing through the strings. I don't know who the puppetmaster is. I don't know what I'm making dance. I don't know if there's an audience at all.
Although every second feels precious, I don't know what's the deal. I thought I was having fun until I wasn't. I thought I heard the calling of something greater than me one or twice, but there's silence all around. What I do hear constantly, is the grinding of bones, the tearing of flesh, cries and screams of horror and pain. I see this worldwide parade of undeterred, unstoppable violence blaring 24/7, cutting through my escapist distractions and rendering every single dream I ever had moot and pointless before the mammoth size of this eternal calamity. Did I ever have fun, I wonder.
And then I think of eternal recurrence, I think of doing this over and over and over, forever. And I think about what my next move should be, what my death will be like, because I will live it eternally. Every second forever repeating, the good the bad and the ugly, but all of it aimless.
What am I setting myself up for, I wonder.

>>81766464 (OP)
>Didn't you have fun?
Can't say I did, but I'm glad it ends some day. I just hope I leave this place nicer than I found it.

>>81766464 (OP)
yeah I am having a pretty good time

>>81767681
>I will destroy myself out of spite to someone who is barely even aware of my existence and will never interact with me again outside of this one thread
...OK anon.

>>81766464 (OP)
Life is about more than fun.
It's about making it worthwile.
But I don't have a lot of fun and I don't think I have made most of my time worthwhile.
I have wasted it.