Thread 81769142

cringe ass post sorry bros
im a bipolar female NEET and summers fucking tough on me. I lost around 13 kilos these past 3 months, pretty sure I have an ED or shit like that. im 164cm tall for 57kg. pretty good. but I still look fucking fat. and bipolar cycles make summer even harder on me cause suddenly everything fucking sucks.
I go to the beach and I feel fat and disgusting. my ribcage is too wide, my boobs are fucking big it disgusts me it makes me look like a whore. I lost a shit ton of weight in my boobs and yet no fucking swimsuit tops fit me. I feel like a fucking whale it triggers me so so fucking bad. most of what's nice are my legs and ass I guess. even my back is disgusting.
on top of that I have my sister who's underweight and has no fucking chest, no hips, no thing and is much prettier than me.
I look disgusting. I have the body of a 40 year old Latina mom and im a 23 female. I lost 13 kilos and I still look like a whore. I wish my body would be so flat. my female friends are all about
>learn to self love girl <33 ur body is beautiful <33
but its lies, or some body positivity bullshit where we just have to ignore the fact that some bodies are simply better than others.
i lost 13kg for nothing. starved myself for nothing. I can't even leave my room most days cause it involves swimming activities and it makes want to cry.
I know im gonna get a shit ton of trolls and pervs for that post but I gotta put it somewhere cause I know most people here have been struggling with body image on this board, been lurking for years. and that also nobody will mindlessly that instagram slop of body positivity thing
I wish I could have a refined Natalie Portman kinda build instead of a disgusting skinny fat whore look that sabrina carpenter has.
I already barely eat because food makes me sick but now I dont think im even hungry at all anymore, im gonna let myself rot in my room and hopefully come out better.
>didnt reread
>probably cringe as fuck

>>81769142 (OP)
>im a bipolar female NEET
Post your panties.

>>81769142 (OP)
could split the blonde in half with my cock but left is probably the superior long term gf

do you have anything else going on besides worrying about your appearance?

>>81769187
How's she ever gonna get Chad without having a "perfect" body???

>>81769187
dunno. life has gotten better, I went to therapy and stuff. got meds too, that work for mania not depression. my brain just hyperfixates on things. either body, or my emo ass past.
just hate that some pervs might look at my body. I wish it could be the least sexualized possible

i dont want anyone to approach me and call me hot or pretty or "plumpy". it disgusts me and make me uncomfortable. I just want to look classy. having my kind of body make me look like im a braindead bitch

>>81769142 (OP)
>im a bipolar female NEET
lower your standards and date me
stop being so picky

>>81769142 (OP)
First things first, extremely cringe read (these are thoughts i had at 13, 23 is too old for that) and you should love your body, 40 year old latina princess <33
With that out of the way, you didn't lose 13kg for nothing, you're not far off from the anorexic vogue figure you yearn for so desperately.
You already lost a lot of weight, so you know you can do it.
Maybe you'd also want to lift weights a little, so you actually develop curves where you want them instead of having to deal with skin that looks like a deflated air mattress.
You also shouldn't stop eating because it'll just make your metabolism worse and we don't want you to gain more weight again.
You already remind yourself of your shitty figure constantly, so I'm sure your drive to do it is as large as you.
Good luck foid

>>81769142 (OP)
My cock is thicker than blondie's ankles, how does a white woman get so tiny?

>>81769142 (OP)
I would kill 16 puppies to be your weight

>>81769251
>I wish it could be the least sexualized possible
nta but there are disgusting moids like me that are into underweight girls. thinking like that is a waste of time

>>81769142 (OP)
I'm the same height as you and I weigh 20kg more than you. If i ever come into contact with you or anyone who is like you that complains about some bs like your boobs are too big (mine are small for my weight) I'm going to shoot you in the head. Appreciate what you have because it could be a lot worse like ME. Because I'm horrifically built and you should kill yourself honestly

You are looking to self harm, so nothing I say will have any effect (even if I, sincerely, feel much more attracted to the description you give of yourself than any other spooky skeleton you worship).

If by a miracle you are not completely insane, seek help from the people close to you. Nobody sees a big ass and thinks "slut" (that's a product of actions, not looks).

My suggestion is instead of starving yourself just focus on eating healthier and gradually eating less, while you're doing that learn a skill like riding a bike and just ride away from your problems, this will help you lose weight and make you feel better (skating and bike riding are probably the only reasons I haven't killed myself). Just keep losing weight for long enough and eventually you'll slim down enough to be beautiful. Also...big boobs and asses are not a problem unless you're fat so don't worry if they are always larger than the rest of you.

can't be bothered to read but you deserve your pain

low self esteem is so cute on a girl

>>81770916
girls have "low self-esteem" when they believe chad is going to tell them something nice

>>81769142 (OP)
fat girls are sexier dumbass

>>81769142 (OP)
I don't believe you. Do you have progress pics?