Another night in the miserable humiliation ritual that is my life. Please death just take me, just don't make it hurt, be gentle. I have suffered enough. I want to go home, I'm scared and crying. I'm not supposed to be here. I'm sorry for whatever I did to be punished by existing. Nonexistance I long for you, please mama take back your son into your embrace.

>>81769720 (OP)
You're still not worthy, anon

>>81769720 (OP)
See you tomorrow bro

Captcha: STANT

>>81769784
I'll be cursed to walk the earth for next 50 or so years it seems. It's like a long boring shift at work, checking your phone every minute, but seeing the same number on the clock.

>>81769819
fun fact: time moves faster when you stop looking at it

do something, man

You are worthy. Remember to breath, smile and don't let the shitters get you down. There are sad people who are broken and self degrading. The only way they can feel better is by making you feel worse or if they feel they are worse people than you , lower you to their level so they feel worthy to be with you.

They often are in relationships with because of their own self esteem issues and this only worsens their mental health. If they would give themselves a chance to heal then everything Could be better but instead they always play the "I don't deserve you, you'd never forgive me, I can't even forgive myself card".

>>81769848
I fund no joy in things unless I can share them with friends, of which I have none.

you've lost your touch mike we are sending a nuclear warhead to your location

>>81769911
Hopefully you can find the joy in things. Good luck with the money issue

>>81769938
*find joy
Money isn't an issue.

>>81769934
Let me know when you land and I'll pick you up at the airport

>>81769953
I know anon .. I know. Esl is a crippling disability BUT It also means you can flick your tongue really fast so there is that

>>81769911
yeah, everything seems to be better with friends
be it smoking, drinking, eating, etc.

>>81769975
Unfortunate 'life' is just multiple forms of consumption huh?

>>81769998
Our bodies are designed to consume, expell waste and fuck. Disgusting.

>>81769998
>>81770160
as long as one appreciates what one consumes, then its all good
i'm not sure bout you guys but when i have meat of any kind, i remind myself i am eating what was once alive - neither sentience nor conciousness matters but the fact that at one point it lived, breathed, and had a family of its own and here i am putting it in my mouth... give thanks for this meal, always

>>81770205
>Describes swallowing cum
Kek

>>81770160
I just wish for more, ya know? But I guess compassion, care, and love are technically forms of consumption and that's what matters to me

>>81769720 (OP)
You sound exactly like me. Let's hope we get our wish.

>>81770245
get your head out of the gutter, pervert!

>>81770324
One day. That is the biggest silver lining to all of this. It'll happen one day. To all of us.

>>81769720 (OP)

What is your discord? We may get along. Or do you just want to complain and not fix your problem.

>>81770496
God I hope so. Cupio dissolvi, et esse cum Christo.

>>81770332
Sorry. Need to just bite the bullet and go fuck a girl.

>>81770710
Abstaining for an ex for years is not good when even if I'm doing it because I love her and don't want to betray her if she love me she wouldn't be my ex.

I should just go back to fucking around with empty vapid fucks and not giving a shit and know that my true love that I care about is gone. That's a wonderful lifetime only person kind of thing and I get that no one else will understand that but whatever. I know the truth and it's really sad but I shouldn't keep waiting and just travel, spend money, fuck bitches.