>be me
>not ugly not awfully introverted
>can talk and get attention easily
>severe adhd so I talk a lot about really autistic shit (mainly Napoleon, European history. and 19th century French lit)
>dated one guy in hs that's it (he's the one that introduced me to that side btw never went back)
>ive been single for 6 years because he's my only reference of a bf and I havent found a single copy like him
>normie guy talks to me?
>disgusting. creep. probably only here for sex. probably braindead. probably dont know shit about History.
>half normie guy talks to me?
>weird. they think me being retarded is cute. I feel like an object or an anime girl. they will have sex, maybe date me, then leave.
>autistic guy talks to me?
>sure. I can get into it if he's not too retarded. but there's a high chance he will latch onto me like a leech and try to khs if something goes wrong
>guy who shares my interests talks to me?
>most of the time long distance. not into that shit.
>guy in my perimeter I actually like who might like me back talks to me?
>I get nervous, I say the most mentally ill shit and then he is stolen by another more stable foid and I get cucked.

my mom keeps asking me when's my next boyfriend. when I will have kids... I dont see when it will ever happen. dating pool is shit. people are boring. I just wanna coom on historically accurate napoleonic wars, built up historical AUs with every single details thought of in the uniform. and maybe write huge tons of text about the Holy Roman Empire and how autistic Louis xvi was.
>when will I get to date my historical husbando that will agree to have sex dressed up as a 19th century British dandy....

I hate schnigglers.

>>81773235 (OP)
I'll sew a carolean uniform myself if you'll talk about Gautier first, anon.

>>81773271
shit anon how did you know I was gonna get into nordic history soon, most I know of it is about the kalmar union. nordic history sounds based as fuck.. uniform looks cool as hell, I love the cape, would love to steal it while eating fish in the Swedish snow

>>81773235 (OP)
Nona, you being retarded IS cute. There's no two ways about it. I love your autistic enthusiasm for niche topics.

>>81773334
It's a date. we're gonna rob some tiny museum attached to an ancient wooden church in Sweden and camp out eating surstromming

>>81773376
thanks anon :(
most people dont mind my autistic interest but i also get it when they tell me to stfu when I start ranting about Catherine the great for two hours
>mommy dommy material desu

>>81773386
hell yeah. you get the uniform and bring some typical Swedish food,
>pic rel
I get the pretty dress AND the cape. hopefully we won't die of hypothermia and know how to make a fire

>>81773504
entirely honest, pure autism has taught me some decent wilderness survival stuff. plus we can probably find refuge with some schizophrenic man of the woods by saying we're virgin-born emissaries of christ or something. it'll be pure Ibsen even if you just die in the woods in a 300 year old cloak

>>81773504
>tell me to stfu
Awwww I'm sorry. I would love a wholesome autistic gf so I can protect her from a world that doesn't deserve her. I would listen the whole two hours and ask questions throughout :). You'll find someone.

>>81773571
ngl i kinda see the found family trope there. you work on the man's farm, I do the cooking and cleaning and he screams at God and burn sauge all around the house and live the rougon macquart life. hopefully he doesn't murder me in our sleep under alcohol and demonic hallucinations, but if it happens that also means you'll have to avenge me, which is kinda hot ngl

>>81773575
just wait till I tell you about the downfall of the Lithuanian-polish commonwealth at 3am without taking a breath
but thanks anon that's really sweet tho, hope you'll find your wholesome autistic gf too

do yuo play rts
: 3 i want a female tfreiend to play rise of nations and crusader kings II with (i suck at them)

>>81773756
>>81773756
I never play vidyas :o theyre awful for my concentration skills.
>and coordination
>and strategy

however I love hearing about vidya ranting :p what are those two about? in which historical setting does it happen? what do you like about those? yada yada, cum at me with ur infodump bro

>>81773724
you fucking get it. he treats us like surrogate kids because he knows otherwise he's the end of his line of schizo lutherans in the deep woods and simultaneously thinks we're agents of the devil because he hasn't even adapted to radio yet. we have to nurse him back to health when we wanders into the snow trying to finally be pure. he ends up rosmerholming himself and we have to figure out if we can live off what he taught us and eachother or if we have to trudge back to civilization like Rimbaud coming back from abyssinia. yeah.

>>81773842
anon, lowkey its a hella great idea for a book or some Gregg arakki movie and im being genuinely honest.
>manic pixie girl and autistic anon go live their autistic history dream and get lost in the woods
>they find some haunted schizo guy that will tell them theyre welcome here but won't give them info on the way back home
>they spend weeks there, the old guy is pure "the lighthouse" madness
>pixie girl and anon kinda fall in love in the meanwhile
>schizo guy gets even more paranoid
>throw some background morale about society and a tragic ending typical in the realism current

ill remember you when my screen play comes out in theaters in two years

>>81773923
I'll be writing into something. it's probably better for the stark post-romantic aesthetic stuff if the mcs don't fall in love discernibly and barely talk but are just obsessed with each other anyways, but honestly I like the sketch. and of course at the ending is just some Chekhov nonsense where they admit going back will ruin everything but then they do anyways.
anyways good luck OP. you seem incredible. I'm gonna go write

>>81774126
fucking typos. what I get for not rereading