I don't want a relationship anymore, I don't feel like I could offer anything to a girl other guys can. Also it would take so much of time to keep in contact with her and to spend time with her, time I already don't have. It is all pointless, I know even if I get to talk with a girl somehow and she would like me I would simply get ghosted or she would replace me with someone better. Also all the women are huge normalfags, I can't connect with them at all. I need someone who has a broken mind like me and who is weird. And they are all whores anyways who had sex with countless other guys while I am a khhv.
I think staying alone and wasting my life like that is the only thing I can do.