Thread 81779820

Thread for discussions about self harm and mutual support

on da mober phone edition

Hello
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

Here's a bunch of helpful links

> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

> wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

>a bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>>81779820 (OP)
yay im early to the club?

>>81779820 (OP)
I cut myself around 2 days ago and used my blood to write a friends name on my arm. I thought it would be nice since they did the same for me.
Life in general is bothering me, now that i have graduated i just dont know what to do anymore, i might just end up staying inside for the rest of my life

>>81779983
you're fast anon :0

>>81780031
hello
>since they did the same for me.
sounds strange but also nice in a way
are you still friends with that person after graduation?
>graduated i just dont know what to do anymore
yeah can't blame you anon, I went to uni because it's free here but idk what I'm doing too I'm just basically buying myself time and I may need even graduate it
is college free where you live too? or maybe you could try to get some job?

>>81780079
>are you still friends with that person after graduation?
Yuppers, we are i think

Honestly im just trying to keep my education going, not for any want for it but just because im terrified of facing the music of being a real functioning human being, in my youth i used education as my rock to set my church upon, so i wouldnt just collapse, my ceremony is in a week now and i still have no idea what to do.
>is college free where you live too?
Yes it is, i live in germany
>or maybe you could try to get some job?
i guess so, my family wants me to join the military to be a man but i honestly couldnt be bothered, i honestly dont see a point in trying to fit in this broken world.

i PROMISE im not an edgelord i have real concerns and ideas about the future of capitalist society.

>>81780164
>Yuppers
that's nice, glad you're still friends
do you have other friends too?
>not for any want for it but just because im terrified
I think that's many people, school is all you know and it didn't teach you how to function on your own so it makes sense to try to extend that
>Yes it is
phwe, good for you
do you know what kind of major you'd like to try?
>guess so, my family wants me to join the military
it's just my opinion but I don't think you should do that, especially now
>i PROMISE im not an edgelord
hehe
soiciety = bad!!! >>:3

>>81780337
>do you have other friends too?
one other friend, they are both online though
>do you know what kind of major you'd like to try?
im honestly just stumbling through it right now, i will be happy if i can get any kind of degree past my M10
>it's just my opinion but I don't think you should do that, especially now
yeah its like my plan Z or something
last case scenario if everything else goes awry
>hehe
soiciety = bad!!! >>:3

YES

>>81780462
>they are both online though
oh that's unfortunate, it'd be cool if you could hang out
do you plan in giving them a visit one day?
>can get any kind of degree past my M10
besr of luck, it's annoying
btw how was your experience with the school ur graduating now? did you like your time there?
>last case scenario if everything else goes awry
I guess, hopefully you never have to consider it though
>YES
BURN IN DOOWNN ! >:3

>>81780637
>do you plan in giving them a visit one day
im broke as all hell, but in an ideal world, yes
>how was your experience with the school ur graduating now? did you like your time there?
it was horrible, like something you would expect in a third world country, if you want i can get into more detail on it
>I guess, hopefully you never have to consider it though
i really hope i dont either
>BURN IN DOOWNN ! >:3
you seem like a nice sort of guy

>>81780677
>broke as all hell, but in an ideal world, yes
oh I'm guessing they live far away then
>you want i can get into more detail on it
sure if you're comfortable talking about it, I'll listen :>
>you seem like a nice sort of guy
thank you

>>81781030
do you wanna maybe add me on discord or something?
my user is bornila

>>81781043
I'm sorry anon but I'd rather just talk on 4cham
I don't like discord and I basically don't use anyway, only to send myself stuff from my phone to pc easily

>>81781229
alrighty, no problem
well TLDR with my school is that because i live in a small village in literally nowhere, it gets 0 funding, meaning the original structure from the 70s has never been renovated once, there are holes in the roof and walls, they put up signs a little bit ago saying the water (that i drank out of for like 4 years) is contaminated, and the teachers are pretty much insane, not as bad as the students though, i remember fondly the time where a kid got tackled by my teacher because he rubbed his penis on a random girl in class, literally ran out of the school building just to be chased down by my teacher

my apologies if my english is not legible i just dont care that much about the quality of my writing

>>81781229
also 4cham more like 4SHAM hahahahahahhahahaahahahahahaahahahh

>>81781368
>alrighty, no problem
thank u for understanding
>never been renovated once, there are holes
what :0
sounds very bad
>contaminated
:00
glad you're okay though
will the school get shut down?
>kid got tackled
sounds like that worst school on the planet lol !
the worst thing in my previous schools was that the toilet doors had holes in them from people kicking them open heh
>apologies if my english is not legible i
oh no worries, at the end of the day I can understand what you've saying so that's all that matters :D
>>81781459
>4SHAM
gottem !!!
hacker 4chan is crying rn I bet

I stopped SH about 9 years ago and have only relapsed a couple of times since.
I'm so embarrassed of the state of my leg, but I also barely notice or think about it any more.

>>81781677
Hello anon
good job anon, 9 years is insane, how much has changed in your life since then??
>relapsed a couple
that happens don't worry
>embarrassed of the state of my leg
I know it mibe not much help but if you walked around with your leg showing no one probably would even notice
And if someone does your can make up a funny sorry like, an electric eel did that to you
>barely notice or think about it
that's good

hey my dad forced me to mow the lawn with him so I feel awful rn bleh

>>81779820 (OP)
hey cat how are u?

>>81782260
eyo ali
>feel awful rn bleh
are you allergic??
hope no one will bother you anymore
I'm doing okay
I bought a new phone today because this one's battery started to grow D;
I'll pick it up tomorrow

>>81782286
>are you allergic??
no, just exhausted and I hate the sun. I put sun screen on but now I just feel gross.
>I'm doing okay
glad to hear.
>bought a new phone today because this one's battery started to grow D;
that's very cool then. what do you mean its growing?
>I'll pick it up tomorrow
nice :)
any sardines? lol

>>81782322
>>81782322
>hate the sun.
oh, was it hot?
>I put sun screen on but now I just feel gross
maybe shower time?
>very cool then.
I wish I didn't have to but eh
>what do you mean its growing?
it's getting bigger and bending the phone slightly you can look up how it looks
I'm not sure what caused that since I try to always charge my phone to around 80% and not go below 20% when using it
>any sardines? lol
oh ye! unfortunately nope
I was in the store today but they didn't have them but I'm going to the city center tomorrow so maybe they'll have them there

>>81782558
>oh, was it hot?
yea very hot, was 35
>maybe shower time?
I did take a shower, still feel gross tho.
>wish I didn't have to but eh
yea would be better if you weren't forced too :/
>bigger and bending the phone slightly you can look up how it looks
oh yea that's super weird, didn't know that was a thing.
>charge my phone to around 80% and not go below 20%
that's very smart and even weirder it did then, you'd think being careful like that would prevent it.
>didn't have them
aw that sucks then.
>city center tomorrow so maybe they'll have them there
oh that's very cool then and yea hopefully ^^ what do you plan on doing at the city center if I may ask?

>>81782727
>very hot, was 35
D:
shouldn't even be outside then
>still feel gross tho.
why?
>better if you weren't forced too :/
at least this one lasted me above 3years
low long have you had your phone for?
>didn't know that was a thing.
and tjey explode too :0
>you'd think being careful like that would prevent it.
maybe it was a cheap battery idk
>what do you plan on doing at the city center if I may ask?
I ordered the new phone and I'm going to pick it up in the store, of I hadn't done that I'd have to wait till tuesday to get it
also sorry if I disappear
I'm feelin a bit sleepy

Trying to get a specialist for my learning disability is just another big game of roundabout, but I'm still putting in the effort to get this issue resolved

How is everybody else?

>>81782831
>shouldn't even be outside then
true very true.
>why?
well the sunscreen doesn't come off easily in water.
>this one lasted me above 3years
that's very good then.
>long have you had your phone for?
oh do you not remember when my last phone broke last year lol. but yea before that I had my last one for 2 or 3 years.
>and tjey explode too :0
oh yea that's very scary :/
>pick it up in the store
oh yea makes sense:)
>I'm feelin a bit sleepy
don't be sorry and sleep well :]

>>81782898
that does sound pretty annoying to deal with, I imagine it's not easy to get someone too. and very good your putting in the effort :D

I'm okay feel a bit gross and my rash or whatever it is on my hand is hurting.

/cat/ is a femboy and therefore he needs to be head patted, affectionately, severely, continuously, for several hours.

I think I might be sick, my throat has been sore all day

>>81783461
how are you?

>>81784115
>I think I might be sick, my throat has been sore all day
Keep yourself occupied. If you are sick the only thing that you can do is wait for your body to fight it off.
>how are you?
Numb.

>>81784222
>Keep yourself occupied
yea I'm trying. helped my dad cook which was nice. not fun being sick tho.
>Numb
wanna talk about why or nah?

>>81784402
>yea I'm trying. helped my dad cook which was nice. not fun being sick tho
Being sick sucks.
>wanna talk about why or nah?
I'm just tired I suppose. My brain kind of shuts off after stressful situations.

>>81784453
>Being sick sucks.
truly is the worst.
>brain kind of shuts off after stressful situations.
fair enough, I think that's semi common sadly. not good shutting but just sucks you to even be in a stressful situation.

I hate that when I'm sick I eat so much more I hate myself

>>81784526
>truly is the worst.
If it makes you feel better I'm also a little sick. Not the flu or anything like that. Just something temporary that comes and goes.
>fair enough, I think that's semi common sadly. not good shutting but just sucks you to even be in a stressful situation.
It really does. I will meet up with a friend on Sunday and I'm honestly a bit nervous. Some days I feel like absolute hell and I can't control it. I really like her and I never want her to see me when I'm at my worst.
>>81784872
>I hate that when I'm sick I eat so much more I hate myself
Don't. Nothing wrong with it. When I'm sick my appetite tanks.

>>81785543
>I'm also a little sick
that makes me feel worse if anything, I don't want people to be sick, hope you get better soon.
>something temporary that comes and goes.
that's interesting then.
>meet up with a friend on Sunday and I'm honestly a bit nervous.
best of luck, anxiety stuff is never fun. wish I could give some advice but I've never met with a friend or anything. I think even if your not at your best they with mind.
>really like her and I never want her to see me when I'm at my worst
hm yea that's difficult I understand what you mean. I'd say as long as it's not your first time meeting don't try to hide it to much or anything.
>Nothing wrong with it. When I'm sick my appetite tanks.
I just already feel fat all the time I've eaten Soo much today. I really need to stop eating

>>81779820 (OP)
its been almost a year since the last time i hurt myself
i did stop bc i promised to a person i love even when i dont truly believe it matters.
to me, self harm is my way to stop feeling that temporaly heavy depression, i stopped before bc i didnt care to feel down when i was at home, but then started happening at work, and i cannot feel like that when im working.
so during the last months of self harm i only hurting myself while working.
i still have a clean razor on my backpack just in case i feel an even stronger feeling, but luckily, even when it was close, that hasn't happened yet

>>81786613
good job a year is a long time. and that's good you found that person you love.
that's fair that's usually when most people cut anyways. work is awful.
good job for not <3

mornin :3
I'm going to the dentist soon
how r you guys doing?

>>81787273
good morning cat good luck at the dentist hope it goes well.
im ok still very sick

>>81779820 (OP)
Why dont you get some original pictures instead of posting the same stupid cartoon on repeat.

>How are you doing today?
I'm alright I think, I've called in sick for work these last couple of days just so I can recoup mentally.
>Any plans for today?
Gonna play The Silver Case all day and make pizza.
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
2 days ago
>Why did you hurt yourself?
I saw a couple outside being lovey dovey and it made me burst into tears thus I ended up cutting my thighs (very 12 year old of me, I know)
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Loneliness and the fact that I ran out of my Italian peach tea drink..

>>81788820
smart to let yourself relax and take a day for your mental.
>play The Silver Case all day and make pizza.
sounds like the perfect day I'd say :D
>saw a couple outside
fair it's hard to resist emotions when people are like that.
>Loneliness and the fact that I ran out of my Italian peach tea drink..
loneliness sucks, and that does sound truly depressing

>>81787273
I prolly should go to the dentist soon

I got two broken mullars that are literally crumbling away

Bumping it's bump :D

/cat/ is a femboy and therefore he needs to be head-patted, affectionately, severely, continuously, for several hours,

>>81788820
>dont you get some original pictures
Maybe I'll commission someone to make some, who knows

>>81788820
Hello anon
>called in sick for work these last
Good
Hope you get to rest well
>play The Silver Case all day and make pizza.
Does sound like a good rest to me :D
>made me burst into tears thus
Sorry to hear that anon
>very 12 year old of me, I know
You shouldn't beat yourself over that, I'm sure many people can relate to feeling like that

>>81788684
Hey Ali
>dentist hope it goes well.
It did :D
>im ok still very sick
Noon D:

>>81790271
Hey bib that sounds awful
At least nothing hurts you yet
But you should visit one asap

>>81791674
hey cat
>It did :D
happy it did :)
>Noon D:
yea I hate it :(

I'm relapsing again. I hate my life so much. No one wants me, they only like me because I am convenient.

>>81792075
Also got the new phone :D
how's your day?
>yea I hate it :(
how bad is it ?
is it just a cold?

>>81792103
hey anon
>relapsing again
life gets too much to handle sometimes
hope you at least didn't do much damage and you patched urself up
Can you spend your day by yourself and just try to relax?

>>81792130
>Also got the new phone :D
yayyy!! hope it's Good :)
>how's your day?
was ok, basically couldn't do anything tho. need to eat soon. how about you? any sardines hehe
>how bad is it ?
it's just a bad sore throat it doesn't hurt when j swallow or anything just my mouth is super gross and uncomfortable.
>just a cold?
idk I hope so.

hiii everyone :3
been sick and had bad days lately but hii!!
hru cat and gator?

>>81792286
>hope it's Good :)
yep I'll be okay :>
I don't need much from a phone
>need to eat soon.
whatcha going to eat?
>how about you? any sardines hehe
I'm well, everything went smoothly ^^
no sardines though, I had to rush a little and had jo time to check out the stores :c
now I might watch some movies, maybe the 28 years latr one
>hurt when j swallow
phew at least you avoided the worst
still, sorry to hear that fren
make sure to drink loots of water and sleep a lot

>>81792382
hey heyo :3
>been sick and had bad days
the worst combo :<
hope you get better soon fren, how long have you been sick now?
have you been doing stuff to make yourself feel a little better?
>hru
I'm well, I went to the dentist today and it went okay and later I went to pick up a new phone, my old ones battery grew a little and I decided I should get a new one x_x
too bad, the old one lasted me 3,5 years but oh well

>>81779820 (OP)
hey everyone, good news for the future ig cus i'm getting 2 cats so the house can be a bit less miserable, used to have a cat but she died like 1.5 yrs ago. its my first time trying to raise them tho so i hope all goes well. might post a few pics when i can

>>81791162
Why is the femboy ignoring my proposition?

>>81793223
hellou ^^
>getting 2 cats
ooo cuteee!! :o
have you come up with the names yet?
>house can be a bit less miserable,
hopefully, and like u said you could also send us cute pictures :3
>she died like 1.5 yrs ago
sorry to hear this, how old was she?
>hope all goes well.
best of luck
I actually heard that it's best to get two kittens instead of one
I'm sure they're gonna have a lovely life with you ^^

>>81793253
headpatting for several hours could be a torture
it's like tickling, it should be done in moderation
How's your day going btw?

>>81793295
>have you come up with the names yet?
i wanted to give them latin names cus im a filthy romaboo, but i'll probably just name them smthn random.
>you could also send us cute pictures :3
will do!
>how old was she?
lived suprisingly long, something like 16-17?
>it's best to get two kittens
i thought so too, they might be able to get along with other cats then and not turn into an antisocial retard like my previous one, which is kinda detrimental cus i live in a neighborhood with a lot of cats.
>they're gonna have a lovely life with you ^^
well i'm certainly gonna try

>>81792945
>how long have you been sick now?
almost a week :C
>have you been doing stuff to make yourself feel a little better?
not really, it's been so hot lately it's torture
I wish I had a cold popsicle or something
>went to the dentist today and it went okay
that's good :D hopefully no cavities then
>later I went to pick up a new phone
oooo nice!! How is it?
>old ones battery grew a little
uh oh, wouldn't want that to pop lol :3
>the old one lasted me 3,5 years
That's a good lifetime though :D
R.I.P old phone tho <3

>>81793223
> i'm getting 2 cats
woah :0 !!!!
that's awesome!!
hopefully we receive cute pics ^^
>but she died like 1.5 yrs ago
aww sorry to hear, what was her name?
>its my first time trying to raise them
oh well you could always ask here for advice if you want :p but good luck!!
>might post a few pics when i can
yeahh :D

>>81792382
hey meowster good to see you <3
>been sick and had bad days lately but hii!!
aw that's horrible :(. I hope you feel better soon. what have you been up to today <3
>hru
I'm ok, got a sore throat but I'm fine.

>>81792945
>don't need much from a phone
good, phones shouldn't be your lite anyways.
>whatcha going to eat?
I just got some random pasta thing
>everything went smoothly ^^
very glad to hear that :)
>had to rush a little and had jo time to check out the stores :c
oh no that's so sad :( hopefully one day the sardines become a reality.
>maybe the 28 years latr one
Oo yea heard that was pretty decent, hope you like it :)
>make sure to drink loots of water and sleep a lot
yea i definitely need to. so hard to sleep when sore throat tho.

>>81793223
heya.
>getting 2 cats
cats are the best, everyone loves them :)
>can be a bit less miserable
they can definitely help with the loneliness. I cuddle my cats thinking it's someone sometimes hehe.
>she died like 1.5 yrs ago
I'm sorry to hear that. I remember when my first cat died. was the first time I felt true loss and just complete sadness.

>>81793416
>hopefully we receive cute pics ^^
you will!!
>what was her name?
Fien, it's a dutch name. doesn't translate very well
>you could always ask here for advice if you want
i will i have question, mostly im just a bit worried about them pissing everywhere and if they'll get along. but they're young so hopefully if they grow up correctly it'll be fine

>>81793465
>I cuddle my cats thinking it's someone sometimes hehe.
i mean they're a living creature with emotions, so to me they're a lot more "someone" than most people i've met
>was the first time I felt true loss and just complete sadness.
i get that. when mine died initially i didn't care as much as i thought i would, but as you notice their absence it starts to hurt.

>>81793710
>mostly im just a bit worried about them pissing everywhere
yeahh lol, there's videos on how to train them to use litter boxes, also make sure you get non clumping cat sand so they don't eat it and choke!! kittens learn like babies, by putting stuff in their mouth.
>and if they'll get along. but they're young
yeahhh, if they haven't met before make sure they get used to eachothers scent, then you can introduce them etc :3

I'm sure it'll be a learning and awesome expereince though!!

>>81793381
>wanted to give them latin names
sounds nice
>probably just name them smthn random.
maybe there's some latin pun or a funny sayings you could reference
>will do!
yaya
>something like 16-17?
aw poor grandma :<
>other cats then and not turn into an antisocial
she didn't like leaving the house?
>neighborhood with a lot of cats.
you plan on letting them out?

>>81793416
>almost a week :C
D;
at least it'll leave soon, if it a cold
those usually last about a week
>been so hot lately it's torture
here it's been cool
hope the clouds from here move your way
>cold popsicle or something
no popsicle is a death sentence ><
you think you could pop into a store sometime soon?
>hopefully no cavities then
no more :DD
but I'll go for a checkup in 6 months
>How is it?
it's okay
no complaints and it wasn't that expensive
hopefully it lasts me a while
>wouldn't want that to pop lol :3
yep, it's scary, the screen started to bend a little bit so I had a curved screen heh
>good lifetime though :D
yep though if the batteries were replaceable it'll probably be able to last 3more

>>81793465
>phones shouldn't be your lite
yep though I use it a lot :/
>got some random pasta thing
was it tasty?
>glad to hear that :)
thanks
how's ur phone holding up?
>hopefully one day the sardines become a reality.
I hope so too :c
>hope you like it :)
I was about to watch it and then went to do a few things and now here's almost 12 and it's a little too late for movies
silly me
>hard to sleep when sore throat tho.
ye :<
I know I always reccomend it but warm milk with honey could help btw

>>81793710
>they're a lot more "someone" than most people
true, there always real no matter what, and love you for you. even if sometimes they dont love constant cuddles hehe.
>didn't care as much as i thought i would,
I kinda had that too. and yea then you just actually realize there gone, and that's when it hits like a truck, at least it did for me. I used to cuddle her every night.

>>81793805
>yep though I use it a lot :/
I think everyone does, I use my phone wayy to much.
>was it tasty?
it was very much so yea.
>how's ur phone holding up?
pretty good I'd say. haven't cracked it yet lol.
>almost 12 and it's a little too late for movies
aw that sucks :/. hopefully tomorrow..have you ever watched the 28 days later I think it's called?
>but warm milk with honey could help btw
thanks I'll get some soon <3

>>81793733
>you get non clumping cat sand so they don't eat it and choke
gotcha, i'll be sure to get some.
>if they haven't met before
afaik they're from the same litter, so it shouldn't be a problem i hope
>I'm sure it'll be a learning and awesome expereince though!!
I hope so!

>>81793805
>latin pun or a funny sayings you could reference
probably, i don't know latin well enough to think of anything tho
>she didn't like leaving the house?
at the end not so much, she always went outside but also always got into fights. the neighbors' cats always managed to somewhat get along as long as nobody messed on eachother's territory
>you plan on letting them out?
not rlly but my parents think its cruel to keep them indoors, so i'll probably reluctantly let them outside, i'm just worried about them getting hurt or hurting the ecosystem or whatever.

>>81793899
>there always real no matter what, and love you for you.
yup, they're authentic. which is something a lot of people lack nowadays
>you just actually realize there gone, and that's when it hits like a truck
yep, i guess its like the old saying "you never realize how much you need something until it's gone"


I'll be calling it a night now, hope everyone has a good night!!

>>81793899
>think everyone does
yep
but actually there are people choosing to use a not a smartphone phone instead
>was very much so yea
oaa I didn't expect a random pasta thing to be so tasty :0
>haven't cracked it yet lol
good
it happened to you often?
I never cracked a phone by dripping it though I'd drop them a lot hehe
>tomorrow..have you ever watched the 28 days later I think it's called?
yupp it's a nice movie I reccomend it
have you seen it?
>thanks I'll get some soon <3
hope it helps

>>81794003
>don't know latin well enough
maybe there is like a website with top 10 funny words found in Pompeii or something ^^
>always got into fights
feisty >:3
>parents think its cruel to keep them indoors, so
you probably can't change their opinion but it fine to keeep a cat always inside or maybe make a patio (catio :3) for it to get fresh air
or you could take them out on a leash heh, that's possible too though not common, people seem to mind it more than the cats
>worried about them getting hurt
I'd be worried too especially if they're little :<
>calling it a night now
sleep tight !!

I'll be going to sleep too in a while

>>81794003
>which is something a lot of people lack nowadays
yea sucks people aren't, hard to be authentic but very important to be.
>you never realize how much you need something until it's gone
exactly, the second you want it but don't have it just depression.
>hope everyone has a good night!!
goodnight sweet dreams. and thanks

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>there are people choosing to use a not a smartphone phone instead
I've seen that but honestly just sounds like more work then it's worth.
>expect a random pasta thing to be so tasty
lol well I do love pasta.
>happened to you often?
nop just was talking about what happened to my last phone I always have a case so it's super rare for my phones to.
>never cracked a phone by dripping it though I'd drop them a lot hehe
fair hehe and good you haven't.
>movie I reccomend it
>have you seen it?
awesome then and no I haven't I will soon now tho then :)
>going to sleep too in a while
goodnight cat