How do people enjoy alcohol? Drinking makes me feel slow and stupid, I don't get it at all.

>>81784384 (OP)
I am going to come across as extremely narcissistic and egotistical for this, but I love alcohol. I frequently fantasise about drinking (but avoid drinking more than once a week). Being drunk is incredibly cathartic and peaceful for me, and I can tell you it's because, for the most part, my brain works too much, and too fast. I was diagnosed with autism at 12 and was tested as having an adult IQ around 135-145 in my teens. My brain basically never stops doing things, constantly arguing with itself about whatever it happens to conjure up at any given moment. My autism also means that, from the age of 12, I have had to force myself to learn what social boundaries are, how to gesticulate, how to interact with people and how to remain "proper" and not make people uncomfortable.

Alcohol just allows me to let go for a few hours. To have my brain slow down, for my endless social filters to slip away. People like me a lot when I am drunk, they find me fun, charming, sexy, intelligent, funny, whatever positive you can imagine, and that's all because my brain just stops being so combative for a while.

>>81784384 (OP)
It makes it easier to talk with people
It's a social lubricant

>>81784384 (OP)
If you are stupid to begin with I guess it probably does nothing. If you're smart then it makes you stupid which is a tremendous relief from the constant psychic misery of consciousness

>>81784418
Damn... This is so real. They should still offer lobotomies honestly.

makes me smile

>>81784446
I like having my brain, it's a useful thing to have, but I wish it would just shut the fuck up sometimes. What's awful is that when I talk about it, people get angry at me, or offer useless advice like "oh just stop thinking" or "try meditation". The only thing that works for me is alcohol. Weed makes me anxious and upsets me, so that's out of the question too. People get mad at me for drinking, or being drunk when I am "not supposed to be" (like being home alone) but they genuinely cannot imagine what it's like having the mental equivalent of a screeching drill constantly playing in your brain 24/7, and for the whole world to constantly be hurting you because of sensory overload.

Even here, on 4channel, an Anon reading this will think "wow stop being so dramatic grow up dude stop talking like a YA novel character your life isn't that tragic", which just proves my point. I'm supposed to just suffer because it's not THAT bad, and knowing that makes me feel even worse, which makes me suffer more. It's great.

when i wake up in the morning, i dont know how im going to feel. when i drink 12 beers, i know exactly how im going to feel. i like being in control of something, so i drink daily.
>t. bipolar anon