Every time i "befriended" some normie our relationship started with them respecting me I think cause of my face, but the moment they smell autism its just pet/owner stuff

>>81786395 (OP)
i was still treated as a pet by other autists but they were stacies/attractive women

>260lbs retarded 14yo girl
>literally spent so much time trying to form this group
>they end up treating me like a pet/clown
>stick me at the front of class to throw pens at me, steal my phone and go through my messages/photos, tell me im not allowed to e-date anyone ever cause im "being groomed" because im "young and retarded"
>not allowed to touch any of them, cant sit on their beds at hangouts

>lost weight at 16, started taking care of my appearance
>170lbs now, skinnier than 2 of them
>they started treating me like a human, let me sit next to them, hugged me
>realised these bitches only fucking want anything to do with me when im attractive
>ghost them all and they go mental about it
>drop out of hs and never make friends again

i fucking hate people

I've never had a gf but I think I'd like an autistic one. They just seem so cute and wholesome unlike most of the disillusioned neurotypical women out there.

>>81786395 (OP)
is that a bad thing?

most of my peer group is into pet play. i have a clicker hanging from my purse and carry some leashes to attach to collars i'm guaranteed to encounter

>>81786395 (OP)
i think that's true for most. avoid and ignore them, give them simple polite interactions only when it's required, give them the most awkward version of you to gossip about so they leave you the fuck alone. the problem is when you're not aware of it and end up getting hurt. move with discernment, but don't close yourself off

It's most stark when you later see them interacting with people who they consider to be their actual friends / normal people. Suddenly you realise the interactions you had with them which at the time seemed positive were actually them talking down to you, humouring you, placting you, and being polite.

Despite numerous prior interactions with these people, you now realise that you were always kept at arm's length and never even stood a chance at getting to know the real version of them because it was never shown to you. It was withheld from you because they don't consider you their equal. To them, a real connection with you could never exist any more than could a real connection with a child. They speak to you on what they consider to be 'your level'. Patronising you.

>>81786786
Yeah being alone is kinda mid too

>>81787046
How do I deal with it?

>>81786395 (OP)
Are you sure there was a change at all and it's not you became primed to look for things to confirm your biases after you have been found out? The short of it is most humans treat each other as anything but what they see as "friends" and I wager even in your case you be foolish enough to see yourself as a "good friend" in spite of many flaws about yourself that you rationalize.

>>81786444
>claims to be a girl but talks like a man

Amazing how hard it is to hide yourself isn't?

>>81787089
What has this to do woth anything? My flaw is that im autistic and so inhuman

>>81787119
It has a lot to do with everything including your flaw. You are taking in very imperfect data and drawling black and white conclusions from it. You assume they are not doing the same to everyone else, or that their behavior isn't primed by other metrics such as wanting something out of the person so taking on a different behavior as a means to get what they are after, what if them treating you like a " pet/owner" is them just relaxing and being the real them around you?

>>81787135
Ir cant be happening every time

>>81786395 (OP)
I think that in order for a normie to talk to you on an equal level without feelings of superiority, he has to be truly humble, not influenced by his ego and be mindful of his thoughts and emotions so as to remain respectful, considerate, understanding and compassionate toward you. I think that you as an autist make him more aware of everything he does because of the nature of your interaction, which challenges many aspects that make him who he is, or sees himself to be, as a person.
t. normie that prefers talking to autists

>>81787139
You don't know that, you are falling prey to the law of small numbers. You could simply be just attracted to types that behave like that or they are to you, further still it could be -again- they are all doing very different things but you categorize them the same as you now have this belief that if they see your "autism" they wil then treat you differently. What if it was there from the start and you never saw it? What if it was never there and you are just making yourself find evidence?