Fuck man my loneliness is spiking recently. No friends no gf just slaving at work and rotting at home. I always knew I'd live a loser incel life but I prayed the hurt would stop someday, guess what, even at 25 it still permeates into every facet of life. Always alone alone alone. I'll never get the affection I want. I'll never get a hug or get to cuddle. I'll never find support in anyone else. I'll never have someone to trust with my worthless weirdo loser thoughts and feelings. Just depression and suicidal thoughts. Just - nothing.

>>81788643 (OP)
Nothingburger problems, if you think your life is shit then try living with severe physical disabilities. You should kill yourself for being a whiny little faggot.

>>81788643 (OP)
Nice. Looking forward to this life

>>81788671
Haha okay midget/nugget/cripple/worthless broken human.

>>81788694
I'm not a cripple, nor a midget, I'm just saying I'm a 24 year old KHHV with no friends and no future but you don't see me whining, I find it incredibly hilarious retards unironically kill themselves just because nobody loves them, it's so pathetic and weak. The only legitimate reason to kill yourself is if you had something like locked-in syndrome, or being a limbless, blind, deaf, mute human nugget. I hope you suffer for being a weak little nigger faggot and kill yourself and burn in hell.

>>81788643 (OP)
Same boat, OP, except im not an incel, i get all the sex i want, but no one wants to stick around and form an actual couple with me. Im not even depressed anymore, im numb as fuck about everything. Ive tried everything, women, men and trans (im bi), i even tried adding people from /soc/ to have a little banter but everyone there is an insufferable alcoholic or drug addict. Im anedonic as fuck. I just want to be loved.

>>81788788
>I just want to be loved
Then you OP should be faggots by giving each other aids then dying from it.

>>81788671
>but other people have it worse!
Aaaaaaaaand?

>>81788643 (OP)
don't you have a hobby that can connect you with others? i think there is always someone out there who would love to talk to you if you're interested in the same stuff. like right now imagining you like the same as me makes me excited and want to be your friend

>>81789067
No. Lifelong loneliness and depression have left me unable to enjoy. I have tried all the usual things like art, instruments, sport, computer stuff, etc etc but I barely got enjoyment from any hobby itself, much less enough to make a hobby worthwhile. I can't even muster the effort to watch movies/series or play video games most days anymore. Literal coping has become too tedious. Without someone else there is no point for me. Nothing is adequate if you don't have anyone to share it with.

>>81788643 (OP)
try dating apps where you present yourself exactly as a weirdo, just don't be a downer

>>81788983
>be you
>get papercut
>scream and cry like a little faggot bitch
>someone tells you it's barely a problem at all and it's not like your arm got cut off
>you: "Heh using the 'people got it worse' excuse"

retarded reddit nigger

>>81789358
womp womp then kill yourself already but you will burn in hell for an eternity as punishment for your weakness

>>81789933
>your experience is invalid because I'm a strawmanning nigger
nta but lmao
true suffering doesn't even exist, cuck

>>81788766
You probably were cared for growing up then. When you grew up feeling like you couldn't go to your family for anything and so you had to deal with everything alone, and you struggled to find friends because you went to school as an otaku in a town with a 99% youth population of football faggots, that feeling of loneliness, knowing nobody cares, knowing barely anybody would be at your funeral and if a few people did come they wouldn't have any touching speech to give about you, etc, grows and becomes heavier and heavier of an emotional burden. Up until maybe I was 17 I felt the exact same way didn't care at all, being a hikkikomori sounded like a dream, but at some point it it just hits you. Hell, even if you didn't have bad circumstances like me, in a few years I wouldn't be surprised if you felt the same way, you're gonna be 28, 29, nearly 30, and think about how old you are but how little connections you've made, in fact I'd bet on that happening. When it does think back to what you said here, jej.

>>81789950
i'll be in heaven but thanks

Stop rotting at home then, I agree it's a non issue

>>81788643 (OP)
Start doing sports you think you can like.

>>81791443
Its an issue because what is alternative? People just don't start rotting at home its best feeling alternative. They don't know better and finding better is not easy.

>>81789950
>jewish fairy tales form 1000 BC
When will you grow up frorm this phase anon?

>>81788643 (OP)
Hey man, I'm 26. Been there done that. Here's something to help you through it. When you believe in yourself, you believe in the truths you make for yourself.

https://youtu.be/DBnENlXt-H4?si=e__ZCO6oh4zmJADi

>>81791564
The alternative is stop rotting at home. Get up, take your keys, open the door, leave.

>>81788788
why dont you date OP

>>81791760
Alright I did that, now I'm outside the front door. What now?

>>81788643 (OP)
>slaving at work and rotting at home
might not be exactly helpful but i found my life became a lot more fulfilling when i stopped giving a shit about my security as much. sold most of my shit and began living a life of biking around the northeast and working odd jobs in small towns.

>>81788643 (OP)
All these other anons are just going to keep being dickheads about it but we all know what you're feeling. The thing is you're right, you're literally never getting anything you want and you have to live with that until death. That's what makes life so brutal putting up with a bunch of shit we all hate just to survive while the vast majority literally get nothing for it. Humanity is a nightmare species overall.

>>81792238
Go to the park and say hi to someone

>>81792337
>biking around the northeast and working odd jobs in small towns
What do you do in the winter? Sounds like a ideal fantasy larp frankly you daydream about. I live in new england and nobody sporadically hires drifters on bicycles for odd jobs and there's no where to sleep at night for homeless.

>>81792392
Okay they looked at me weird and told me to fuck off. What now?

>>81793121
stop larping and do it

>>81792456
>What do you do in the winter?
i've got a buddy out in western mass who runs a music store. last fall/early winter, i taught guitar lessons for $30/hr and nightly couch sleeping. went back and forth between ~pittsfield and albany/latham. this spring i moved over to ~katahdin where i'm a counselor at a summer camp. i'm taking a gap year between my undergrad and my phd, so i'm not a permadrifter, but i prefer this to just staying at home mooching off my parents.
>nowhere to sleep at night for homeless
erm, pioneer valley is basically only homeless kek

>>81788671
>ERMMMMMMM STARVING NIGLETS? YES?
please god update the npc script to anything else already

>>81788643 (OP)
Same, the people I care about no longer talk to me. I have no RL friends, and anyone online has no time of day for me. I am aging and decrepit and just don't see a point in getting up anymore.

>>81789535
you mean r9k? no girls from my country here

>>81793174
you sound like a complete normgroid

>>81793687
i'm actually a khhv hapa manlet ND freak anon

i'm also 25 and literally in the exact same situation. my only online friend blocked me recently and now i rot away alone every single day. i have nothing and i am nothing. hard to find motivation to do anything when you're all alone.

>>81788643 (OP)
i can give you some tips but i already 100% know you're not gonna do anything with it or make up some cope bs excuse because breaking a habit for some people is worse than the mental pain
>go walk in a local park a few times a week, be around people without even talking to them
>look for local clubs to join, look for anything that might interest you like chess or board games or anime
>volunteer at an elderly home, go walk with them (bonus: you'll interact with nurses)
>visit the local library, go read some books in a corner while people walk past you, you don't even have to talk or look at them, being near other people helps against loneliness
>visit markets, just walk through them
>join a sports club like swimming or whatever you like (if you are into sports, most on this board probably aren't)

>>81788643 (OP)
if it makes you feel any better, you helped me find words for how i'm feeling, and i've been trying for a month to find them.

>>81788643 (OP)
>just slaving at work and rotting at home
Same! I love it minus having to work. I will live like this the rest of my life only time I'll kms is after my parents die maybe or else if I ever get a bad health problems

I love rotting I love no one being around

can't let this thread die, it's too relatable

>>81794140
>hard to find motivation to do anything when you're all alone
Want to be friends? Give your @

>>81796063
bonding over our shared loneliness seems like a recipe for disaster.. and my interests/stuff i used to enjoy are probably too autistic for you

>>81796090
Is that a no then? Alright, gl

>>81796090
share them retard

>>81796107
just being realistic
>>81796121
mostly otaku type stuff like animanga, retro vidya, tokusatsu, pro wrestling, mecha

>>81788643 (OP)
I know its surrogate activities but try to find some hobbies. At 24 I thought I found love and finally got a girlfriend but it all ended up as an illusion and they're now trying to get me falsely accused. It's not worth it; if you have any inclination towards dudes maybe you could try that, but if not then avoid it of course.

>>81788643 (OP)
I only have one friend that I talk to now pretty much. The last time I talked to a person that wasn't him was over a month ago. I am still not over this girl I used to talk to and I am going to make an alt to message her in the near future.

anon, we all have a default girlfriend

her name is Sunyata and she will take your troubles away if you let her

when loneliness hits, follow that thought. hold it intensely, map out every nook and cranny, and ask, "what is it that is lonely? where is the center?". pay attention in exquisite detail what sensation entrains what other sensation

in time you will see there is no center there at all. there is no self. it's all empty! it's all empty! and in that blissfull moment you will see Sunyata's smile

I believe in you