Thread 81808923

Anyone want to vent? I'll listen to your problems if it helps at all. I can't provide advice, but I can at least be an emotional punching bag. Please tell me about what's on your mind.

>>81808923 (OP)
ive spent the last few hours researching living homeless on the appalachian trail permanently. it genuinely seems like the most reasonable escape from my situation. im a fucking coward so ill never do it though. i hate my life so fucking much. even if i died in like a month the homeless option would still be worth it but im just too scared to do anything outside my routine. i hate myself. this is why my life will never change.

>>81808949
What is your situation like? What are you trying to escape from?

>>81808923 (OP)
do you want to vent yourself OP?

>>81808923 (OP)
>but I can at least be an emotional punching bag
ok thanks
my life is horrible and i really dont wanna get into why but i wanna choke you and strangle you until you say nice things to me and i wanna beat you until you say nice things to me I FUCKING HATE YOU ANON I HATE YOU SO MUCH YOU MAKE ME WANT TO OVMIT

>>81808923 (OP)
Ya. Thanks. I'm so upset no fembots post their panties. . . . . . . .

Im getting old. People have started dying out and I have seen how squandered my life has been. I thought I was lonely before but I was not really ready for this.

>>81808923 (OP)
Are you a female? If you are then you'll receive the vent / tirade of a lifetime

>>81808982
>Incles are nice guys
Lel

>>81809002
Whoa. Gaydar went off hard to this pic

>>81808923 (OP)
I am a lonely friendless wageslave living with my parents and recently turned 24. My life is relatively comfortable but I feel empty when I have nothing to look forward to except years of working and coping with video games. I am scared of getting old because I still feel like a clueless kid and I have no idea what I want to do with my life and I know I am supposed to achieve something to use that potentian energy that I was given in this incarnation but I am just stuck with no guidence and pretty much isolated. Nothing seems worthwhile or like it has much of a meaning in essence so I often wonder what's the point of anything.

>>81808967
Thank you for the offer. How are you though Anon? How are you holding up?
>>81808999
Dying of old age? How old are you? I'll probably be in your position eventually.

>>81808949
it makes me sad knowing if i die doing this no one would care. im kinda mad my HS friends lost contact with me. bro what if i die in a car crash. how come no1 cares about me lol. but yeah id love to live in a makeshift cabin. biggest fear would be flooding ig. how would i escape a fire? the whole forest it goin down, do i run for miles? lol
>>81809004
youre right to laugh. im a shitty person and textbook incel

>>81809032
that was me 3 years ago. if you have a car you can get ahead. my job pays shit so i dont have a car

>>81809004
we are so nice we contain all our rage and we need to let it out
but im sorry now please don't be mad at me

>>81809052
What do you mean by go ahead? Owning a car is literally just a liability. A necessary evil in my case because public transport is shit here. I guess you are American...

>>81809032
I understand. Terrified of growing old too. I won't be in any better of a situation either. I don't know why I'm here either. I'm sorry you feel that way Anon.
>>81809046
I would be sad if I found out!

>>81809046
Also why do you feel you're a shitty person?

>>81809013
>doesn't know who king incel doomer SAMUEL BECKETT is
Go back to re3dit, newfag
Not spam
Bro why the fuck does this bs website think this is spam

I've been a cripple all my life and now my disability is close to gone. I'm almost in my 30s and I'm behind all of my peers in almost everything. I found true love early so I beat them in that regard but my life is just about to start. I have only my wife. I'm full of resentment and anger towards the people who left me disabled but I will have to get over that eventually if I truly want happiness. I had a shitty childhood, which in turn makes me appreciate my current state a lot more, I don't know how to explain it, getting over the emotional trauma helped me get to overcoming the physical trauma. I used to think I was beyond saving but hey, I saved myself. Thanks for coming to my blog.

I'm sorry. I guess I don't really have the energy to say anything thoughtful. I can't delete this thread. I'm sorry. I'll stop making these threads.

Someone please talk to me about anything please. I'm sorry I'm so horrible to talk with. I'm being selfish, but I need something to occupy my mind.

>>81810164
what would you like to talk about?
pick a topic

>>81810164
I got two new kittens from a shelter today. What's up? What's going on in your life?

>>81810185
Kittens are nice! Maybe post a picture of them! How old are they? What are their names?
>What's going on in your life?
I feel horrible so need a distraction, any kind of distraction
>>81810182
Tell me how your day went! What did you do today?

>>81808923 (OP)
Vent?

>>81810253
>What did you do today?
i did nothing all day heheh been a lazy bum all day long. and you? why are you feeling horrible?

>>81810283
I'm sure you did something beyond just staring at the wall! Did you do something online? How did you pass the time?
>why are you feeling horrible?
I'm sorry I'm taking so long to respond to this; my mind is all over the place. I'm extremely angry at myself for being such a destructive force. I keep causing so much harm to everyone around me. My existence causes everyone problems. I'm genuinely a pretty awful person. I'm sorry. I feel sick so it's hard to think straight plus I have a headache.

>>81810459
>Did you do something online? How did you pass the time?
i played videogames and watched youtube videos, nothing else really. it was a really boring saturday.
i would like to know what things you have done for you to think about yourself like that. because, in a sense, you are aware you are causing harm. is it on purpose? i do not think so, your paragraph doesn't really imply it. are you looking for some help that is being denied to you?

>>81810512
I'm sorry. I tried to delete that post, but it wouldn't work. I'm not trying to be destructive, but I don't trust my motives at all.
>i would like to know what things you have done for you to think about yourself like that.
There's so much I can't even list them all. I've been ruining my dads life since he was born, I caused my mom to have a stress related heart attack, and my friend offed himself because I was being selfish. I cause so many issues at work and with anyone who talks to me. I feel so selfish.

>>81810577
hmmm.... you are not listing actions, you are listing consequences. for example, what kind of problems do you cause at work?

>>81810602
You're right, I'm sorry. I struggle to follow basic tasks, zone out way too much and cause accidents all the time. I also just over dramatize everything which leads to more and more issues, I'm not absorbing anything anyone tells me, I can't pay attention. I have no critical thinking skills, and I'm going to get someone hurt. Too busy in my own head. Anyways it's okay if you want to sleep; I'm sorry for being a bit dramatic. I'll be fine - it's probably late for you

>>81808923 (OP)
Currently I think my mind can't take anything, and thoughts become garbage

My brain is too stupid and does things that later ruin me, my mind doesn't want to help me and I don't do anything, I don't take care of myself physically either.

Sometimes and many times...I don't want to change.

>>81808923 (OP)
Aren't you full of yourself mmmm?
You know what better things to do for yourself, cunt

>>81810734
damn. yeah, i am very sleepy. you are stuck in a weird loop. make a thread like this tomorrow again please

>>81810768
>You know what better things to do for yourself, cunt
I don't know what you mean; can you please explain? I'm not trying to be coy or anything, I don't have a good sense of self, and I would like it if you told me directly what you mean.
>>81810769
If you really want me to - this felt extremely attention seeky though. Thank you for listening though, and I'm sorry. I was a bit selfish today too.
>>81810741
I know what you mean; I'm in the same boat. It's awful. How do your thoughts become garbage? What do mean with your mind not being able to take anything?

Give yourself a break and stop nitpicking every little thing you do. Try something novel even if its just for 1 second.

>How do your thoughts become garbage?

Usually my thoughts stop making sense and everything becomes confusing and I don't know what I want, and sometimes I just start thinking about simple but superficial things, that gives me peace of mind....But that usually becomes garbage because it doesn't do any good for a while and then I have conflicts again.

What do mean with your mind not being able to take anything?

Sometimes I just feel bad or maybe with time I start to get better but I realize that, then sometimes I commit self-destructive acts

>>81810888
>Try something novel even if its just for 1 second.
What do you mean?
>>81810893
>my thoughts stop making sense and everything becomes confusing and I don't know what I want
I mean from what I understand, you feel like you don't have a stable sense of self perhaps? I'm pretty unsure about everything about myself and the world, and thus my opinions change a lot. Is it like that for you too?
>I just start thinking about simple but superficial things
What do you mean?
>usually becomes garbage because it doesn't do any good for a while and then I have conflicts again.
How so?
>then sometimes I commit self-destructive acts
Why? Why do you do that to yourself? Is there a reason you feel the need to do that? What kind of self destructive acts?
Sorry I took so long to respond; I'm having a hard time absorbing things tonight.

>>81808923 (OP)

40 and only had sex once., i feel like shit mosat of the time., i drink too much, idk

>>81808923 (OP)
I fell in love with a 330 pound woman who I dated for 1.5 years. She left me soon after getting on ozempic which I predicted. Every day is just a haze now. I will never find anyone close to as good as her or my previous ex

>>81811101
>Is it like that for you too?

Quite similar in fact

>What do you mean?

You know, when you do simple things that you think will make you feel better or avoid a problem, but it's really something superficial that just makes you believe that you are calmer or more stable.

>How so?
Usually those thoughts just stop making sense, no matter if it's negative or positive, and you start to lose importance for a while.

>Why? Why do you do that to yourself? Is there a reason you feel the need to do that?

I think I just don't deserve to be happy for all that I am, I don't think I deserve it and when I'm happy I feel guilty and ungrateful but then I start to feel bad....So I want to feel better and everything repeats itself ...

>What kind of self destructive acts?

I think the most noticeable one is my cuts. I usually do them when I know I've improved, also in terms of socializing...

>Sorry I took so long to respond

Don't worry, you're not being forced by me, thanke