>>81812233Besides not everything seemingly silly has to be useless. Religions might be fake stories, but if it makes you actually put value in sacrifice and make you more likely to have kids, it is your genes and tendencies that are going to inherit earth and shape it, along with its history. Nature cares only about physical outcome so if you have more offspring, you will simply outbreed and outcompete other strategies if other factors like for example technology will align with it. In that sense, being religious and believing without proof in fake story, as stupid as it sounds, is superior strategy from that point of view.
Maybe you need certain amount of entertainment to maintain productivity levels. When I heard that cutting often comes with guilt, I thought that maybe cutting is temporary bandaid solution to emotional problems, satisfying inner need for justice by punishing yourself with pain. It obviously doesn't solve the problem so it is going to repeat itself, but maybe if not for the temporary stabilization due to self-punishment, general state of person would deteriorate much more. It's like organism shutting down functions during stress to redirect energy momentarily to functions that allow you to run away from pedators. Because what use is in your reproductive function if you won't live to use it?
Maybe these figs are such crutch for me and help me feel anything. Their smiles are the only smiles I see with my aversion to social settings and awkwardness. They don't judge. And maybe those little mood gains from their smiling is what motivates me to put effort into starting doing things, which is always hardest part. And as you see, I can't even "just feel" and immerse myself in those little emotions I have, my nature makes me think and analyze this shit anyway. Maybe having it everything thought out, fitting together, preventing cognitive dissonance and thus creating calmness of mind is true worth.
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