I no longer feel real, I used to cringe at myself when I remembered something dumb I did. It no longer feels like me I just catch myself laughing atupidly at myself alone in my home. I feel like I don't know who I am anymore, I act differently everywhere I go and I spend so little time in real life that I don't even remember how I was and my internet personalities bleed out. I don't even feel like I exist in my own body

>>81813215 (OP)
People tell you to go out and try new things and make mistakes. But that shit just sticks with you forever.

>>81813260
and there is nothing new to do, I try and go out but I end up just standing or sitting alone somewhere

>>81813215 (OP)
Wearing masks is nice, I don't have to pretend I'm fine anymore. I've killed all self and in return have gotten rid of all trauma and bad emotions.

>>81813378
You don't even get the feelings anymore? Mine is slowly getting number and number and I feel less. Everytime I seem to get any hope or stuff looks up it crashes down again so I am not even sure I want to feel hope anymore

>>81813402
I don't know man. The good days slowly become less common. I don't know who I am or what I will do tomorrow or where I'll be in 5 years and I don't care. Right now I'm watching this girl I met online stream herself dissecting a pig on discord. It's weird, but interesting.

>>81813437
Yeah I get the same way but the overly depressed feelings also get less common it is mostly just numb at this point. I get finding new people online but in the end they all seem to end up leaving. I have even found myself going back to old interests I had as a kid now just for a bit of comfort even tho I was much lonelier then

>>81813484
People aren't Pokemon you collect. We all walk down our own path and sometimes our paths cross or align for little while. We share stories of what we encountered and hopefully give others some insight on what they will encounter, but we'll have to walk it by ourselves.

>>81813555
I mean true, but it would be nice still having someone in my life and not just words on my screen probably

>>81813437
>hanging out with a natal woman
GET THE FUCK OUT NORMALNIGGER
this is not your board

>>81813437
>Right now I'm watching this girl I met
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NiMBzpZF1nE