>be me, early 20's
>be a skinny emaciated loser who works a low-level customer service job after high school; was NEET for a good while
>life is a comical tragedy: bullied my whole life, parents never gave fuck, family treated me like a hangon nuisance for most of it
>mocked, ostracized by everyone
>only person in my life who treated me with some semblance of humanity is my nephew who's only 7 years older than me
>cute kid with glowing blonde hair and incredibly kind and selfless despite being raised by a whore mother and lousy father who made him when they were in high school
>he is overjoyed to see me and thinks of me as his big brother
>lights up when I come over to visit, talks and messages me all the time about life and stuff
>it's the only highlight of my life when i see he's messaged me
>hold him up as a paragon of light in my life and ditch bad aspects of my personality: porn addiction, conspiracy theories and other shit
>he grows up and grows through puberty, teen angst
>hangs out with broccoli hair Fortnite/Valorant playing/vaping vapid peers his age
>becomes just like them and i no longer recognize him at all
>can't' stand the sight of me
>I saved up to buy him a fancy LED keyboard and mouse for his PC for his birthday and he didn't even care at all
>when i came over to bring it to him, he was with friends and was embarrassed that i showed up and told me to leave because he's with friends
>doesn't message me anymore or talk to me
>looked irritated whenever i spoke at family dinner
>the last person in the world who i cared about wouldn't weep a tear if i killed myself tomorrow
I was thinking heavily of killing myself, but I might just do it after this. I'm so thoroughly spiritually broken by this miserable life. Fuck it..

sucks but it was inevitable anon you should not have gotten attached

>>81815689 (OP)
Just ghost them. You don't need those cancerous people in your life. Focus on yourself.

>>81815689 (OP)
>>I saved up to buy him a fancy LED keyboard and mouse for his PC for his birthday and he didn't even care at all
fucking brutal
you should've called him an ungrateful faggot zoomer to his face and humiliated him in front of his friends

>>81815689 (OP)
He's just going through puberty and probably acts that way to everyone. I wouldn't be so dramatic, anon.

>>81815689 (OP)
>my nephew who's only 7 years older than me
is this correct or a typo?

>>81815689 (OP)
OP, teenage boys are psychopaths. Why do you think this site is such a shithole?
Just hold out and eventually he'll grow out of it and appreciate you again. You don't have to force it but just keep being a presence in his life, in whatever small way you can.
On the whole your situation sucks ass though. Why does everyone mock and ostracize you? Is it just because you were a NEET for a while? Your family sounds terrible. Family is supposed to be supportive, not treat you like garbage (unless you do something REALLY bad).

>>81815689 (OP)
>when i came over to bring it to him, he was with friends and was embarrassed that i showed up and told me to leave because he's with friends
people get like that as teenagers, they get irritated by literally everything except a very narrow window of interests popular with the other brats they met at school, they wouldn't be seen dead with a "loser", he probably resents the fact that as a dumb kid he didn't realize what a failure you are and how you tricked him into thinking you're a normal good person

>>81816330
im with this guy.
Sorry its been so bad but don't leave him or you'll regret it even more.

>>81815689 (OP)
Yeah, he has realized that you are a lame-o but he also an angsty teen. You typed older rather than younger btw.

>>81815689 (OP)
Kinda sad you relied on a child for your mental health.
Offing yourself will hurt him, or won't your call your life.

>>81815689 (OP)
same but with a cousin who turned into a butch lesbian dyke at like 14
now she hates men and hates me by default

>>81815689 (OP)
but youre a zoomer as well

>>81815689 (OP)
you learn people like you and me to not put trust and value in other people.
Literally everyone fucks you over in the end or abandons you.

It's better to just ignore or dismiss everyone around you

>>81816691
don't put this nonsense on his head. thinking like this will only make his problems worse
he's just an edgy teenager and will get over it and feel like shit after
but you really need some real friends anon

>>81816183
Yes. Sister is way older and got knocked up as a freshman in high school and just quit afterwards. I'm 23, he's 15 on to 16. Sister is 32, ten years older than me.
>>81816330
My family is packed to the brim with utter psychopaths and sociopaths. They shit on me for being a NEET for 2-3 years after high school and just now getting a job and not having a girlfriend or friends. One time, when I was 17, my uncle beat the shit out of me when he was drunk and everybody laughed at it and told me to not make a big deal out of it since "you didn't bleed or anything" Parents don't answer my calls anymore and actually talk shit about me to other people. They NEVER treated me like their flesh and blood and only cared for my sister. I feel like I was born into a family of demons. They just shoved my face into a computer to keep me quiet and I've basically lived my life on the internet.
I don't even know why I bother anymore. Now that my nephew has also joined them now that he's a zit-filled hormonal asshole, I am honestly thinking of never contacting them again and probably suiciding myself sometime in the near future. I have nothing to live for and I know my life will only get worse from here on out.
>Just hold out and eventually he'll grow out of it and appreciate you again. You don't have to force it but just keep being a presence in his life, in whatever small way you can.
I don't see him getting any better and I'm literally radioactive to him now so I don't see how I can be close to him in any way.
>>81816391
>>81816506
You people are demons, just like my whole goddamn family. Making others miserable and calling them "losers" and "freaks" based on arbitrary made up social bullshit. Fuck you all.

>>81816081
honestly if i went through the trouble of setting money aside to buy him those things (which are expensive) and he talked to me like that id beat the shit outta that kid then and there. don't give a fuck. you're not talking to me like that when im literally giving you a fucking expensive birthday present i shelled out my own money for. i am beating him senseless.

>>81815689 (OP)
>OP learns boys don't stay boys forever and inevitably grow into men and is very sad about it
alright but you gotta get over it

>>81817118
>They NEVER treated me like their flesh and blood and only cared for my sister.
For whatever reason, modern fathers only care about their daughters and are annoyed at the existence of their sons. Yeah just cut them off. You don't live with them, right? Fuck's it matter to you anymore?

My family's not nearly as evil as yours is (I mean really, your uncle beat you up and they laughed?), but I empathize. My dad gave my sister the world constantly humiliated himself and worked his ass off to try to pamper her into being less of bitch while she actively just slutted it up with guys his age. Massive cuck loser, meanwhile I only attempt to contact him once or twice a year and that involves calling him more than once because he won't answer and he'll get back in 3-5 business days and grant me 10 minutes before he has some other shit to do he's more interested in. We would not talk if I didn't call him.
> am honestly thinking of never contacting them again and probably suiciding myself
No, please don't do this. I'm not even saying this out of concern for you, but out of a shared hatred for people like the ones who've wronged you. Cut them off, but focus on yourself. Then reconnect with them when they're old and weak and then you can berate them and insult them and they won't be able to do anything about it. Old people are pathetic and weak.

Just remember you're better than them. And if you aren't, then be better than them. Try to be kind to people with less experience than you and try to assume the best in people when there's any doubt, even if it's hard. But it's perfectly morally justified to behave in a hostile manner to corrupted and/or evil people, and even just, as letting these people off with their idiotic behavior only emboldens them and makes the world a worse place. Good luck anyway. I'm only a few years older but I'm pretty optimistic about the future, all thing considered.

>>81817703
I really loved my nephew and him turning out like this has permamently damaged my trust in other people and I'm too mentally ill and fucked up to expect anything good out of my life. I'm much better off than my family ever as as they're all menial workers who die young and live miserable lives (customer service isn't stacking boxes at least) but I really don't think any good awaits me in the future. I'm too fucked up from a lifetime of mistreatment to expect anything good. I'm still a failed human and would probably be merciful to just end it all.

>>81815689 (OP)
I know it hurts anon but you should have seen this coming from the rest of your family. Just cut them out of your life and move on. It does get better I did it at 30 I have nephews and nieces I never met because my sisters are rotten garbage and so are their "partners".>>81816058
as anon said just move on. People like that just get worse and worse with age it never gets any better. Care about yourself and let it go.

>>81818125
Do you live alone and support yourself though? 23 is still pretty young, you can jump into community college and get a proper career going before you're 30 if you get on your shit ASAP. If you think about it too much, you lose. Make yourself too busy to think too much. Also start drinking.

>>81818198
I KNEW it was going to end up like OP if I wasted my time caring about my sister's kids and being around they'd just grow up to be self-obsessed shallow assholes like their mothers. They have to figure it out to not to be like their parents on their own.

>>81818266
I agree with all of those points except 7. Absolutely beat them at their own game. My boss is like this and he started treading lightly around me ever since I started calling him out on his shit. Most of these people are massive cowards and only fuck with people if they know they can be fucked with. I'm better than any of the other retards who work for him and he knows it, he won't do jack shit.

>>81818229
I already went to community college. They don't call it a rat race for nothing. It's all bullshit. I'm definitely offing myself in the next few years. I support myself just fine and live alone but I don't care to go on living. My life has been a complete nightmare thus far and it won't ever change. I'm just screaming into the void now. I loved my nephew so much and thought the world of him and him turning on me is what is pushing me to just kill myself. I doubt he'll care now with the person he has become. He'll just go "that's sad I guess" and then forget about me forever.

>>81818545
>I already went to community college. They don't call it a rat race for nothing.
I dunno anon, I did too, then I transferred, finished my degree, and now I'm doing my PHD. Survival in general is a rat race.
>He'll just go "that's sad I guess"
Yeah, he will. Who fucking cares.

>>81815689 (OP)
Youre not a normalfaggot and never will be. They never like people like us. Even your "family". Brutal shit. I hate life.

>>81818606
he was such a beautiful and kind kind before puberty. we were best friends. i look at old photos of us together at the beach and i want to cry my eyes out. i cant take this world anymore. it wins. fuck it. i'll kill myself and spare me the pain of living.
fuck this life

>>81815689 (OP)
OP here, I obviously meant YOUNGER than OLDER. He's 15. I'm 23.

>>81815689 (OP)
You need a friend, anon? Wanna add me on steam? I'm 22 myself and I feel the same way as you.

>>81818874
>he was such a beautiful and kind kind before puberty. we were best friends. i look at old photos of us together at the beach and i want to cry my eyes out
Anon the whole ordeal with the expensive keyboard and all that is indeed lamentable but you sound rather mentally unstable. Unhinged, even. Something tells me you will not kill yourself. You'll continue to exist miserably and silently until you snap and harm someone completely innocent. I would highly recommend going to Thailand and banging some hookers/getting wasted for a week or two and reorienting yourself a bit.

>>81819173
>waste of life loser on a Japanese otaku forum for abominable losers like himself thinks he has any grasp of real life in any way shape or form and projects his sick self onto others
OP sounds way too kind spirited to do anything like that and is actively suffering immensely for it. I would suggest you kill yourself before you harm someone, though.

>>81818874
OP if you could do me one favor, just sleep on it. Get up in the morning, drink some water, go outside for a bit. I'm not gonna beg for you to not kill yourself but a lot of suicidal people make a "spur of the moment" decision to do it and the ones who fail pretty much always regret the attempt.

>>81815689 (OP)
Should've smashed the keyboard over his faggot broccoli head
Also let this be your reminder to never get emotionally invested in your family's children, they can turn to shit quickly and irreversibly. Only love your kids if they're still alright at 16.

>>81817118
So he's 7 years YOUNGER than you, not older, right?

>>81815689 (OP)
Life taught me that preferences over the people you enjoy talking to, changes a lot in your teens. But some people have it way worse and they genuinely go from being nice to proactively hating you for some reason. I suggest you to let it go

>>81815689 (OP)
Every preteen is a fucking retard because their hormones are raging and constantly in flux. Take in stride you absolute faggot.

Create distance that he's clearly desiring for now and improve yourself and maybe in a few years he'll want to reconnect.

>>81821152
This, either life will burn him like it did to all of us or it won't

>>81815689 (OP)
dude you should have beat his ass for rejecting a present like that, or at least yelled at him and made him look pathetic in front of his friends

>>81817118
I put "loser" in quotes, I am just describing what normies think, it doesn't mean they are correct

if you want to prepare for an evil world you have to face that evil, should I just say "LOVE YOURSELF, YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL" like r*ddit?

just continue to be chill, continue to be nice to him even if he shrugs it off, years from now he might realize you were a good guy despite your problems, he might remember the good times and want to catch up, but unfortunately trying to win over a teenager brainwashed by mass media is almost impossible