Why didn't you appreciate your youth more?

>>81820134 (OP)
Because I was too busy getting tortured by my peers and isolating myself. Was a bad time.

>>81820134 (OP)
cause i was too busy being ugly and ostracized.

>>81820134 (OP)
Because my parents abused me by feeding me and allowing me to get to over 300 lbs by like 14 years old. I'm still trying to pick up the pieces from that

because everyone treated me like shit you dumb faggot

>>81820134 (OP)
I was gaslighted by my friends and had to live life as if I was mentally disabled

because i'm ugly, autistic, short, and stupid

>>81820134 (OP)
what was there to appreciate nigga

>>81820134 (OP)
Because I thought I was going to leave youth behind to develop into a good, fun, and fulfilling adulthood.

At least, that is what adults keep deluding all kids into believing will happen. The age-old "the ones who were le bullied/quiet in school turn into the CEOs of the jocks."

>>81820134 (OP)
I didn't relate to my peers and didn't have the maturity to deal with it
Going through the same thing again now

>>81820134 (OP)
Because most of the people never grow up.

>>81820134 (OP)
Dad beat me up at least once a week from age 3 all the way to at most age 14 when it didn't hurt anymore and I outgrew the ability to cry. Living in a constant sleep-deprived fight-or-flight stress response can't be good for development lol. Sometimes he'd just barge into my room as I was sleeping and start pummeling me. Mom also would always say "you can tell me anything" while putting on a nurturing act and pretended to be a confidant to me but would just tell Dad so he'd fly into a rage. I assume it was for her amusement. They're the type of parents that took their stress out on their kids.

They sent me to a middleschool where I kept the same classmates from K-8, and it felt like I grew up with those cretins and it was very sibling-like, most of whom I hated, and I honestly thought nothing much when I moved on to highschool. Highschool was pretty alienating, and since it was an all-boys highschool, I never got to meet any girls. It's America and I was pretty isolated in my neighborhood of old people, and there were no clubs or ways to interact with girls my age. I was never allowed to work a job and so I could not afford or even test for a car/license at 16. I didn't get to even have my first crush until I was 17 and we met because of a thing our two schools were doing as a joint-club activity. She rejected me.

I made a few friends during that club thing, and honestly, I was satisfied with having around 5-10 solid friends even if it took until my senior year to get to know them. They were taken away from me by the fact that everyone was going on to college, where the pattern repeated. I didn't make friends until my 4th year, and needless to say, the two crushes on female acquaintances I had both rejected me pretty flatly. It's with some remorse that I have to leave these friends behind too, since, what's next? Just me, and God-knows-what working the same shift at the local H&R Block?

TL;DR I never really even had a youth to waste to begin with.

>>81820134 (OP)
>Why didn't you appreciate your youth more?
Because I was miserable as fuck even back then. Sadly, they were the best years of my life.
It got much worse. 20 years of NEETdom and inceldom. With the 'tism, I never had a chance to be a normie, no matter how much I faked it.

>>81820186
Keep at it my nigga, keep at it.

>>81820134 (OP)
>abused at home
>bullied at schoo
my youth was STOLEN from me and now the world DARES to be angry at me because I refuse to participate in it beyond doing the bare minimum

>>81820134 (OP)
I was put in a school full of brown people because my parents were libtards and this ruined my life.
I am in my 30s now and in university and there again: filled with brown muslims and Niggers.
The pol memes about Germany are 100% the truth, at least about the western part, Whites are a minority. The worst thing? I have to work with those subhumans in order to get a degree, I can't lash out full blown 1488 unless I wanna work in garbage jobs forever.

>>81820134 (OP)
There's literally nothing good about being young
I'm 28 and my life improves every year

>>81820134 (OP)
Every time i tried to get out of my comfort zone i failed and just retreated back to my pc.

I let the best years of my life move on cuz i was too afraid to speak up and try again.

>>81821924
this girl looks like fake washed out chiaki
Danganronpa 2 hit hard because of the concept of simulation repeating your wasted highschool years

>>81820134 (OP)
I was young

I spent most of my teenage years taking care of my sick mom
Then she died before I even turned 18 due to a hospital's fuckup
I'd already dropped out of school so I just used the money they paid out in a settlement to coast on neetdom for as long as possible
figured I'd die before it ran out but I didn't and now here I am, continuing to live while everything just gets worse and worse around me

>>81823351
>30s now
>in university
What did you do in your 20s?