>>81821989 (OP)
you don't actually hate them, you probably want them to go through the things you have so they can empathize and relate to your struggles
It's because the rational part of our male brain hates women for seeing them as they actually are versus our ingrained instinct to protect women which is useful for the proliferation of genes. As it turns out, if you neglect your baby makers, you spread your genes less successfully or not at all.
Pic-related probably evokes some gut reaction in you. For better or worse, we are the protector/provider simp sex.
You don't feel genuine disgust towards woman, you feel hate towards the world and how you feel you have been treated unjustly so you project all of that onto women; when you see a girl genuinely start to cry you still feel empathy as that's your real emotions pushing through.
You are not truly hateful OP, you are just lonely and hurt mislabelling the real issue.
>>81822341
The fact you still want love should show you that, if you felt genuinely disgusted by any woman you would've grown disgusted by the concept of dating one as well.
You are literally just a lonely fuck that been beaten down.