Thread 81824213

When I was like 13 my parents found my gay porn stash when they went through my computer while I was at school and made me attend Love Won Out conferences.

OK your turn, please tell me a secret.

>>81824213 (OP)
when i was 14, i experimented with scat

i shit in my hand in the shower, mushed it and then just... "lather" my ass with my mushy shit
occasionally, i'd use the plunger as my dildo

neither proud of it nor regret it, it was just a thing i did
no one except you guys will ever know

>>81824213 (OP)
Why are you a faggot? Dont you like girls? Cmon anon youre better than this dont give into disgusting porn delusions, dont ruin your sexuality. You can get a woman but a woman isnt gonna be into a man who likes men

>>81824235
Don't listen to this retard OP. Men are objectively the better sex. The ancients knew it.

>>81824213 (OP)
I once drank my urine after experimenting with a piss fetish, it was the most taboo thing i could think of that wouldnt make me die of diseases.

So i pissed in a bottle, felt my heart pumping, i was so excited. took a swig, immediately vomited after.

it tastes like saltwater with an ammonia aftertaste, its so fucking bad, i cant imagine what scatfags have to go through.

i didnt do it again for a while after. i immediately rinsed my mouth multiple times with mouthwash and brushed my teeth and the taste didnt go away for an entire day.

>>81824259
>dont listen to the guy telling you to do whats normal biologically
>listen to me, the faggot, telling you to stick your dick in a mans shit cavity

>>81824304
Listen to Tradition.

>>81824234
D-did...did you enjoy it?

>>81824235
>Why are you a faggot?
Idk, wish I wasn't but here we are.
>Dont you like girls?
I like girls, just not romantically or sexually. They're nice to talk to though.
>Cmon anon youre better than this dont give into disgusting porn delusions, dont ruin your sexuality. You can get a woman but a woman isnt gonna be into a man who likes men
I tried going down that road... doesn't lead anywhere nice.

>>81824316
faggotry is jewish, if modern society and porn didnt exist youd want to fuck a woman, but youve been porn warped

>>81824317
>enjoy it
meh, like i said neither proud nor regret it
i dont have a scat fetish *now* so i guess its all good?

>>81824331
>faggotry is jewish, if modern society and porn didnt exist youd want to fuck a woman, but youve been porn warped
Golem.

>>81824344
i dont care about right zog vs left zog or red zog vs blue zog but being a faggot is objectively a worse quality of life and worse sexual fulfillment, a woman provides a man sexual fulfillment and faggotry provides nothing but an increased risk of AIDs

>>81824350
Gay men have the lowest rates of divorce out of any demographic kek

>>81824359
and the highest rates of stds retarded faggot

>>81824304
>>81824331
>>81824344
I mean to be fair I don't really believe I have much of a choice in the matter. I already tried everything to change and failed. I tried those ex-gay ministries as previously mentioned, I tried abstaining from sex and porn, I tried cognitive behavioral therapy, I tried "training" myself into heterosexuality, I tried just lying to myself and forcing it, none of it worked. I couldn't change it even if I tried, and I have tried.

>>81824290
Sorry you experienced that anon. Sounds awful. :(

>>81824213 (OP)
When I was a 16 yr old autist, I went looking online for a gf, looking for "true love" I found a girl that said she was sixteen, but after a few hours of chatting she revealed she was 11 and just sat online to pick up 20-30 yr old hotties to bang. Kept her in my Facebook friends list and she bothered me to meet up for years, shes now 28 with 3 kids to two guys.

>>81824304
not all gay guys do anal anon. also lots of straggots fuck their gfs in the pooper.

>>81824422
>not all gay guys do anal anon
nta but fr? whats the fucking point then?

>>81824395
It was okayer the second time, i drank a lot of water that time so my piss didn't taste as bad. I just laid in the shower and pissed all over myself and a little in my mouth, but I spit it out this time.

It was hot at first but then I got bored. Maybe I'll do it again if I get a boyfriend, but it's boring asf solo.

>>81824428
there's still other forms of intimacy. handies, blowies, dry humping, making out, frotting, etc. the action doesn't really matter. the emotional value of it does.

I did all kinds of sexually degenerate stuff when I was a teenager

>>81824524
>making out with a cute guy after he's done with his gym sesh
>we go overboard and i end up sniffing his body and biting his nips
vgh..... i need a bf

>>81824213 (OP)
>made me attend Love Won Out conferences
what happened at those conferences?

>>81824598
sometimes i feel like i dont even want sex, id be fine just huffing a guys pits for an hour and nut to that.

>>81824639
The founder said they didn't work and went back to being gay.

>>81824639
>>81824702
Oh nvm I'm retarded, I thought you said what ever happened TO those conferences.

>>81824639
I'm fortunate in that I didn't experience any Guantanamo-level torture or anything like that. Some programs were brutal from what I hear but in my experience Love Won Out was basically just a long series of religious lectures explaining the sanctity of love and God's Will, as well as providing advice on how to avoid giving into temptation and the occasional reconditioning exercise. The worst it got was we'd have to hug a man and every time our bodies touched one of the group leaders would startle us by like smashing two frying pans against each other right next to our heads. The idea was to create negative associations between masculine intimacy and negative stimuli that would eventually cause you to lose interest in men. That's about it. Other than that, it was just pseudoscientific lectures about human psychology and prayer sessions.

>>81824744
>he worst it got was we'd have to hug a man and every time our bodies touched one of the group leaders would startle us by like smashing two frying pans against each other right next to our heads.
kek kek

I kissed my best friend in 9th grade super hard during a sleepover. I rammed my tongue down good throat and grabbed his dick through his pants and grabbed his ass and sucked on his neck so hard I left a hickey he had to hide from his parents. Didn't go any further and then the next day, we pretended nothing happened.

>>81824881
>down good
down his*

>>81824213 (OP)
>his parents violated his privacy and didn't respect having healthy boundaries with their child

The truth is OP you were doomed from the start.

i robbed a bank in 2004 and got away with it

>>81824895
>implying children should ever have privacy
Yeah giving your kids unfettered unlimited unmonitored internet access can only go well.

>>81824213 (OP)
I used to mastrubate with phallic objects up my ass.

This was filmed by my neighbors son and he spread it around.

I have moved residences 4 times due to harrasement and death threats that persist to this day.

Literally everyone knows or has seen the video and I've been followed around and bullied since that day onwards

>>81824907
Yes, they should. freak.

>>81824744
>The idea was to create negative associations between masculine intimacy and negative stimuli that would eventually cause you to lose interest in men

LOL so the religious nuts tried to use a poor imitation of classical conditioning, oh boy that's rich. I love how religionfags will constantly shit on science only to try to implement scientific ideas in the most retarded way possible.

If they were true believers they would have had faith in praying the gay out of you. But like all duplicitous religionfags they always acknowledge on some level that scientific theories have more power than faith alone.

>>81824908
are your initials RR?

>>81824907
So I take it you jerk off in front of your parents then?

>>81824213 (OP)
Once my parents tried to do this because they thought I watched gay porn and took my computer away to try and search it. They never found anything because they didn't know how to operate a computer and even if they did they wouldn't have found anything anyways because I never watched porn. They just had some weird delusions about what must be on my computer.

>>81824938
Nope but my life is ruined

>>81824956
>don't watch porn
the fuck? say sike right now
i dont know what's worse tbf, finding out my kid is gay or that he doesn't watch porn
before any of you come at me, consider the implications

>>81824213 (OP)
The reason I quit my last job had nothing to do with the coworkers or even me being lazy but had to do with the fact that I was having very vivid and constant thoughts of people torturing me as a child for hours a day and I almost broke down over these thoughts.

They've started to come up even when I'm not working or stressed and idk why they keep coming up or how long I can take this before I eat a bullet. I have told no one this because if I explained how bad the thoughts are I would instuitionalized in a heartbeat and I am too poor to afford that or even get a therapist so at this point I'm just accepting the fact that one day I'm probably going to blow my brains out over a problem no one will understand or know a d even if they did they wouldn't help me.

>>81824956
Lmao what made them think you watcher gay porn?
Are they super religious or what?

>>81824937
Yeah it's pretty embarrassing in hindsight, but I genuinely believed it would work wholeheartedly lol. My excuse was that I was 13, idk what those other guys excuses were.

>>81824935
That's how kids get groomed and kidnapped you gross weirdo. OP is lucky it was JUST gay porn. You don't give kids privacy. You give them privacy once they're adults and have moved out.

>>81824944
No? I just jerked off in the bathroom when I was a kid.

>>81824966
>before any of you come at me, consider the implications
I fear I'm too retarded to figure those implications out, fampai. What are they?

>>81825058
>no porn = no lust
>no lust = low libido
>low libido = lack of desire
and lack of desire, to me, just feels like you're a loser through and through

well, unless you're a Buddhist monk then I guess you're good

>>81824981
Nah they're pretty atheistic. It was just that retarded 13 year old me starts having some degree of feelings towards men and starts saying I might be gay. Their first instinct is to go through my computer to find gay porn. Nowadays though I could go both ways. Preference towards women with the occasional intimacy with dudes.

>>81825078
Tbf the entire reason I never watched porn was because I thought it'd interfere with any future relationships. I figured especially women get overly jealous when you say you watch porn which was proven by my last girlfriend getting really paranoid over the idea that I could've been secretly jerking it to porn and other women. I will say that probably led to me being a bit late on sexual development, sure, but nowadays I get pretty intense sexual impulses on occasion so I don't particularly think anything bad came of refraining from developing a porn addiction.

>>81825131
I see, I see
well in a way you were right in not watching porn

been watching porn since i was 11 haha

>>81825193
I have almost considered getting into watching porn for the sake of filling a void but eh I feel not watching it just pays off better in the end.

>>81824213 (OP)
I'm a 27yo NEET and my parents still haven't found my furry porn stash.

I lost my virginity to a dog.

>>81824213 (OP)
I was directly responsible for someone's suicide.

I masturbated during class all the time in high school and nobody noticed.

>>81824235
>why are you a faggot
Men actually have value
>Don't like girls?
Women dont amount beyond vessels for childbirth
>disgusting porn dllusions
Men had to evolve to be hard wired to find women attractive because even though they have the monopoly on child birth that still wasnt enough for them to be objectively desirable, if it wasnt for lust man would have o ly lasted a few hundred years
>dont ruin your sexuality
Ultimatley modernist terminology
>You can get a women
That's the problem, there's nothing easier than modern women
>woman isnt gonna be into a man who likes men
Thats the point & women objectively like fruitier men

>>81827167
Based faggot misogynist

>>81827167
>women objectively like fruitier men
Yeah, as 'one of the girls' for attention and gay ass funsies like going to the spa. Not for relationships or sex, 90%, of the time. It takes a special kind of chad gay/bisexual to give girls like that tingles, and those men are exceedingly rare.