>mfw found my peace
but still, i have this pervasive feeling deep inside me that tells me i don't deserve peace, not yet at least

>>81836894 (OP)
>i don't deserve peace
You're just begging us to ask why, so, why don't you feel like you deserve peace?

>>81837410
>You're just begging us to ask why,
you guys know me too well
>why don't you feel like you deserve peace?
well, i've found personal peace - but looking back on my family; my mom, my younger brothers, they're still struggling, still "lost" in a way
it's like - i've struggle too in my own way and i'm just starting to actually live again and appreciate life more but considering the kinda shit my family's going through right now, might have to forgo the peace and get back on the grind

>>81837650
Peace at the expense of everyone else isn't true peace, you feel guilty for not helping the people who need you.

>>81837738
see, that's what I mean
that's what's been bugging me

thanks, anon
so back to the grind it is, just gotta help out for a few more years and then back away to find my peace again

>>81836894 (OP)
>my peace
>my
There's your problem. If you don't experience universal peace, you're not experiencing peace at all.

>>81837847
>universal peace
you're describing a utopia, anon
i know my place, i can save some but i cannot save all - the world doesn't work that way

for all i am, i am still a realist

>>81837998
>you're describing a utopia, anon
Yes. The best of all possible worlds. You just need to understand that's where we've always been, and not treat it like the best isn't good enough because you expect better than the best.

>>81837751
I hope you and the people around you feel peace so you can come to true blissful peace.

>>81838476
what are you saying, we've plateaued? like this is our "best"? cus the world is still shit, man

>>81838494
thanks, anon
likewise with you

>>81838517
You're complaining about a particularly uncomfortable step on an infinite journey. The present is the confluence of all compatible pasts and all compatible futures. We can't get from where we've been to where we're going without passing through this moment or one of an infinite number of similar moments. Focus too much on the thorns or the flower and you'll miss the beauty of the cycle of growth, bloom, seed, wither.

>>81836894 (OP)
The world is going to shit and has been for decades. Of course you don't deserve peace.

>>81839148
>people born in better times deserve peace more