>>81849373Surely you have some savings from that job, no? The way you type I'm guessing either American or British. Either currency will go far in India or SE Asia, you could have a few months' holiday, rejuvenate your perspective, heal from past traumas, go to some meditation retreats, bang some prostitutes and treat them as if they are regular women that you're hooking up with, until you build up the courage to talk to non-prostitutes. Understand that most of your wrong beliefs are due to trauma which is inevitable for being in this dark fallen world. But a lot of these beliefs that are causing you harm aren't true. God is real and made you, God loves you infinitely, more than you can even imagine. His love is endless. And we say he, but God is the origin of both men and women and everything about them. So God contains in his personality male and female, before you say well that's great God loves me, but what about a girl? Well I'll tell you, God loves you and wants to walk with you as his child, and I tell you if you do that and allow Jesus Christ to change your heart and your life, it will get easier and you will be more likeable to women. In fact, you may already be likeable to women to a degree but you're deceived by harmful, dark and delusional beliefs - beliefs whispered into your mind by demons, just like parasites get into your body through contaminated food and water and make you crave lots of sweet food and anal sex, but you think it's your natural desires. Nah, it's parasites. There's lots of things we think are 'just us', just our 'natural desires/thoughts', but they actually came from outside of us and we are oblivious. Years ago I was staring at a guy who was staring at me and I thought I was choosing to do it, but looking back it's much more likely that he'd learned mind control or hypnosis and was using it on me. I was doing something I never did, but was convinced it was just me. Anyway, what I'm trying to say is you believe too much bullshit.
