What worries you dear anon...?

>>81855555 (OP)
fuck! those numbers !!!
anyway I don't want to think about all that shit, I'd rather ignore it

>>81855555 (OP)
very nice digits anon
>What worries you dear anon...?
i will probably die alone in some random forest

I will never see the people I care about again, I will rot and die in this hellhole.

>>81855555 (OP)
I have nothing to show for my 35 years on this planet

>>81855573
Thank you Anon. Im glad u dont. do stuff you like and play video games. Any good shows you recommend anon?

>>81855631
I remember u and know u anon. you are very kind...i promise you. you will eventually find someone. dont lose hope sweet anon. I prayed for u before and will always do...

>>81855665
you wont. dont lose hope. you can always comeback you can always fight demons and earn your heaven anon. Please fight.

>>81855738
anon u have sweet memories and people that care about you im sure. you have something but you dont see it anon.

>>81856002
>you wont
Yeah, I'll never see them again. Heaven is lost.

>>81855555 (OP)
Numbers, damn I have to respond then.

Basically life sucks but not enough for me to finally kill myself, Im not special and that makes me sad, everything will be mediocre and there is nothing i can do about it. The only thing left is to cope with spiritualism telling myself
>nothing matters bro just stop wanting

>>81855555 (OP)
Checking those digits. I will be going to sleep in 13 minutes because I need to wake up at 5am for work tomorrow. I might masturbate and stay up later but I don't currently plan on it. Enjoy your evening.

>>81856053
Anon. please read my full message. Anon have faith. You can change...i promise you.

>>81856055
I am spiritual too anon but not to cope. God can help you move on and fight life. Faith is important for this life anon. Please dear anon dont hurt yourself. Get help and do work. Your average life is someone dream...

>>81856152
Thank you anon. I hope you have fun. But please dont let habits be addictive. I love you anon and i wish u good. goodnight.

>>81855555 (OP)
based quints from one of my favorite anons here
right now nothing worries me, nothing too imminent at least
i am however always worried about your mental health, so once again, please take care of yourself, ok?

yours is surely a beautiful light and i shall never cease to look up to it
what happened to your trip, did you give up on that already?

>>81856161
>You can change
I need restoration and for things to be okay. Not change. Change without meaning or purpose, and change without knowing what to change is just loss.

>>81855555 (OP)
One time I took too much Amanita Muscaria and I totally thought I was shrinking down like Alice, I don't recommend it

>>81856161
>is someones dream
Sadly its not my dream though, apparently having these thoughts make me a selfish narcissistic man, its ok im not going to do anything because death is gay. A disappointing life is better than nothing at all i guess.

>>81856176
Thank you thank you sweet anon. I too remember you and remember your words. I will do my best for my mental health i promise you...and i hope you do too. and yes i got some harsh comments and debates on my trip code, im not here to argue with people...i just want to listen and help. if someone asks for my trip i will reveal it again. Anon, knowing you still lurk here and you still doing good is heartwarming. much much love to you and please take good care of your sweet soul.

>>81856210
then do what you must to do to survive anon. all what i ask is for u to not give up.

>>81856230
please dont take too much drugs anon :( keep yourself safe and away from addiction and money burning...

>>81856305
life can be beautiful anon...it requires luck and money i know...but smart work can get you there too. Nevertheless...im glad you wont hurt yourself...thank you anon for listening. I know you are not selfish...you just seem disappointed...i know you can change it all anon.

>>81856388
I don't do much drugs these days anymore, now to have fun I do the opposite I stop taking my meds for psychosis HAHAHAHA, fr tho kek

>>81855555 (OP)
i want to learn how to draw, but i don't like drawing dammit. everything has to be hard.

>>81856388
>all what i ask is for u to not give up.
I'm trying... but holding out for a miracle is hard.

>>81856388
>I will do my best for my mental health
good, that's all i ask then
i'm well aware we can't always keep ourselves in tip top shape as much as we want to, but if you try, then that puts me at ease

>i got some harsh comments and debates on my trip code
tripfags and namefags are universally hated in 4chan, though nowhere near as much as before but they still are
it's all up to you whether you want to push through this hate or simply remain anonymous
personally i used to thrive in it, lol
but i get it, it can be overwhelming, so don't push it

today i got reminded of you when i went listen to this song from oneshot's ost that i really like (eleventh hour)
it's from the solstice part, so go figure why i got reminded
solstice is a good name in itself, huh?

p.s. i always lurk wherever there is an abundance of light or darkness
i'm compelled by one and attracted by the other

>>81856305
y'know anon, that's not really what OP meant
it's more so that there's still a lot of good in your life that you can't see or appreciate for one reason or another, which i get it, there are some things we take for granted, some things that we just don't really see until they're gone
but i'm pretty sure OP wanted to call your attention to those things, that life isn't all that bad, even yours, despite your perception of it

but it can get better, can't it?
figuring out how is difficult, but more important than that, is figuring out where you want to go
what would you want your life to be like? be realistic with me on this one please

>>81855555 (OP)
Just fucking tried of waiting months for my new job. Like they had me go in for two separate "interviews" 3 months apart from each other and from the time I handed in a physical and digital application for the some job. The interviews were me signing some more paper work and drug test. Also somehow these guys lost the paperwork I submitted to them both physically and digitally. Lucky me I actually saved the scans of my physical copy. I just want to leave my old job. That is all. I want to get the new job so I can make more money and have actual fucking paid vacation days and holidays off. I have my unemployment getting paid by disability friend who has a gf that loves him unconditionally that I have to get a "cooler" job for chicks to be interested with me. Like MOTHERFUCKER I LITERALLY BAILED YOU THE FUCK OUT MULTIPLE FUCKING TIMES CAUSE MY LAME JOBS MADE MORE FUCKING MONEY THAN THE CLOSED DOWN POT SHOP YOU USED TO WORK AT. I just want to go home, eat some left over chicken tenders and drink some fruit punch. Also that hag of a co worker better get her ass in on time today.