Thread for discussions about self harm and mutual support

Welcom
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

Here's a bunch of helpful links

> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

>a first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

> bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>>81863824 (OP)
I'm doing so fucking awful rn

>>81864591
hello anon
what's going on?
wanna talk about it? or maybe wanna talk about something else to distract urself?

>>81864634
yea I'd rather talk about anything else

>>81864716
sure
what kind of stuff do you enjoy? have you watched or done anything fun recently?

>>81864772
I like games I guess mainly scary ones I enjoy talking to my friends don't many tho I like books too. I watched the dune movies they were alright. I went camping like a month ago

>>81864875
>like games I guess mainly scary ones
do you have a favorite one?
I played cry of fear a while ago and really liked it, I had to take breaks every 15 minutes at first because it was too scary heh
>watched the dune movies
I thought about watching those but I haven't read the books or anything so idk if I'll like it
Have you watched them in a cinema?
>went camping like a month ago
how was it? and how long? that sounds very fun !

>>81864974
not really I like this one called total chaos, it's decent. cry of fear is good definitely is super scary the environment is terrifying itself.
I haven't read the books either to be honest. the movies themselves were okay. and no I just watched them at home would probably have been better at a cinema I just get anxious.
it was good. felt weird I guess. was only for 3 days. it was fun should definitely try it if you hadn't

>>81865026
>called total chaos
I looked it up, looks kinda like resident evil to me for some reason
>environment is terrifying itself.
yep the sounds is mostly what spooked me
>haven't read the books either
oh I might watch it too then
>cinema I just get anxious.
it's understandable
>was only for 3 days
heh for me that sounds like a lot :>
have you been on much longer camp trips?
>was fun should definitely try it if you hadn't
maybe one day
do you need a lot of equipment?

>>81865195
i understand the enemies do like kinda like resident evil stuff doesn't play like it tho.
>might watch it too then
enjoy it if you do, it's quite long
I guess it kinda is long for camping. I've been on one that was a week that was with friends tho and was years ago.
yea sadly you do a lot of stuff mainly a tent lot of food backpack good clothes not cheap stuff either sadly i got very lucky my first time was with people so didn't have to bring as much stuff.

>>81865334
>like kinda like resident evil stuff
yep I think like the guys form tje 7th one
have you played it?
>it's quite long
That's what might keep me away from it, it's funny but it's not easy for me to motivate myself to even watch a normal length movie
Though I have watched that 28 years later one recently
>sadly you do a lot of stuff
I see
>with people so didn't have to bring as much stuff.
were you camping with friends on the last one too?

>>81865454
yea they do kinda look like the blob looking things. I watched a friend play it a while ago.
I get that sometimes, I like watching movies so not to much of a problem for me tho, but if I don't know a movie is good I can't get myself to watch it really. how was the 28 years later movie? I only ever watched the original and a little bit of the 28 weeks one I think.
nah I was alone. only person that would have wanted to go was out of the country

>>81865547
>like watching movies
o do you have like a special maovie watching setup? or just watching on your phoen?
>>81865547
>how was the 28 years later movie?
kinda stupid in a couple parts but it's was entertaining in nice to watch :]
are you planning to watch it?
> 28 weeks one
what did you think about it?
I haven't watched that one
maybe I will
>was alone
were you scared?
>only person that would have
oh, too bad
>was out of the country
were they camping there too?

>>81863824 (OP)
hey catbro! sorry for being late. today's my moms birthday. we sat together and i drank a bit, so i'm a little tipsy. how's it going?

>>81865607
Hello Yuanon :]
did you have a nice day?
>today's my moms birthday
happi birthday :DD
>i'm a little tipsy.
ooa hope you won't get a hangover, drink lots of water !!!
> how's it going?
it's okay
had a calm day, I went out for a tiny bit but then it rained a haard and I got all soaked D:

>>81863824 (OP)
still cutting. i think soon ill move to my wrists and cut deep. not intending to die. i think it would feel nice, but also i think deep down i want to put myself in enough harm that somebody would notice. i just want someone to notice. i just want to say that im not okay and that i want help without having to physically say it because i dont know how to say it, and i cant say it. am i bad person for this? am i just an attention seeker? i keep wrestling this thought that im just attention seeking. i know that im not, but that doesnt stop the thought from popping into my head over and over.

>>81865601
not really I usually just get in bed and watch it on my laptop. It gets the job done.
alrighty sounds good enough then, I probably will check it out. I wasn't really planning too anytime soon just cause lot of movies I've been meaning to watch but I may actually check it out tonight.
and it was a alright movie definitely not as good as 28 days later. watch it if you want, it's not awful.
I do always get scared when camping so yea I was very scared.
>were they camping there too?
nah they were just visiting some of there friends that live very far

>>81865711
>did you have a nice day?
it was alright. works stressful, but what else is new. not much else happened. got a message that some stuff i ordered at my local nerd store finally arrived, so i'll go and pick it up tomorrow.

>happi birthday :DD
thank you ^^

>hope you won't get a hangover, drink lots of water !!!
i don't think i will. it's not that bad, but i still notice it, so drinking water definitely is a good idea.

>had a calm day
that's nice. hope you enjoyed it overall.

>I went out for a tiny bit but then it rained a haard and I got all soaked D:
that's too bad. :/ did you at least have a nice, war showe after you came back home?

>>81865754
>i just want to say that im not okay and that i want help without having to physically say it because i dont know how to say it, and i cant say it.
i think i get it. telling my parents that i need help with my depression was one of the hardest things i ever did. first time i tried i couldn't even open my mouth. my jaws just wouldn't move.

>am i bad person for this?
i don't think you are, but it's dangerous and can easily get out of control. maybe it could help to look for someone to talk to who you don't have that close a connection with? less emotional investment might make it easier to speak about your issues.

>am i just an attention seeker? i keep wrestling this thought that im just attention seeking.
seems more like a call for help you can't express otherwise. it would only be an issue if you got people to notice it and then would do it again to get a similar reaction from them.

>>81865806
hey anon! don't want to barge in your conversation, but still want to say hi. so... hi! (^-^)

hello /cut/ new here

>>81865754
Hey anon
I'm not sure if it's a good idea but I get u
Have you thought about maybe calling some sort of hotline? though doing that might be too much for u I know :<
but pls don't go deep it might go very bad
>am i bad person for this?
you're not!
>thought from popping
overthinking is the worst

>>81865806
>usually just get in bed and watch it
comfy
>nning too anytime soon
that's okay, take your time ^^
>cause lot of movies I've been meaning to watch
you have a list?
>watch it if you want,
I will ^^
>so yea I was very scared.
heh but you probably enjoyed it didn't ya?
you sound like someone you likes getting scared
>visiting some of there friends that live very far
oh, have you ever been abroad?

>>81866186
>works stressful
:c
>stuff i ordered at my local nerd store
yay :D
finally
>thank you ^^
oh you both are welcome hehe :3
>don't think i will
good
>hope you enjoyed it overall.
yep, but I wish the weather was bikerideable
>did you at least have a nice, war showe after you came back home?
just a quick one :<
but I'm okay, warm in bed now
oh btw remember when you got those earbuds I reccomend you? you should use them?

>>81866377
Hello anon :>
How's it going? what brings you here?

>>81866381
>you should use them?
you *still*

>>81866377
welcome to the thread. how's it going?

>>81866381
>finally
took 'em long enough :<

>I wish the weather was bikerideable
maybe on the weekend?

>just a quick one :<
sometimes you just gotta get it over with

>I'm okay, warm in bed now
good job! and same. it's been kinda chilly the last couple of days, so being under some blankets feels really nice.

>remember when you got those earbuds I reccomend you? you should use them?
yup. have them in my ears right now. what about them?

>>81866186
hello

>>81866381
it is comfy
>you have a list?
yea I do, always try to watch one a week which is kinda nothing.
>probably enjoyed it didn't ya?
yea I do still love it even if I get quite scared. just peaceful.
I do like getting scared, I do like fear in a lot of ways.
>have you ever been abroad?
I have not no. I wanna visit some of my online friends one day tho.

>>81866390
need a distraction from cooting which i haven't done in a week and i've lurked the thread before it seems comfy
>>81866477
hi i was tweaking earlier but calmed down

>>81866477
>took 'em long enough :<
how long did you have to wait?
>maybe on the weekend?
it might be :3
I think I may go on a small one tomorrow actually
>just gotta get it over with
yea
>and same
good job to you as well!
watching anything while comfy?
>been kinda chilly
especially for you coming from a warm place
>what about them?
just wanted to ask
Glad you like them and that they work good for you ^^

>>81866561
>watch one a week which is kinda nothing.
for you, I watch like one a month
though recently I also rewatched mad god
have you seen it?
>just peaceful.
do you camp in like camping dedicated places or just in random spots?
>wanna visit some of my online friends one day tho.
sounds like a lot of traveling,
how many friends do you wanna visit? how far do they live?

>>81866566
>distraction from cooting
ooh wanna talk about how your day went? or maybe about stuff years enjoy??
>haven't done in a week
good job :D
>it seems comfy
it is pretty nice
and you're nice too anon

>>81866566
>i haven't done in a week
good job! :D

>it seems comfy
the comfiest. hope you'll have a nice time.

>i was tweaking earlier but calmed down
glad you did. any reason for it?

>>81866726
>how long did you have to wait?
hm. must be over a month, if not more. the issue was that i had to place the order without really knowing the timeframe when it might arrive. so that's even more annoying than regular waiting.

>I think I may go on a small one tomorrow actually
best of luck. maybe bring a rain jacket or something like that? just in case?

>watching anything while comfy?
just listening to some asmr on youtube, so not really. maybe i'll put on the vid you send me next. might fall asleep over it, though.

>especially for you coming from a warm place
word. but still, it's been very cloudy and windy lately, so i don't think it's just me.

>just wanted to ask Glad you like them and that they work good for you ^^
they do. only thing i noticed is that the left earbud seems to have a shorter battery life than the right one, but it's not a huge deal. otherwise they do their job just fine.

gonna sleep
goodnight

>>81866935
>even more annoying than regular waiting
well it better be worth it >:c
>maybe bring a rain jacket
I might, I have a plastic one
>might fall asleep over it, though.
that's good
hope you a good sleep friend
>don't think it's just me
maybe it's both
>left earbud seems to have a shorter battery
oh interesting, maybe it doesn't charge fully because when they other one charges then the charging stops and so you might pull the full charged on out to let that one finish?

My girlfriend cheated on me. She's not the first girl to cheat on me either. I wanna gouge my eye out then stab her stupid fuckin ex that she cheated with

>>81867026
good night!

>so you might pull the full charged on out to let that one finish?
maybe that's it. i'll give it a try.

time to call it a day. good night, everyone!

>>81867090
hey anon
it sounds terrible
maybe get under a blanket, hug a pillow and take a nap
Just don't do anything drastic and I hope you manage to recover, it might take a while though so be patient
Some people are horrible

>>81867091
goodnight

>My girlfriend cheated on me.
sorry you have to go through that. especially more than once :/

>She's not the first girl to cheat on me either.
at least you found out and could end the relationships. they obviously didn't deserve you.

>I wanna gouge my eye out then stab her stupid fuckin ex that she cheated with
understandable. can you let your frustrations out on something else, maybe? punching bag or something like that?

>>81867164
I understand why she did it, I'm not mad at her. We're getting desperate for money because my health isn't good and her ex just so happens to be loaded. Still doesn't feel good tho. I don't know what I'm gonna do :/

>>81867090
sry. forgot to reply here >>81867192

>>81867192
I don't want to end the relationship tho call me sappy or a cuck or whatever but I really love her and she seems very sorry about it. But it still hurts.

Don't have a punching bag I have weed, a knife, and a pillow

>>81867220
>I don't want to end the relationship tho call me sappy or a cuck or whatever but I really love her
that's fair. in the end it's your decision and people are working through stuff like that all the time. guess i was just projecting my reaction to something like that onto you.

>she seems very sorry about it.
she should be.

>But it still hurts.
of course it does.

>I have weed, a knife, and a pillow
option a) followed by option c) sounds like a plan. maybe put option b) away for the time being.

>>81867347
Yea maybe, maybe I'll just turn on some music and get high and I don't fuckin know, eat trailmix? Doesn't quell the rage or sadness in my heart but I guess cutting myself probably wouldn't either

I wish I had money I need nicotine so bad. Weeds alright but nicotine hits different when you're upset

Whatever jackass decided that raisins belong in trail mix should be shot

>>81867393
>maybe I'll just turn on some music and get high and I don't fuckin know, eat trailmix?
yeah. the right music might actually help a lot.

>Doesn't quell the rage or sadness in my heart but I guess cutting myself probably wouldn't either
i think you're right about that. only thing that helps is time and whatever solution you two can come up with to deal with it.

>I wish I had money I need nicotine so bad. Weeds alright but nicotine hits different when you're upset
i work at a corner store and sell people all kinds of drugs and other addictive ways to ruin their lives and let me tell you one thing: it's really expensive. if you could remove that stuff from your life, you'd save a whole lot of money.

>>81867436
i like 'em, but i concede that there should be more variants without. not always in the mood for them, either.

>>81867588
Turned on some rap, idk it's kinda chill and laid back. But you're right addiction is an expensive bitch, but I haven't had nicotine in months. I cut out most of the bad shit, cigs, drinking, hard drugs, even caffeine. All I got left is smoking weed and cutting myself. I don't know I think a lil nicotine once in awhile won't hurt too much

hello everyone
its been a while, again
my source of misery is kinda gone and...... i got a girlfriend out of nowhere!

i should probably take it a bit slower with her and take her on more dates and stuff
anyway
hows everyone?

>>81867736
hey Sisyphus! great to see you. that's amazing to hear you've got a girlfriend I'm so happy for you <3
>slower with her and take her on more dates and stuff
yea she'll definitely appreciate that.
>hows everyone?
idk. got femboy clothes so yay but awful thing happened yesterday so yea...

>>81867645
>Turned on some rap, idk it's kinda chill and laid back.
good choice.

>I cut out most of the bad shit, cigs, drinking, hard drugs, even caffeine. All I got left is smoking weed and cutting myself.
that's really impressive. guess everyone needs some sort of vice in their life to deal with it all.

>I think a lil nicotine once in awhile won't hurt too much
if you can control it like that, maybe, but i don't think i'd risk it. up to you, though.

>>81867736
hi sisyphus! good to see you :D what have you been up to?

>my source of misery is kinda gone and...... i got a girlfriend out of nowhere!
both sounds pretty good. ^^ glad life's treating you well. how did that happen?

>i should probably take it a bit slower with her and take her on more dates and stuff
good idea. and don't forget to stop by and tell us how it's going. :>

>hows everyone?
same old, same old. just came back from my vacation last weekend and it already feels like it never happened. (-_-;) sadly not much else to tell. just working, working out and that's about it. kinda tired though, so i think i'll finally head to bed like i said here >>81867091 ^^

see ya!

>>81866726
sorry something came up.
once a month isn't bad either. I'm just a movie nerd I guess.
I've never heard of mad god no cool name tho
just random places in the woods much more exciting
it definitely would be. I'd want to visit at least 3 and all in Europe (Canada here)

>>81867906
Yea mf doom, steel pulse, and zillakami. Very nice very laid back.

Is it less impressive knowing that I only cut all that shit out(even caffeine) because it was causing me immense amounts of pain. I have crohns disease and it's at the severe stage so like tequila sunrises and non decaff coffee destroy my stomach. Lots of puking sometimes crying, very messy. I miss being strung out a lot

Tbh I'd probably fall off the wagon and start smoking again but I don't care that much. Putting on a trip to fit in with the cool kids
>>81867736
>got a gf
Congratulations, yea go slow if you rush things you're gonna freak her out

good night everyone, i hope to find time tomorrow to come back (and also remember to lol)
>>81867904
heya gator thank you
>yea she'll definitely appreciate that.
thankfully shes good enough at communicating so we both agreed it would be better than doing what we are now lmao
im still kinda in shock i somehow got a gf
>got femboy clothes
make sure your parents wont find them!
what happened yesterday? was it something to do with your friend?

>>81867906
>how did that happen?
we fell apart with my source of misery and somehow not even a month later a girl randomly started liking me romantically
ill be sure to tell you, so far its really fresh so not much to say
>it already feels like it never happened
yeah i went on a vacation too with 5 other people (3 girls 2 boys, one of which im with now) and now that its over i yearn for it again because of how much i enjoyed it
>>81867977
heya
>you're gonna freak her out
ehhhhhh not too worried about that as its a mutual thing, i just wanna do the regular and stereotypical couples stuff for once

>>81868019
>hope to find time tomorrow to come back
hope to see ya there I probably won't be on tomorrow
>so we both agreed it would be better than doing what we are now lmao
well that's incredibly good then. communication is very important with a relationship I imagine <3
>still kinda in shock i somehow got a gf
your a amazing person but I get that hehe.
>make sure your parents wont find them!
I won't hehe, there very nice clothes tho :3
>what happened yesterday?
just family stuff. stuff
>something to do with your friend?
no I still really love him

>just saw a flea crawling up my arm
It just keeps getting better. Fucking roommates took in a stray cat and didn't bathe him or give him any flea treatment stuff, if this ends with my cat getting fleas I'm throwing hands I've had enough

>cut general
>No timestamped scars
Fakecel general. Get off my board.

>>81868202
They're small and I don't have a pen or a pencil rn so no timestamp but here u go

>>81868243
Did a little more. Didn't go too hard tho

>>81868187
that's actually really fucked up

>>81868202
I'd post mine if I wasn't a fag