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Anonymous No.81874821 >>81875263 >>81875361 >>81875603 >>81878153
day 2 of me NOT waiting for her anymore
ok....I didn't kill myself...yet...
I miss her but I have to let go, why is this so hard? am I really going to need find a "replacement" gf? how can I replace someone like her? it's not like a goldfish that you can easily replace!

anyway...how are you anons doing this friday? any plans?
Anonymous No.81874891 >>81874921 >>81878007
Us losers never have good plans for the weekend. You will be obessed with her until you find a new girl.
Anonymous No.81874921 >>81875013
>>81874891
yeah but I meant like are you guys planning on playing something? or watching something?

I don't want to be this obsessive anymore
Anonymous No.81875013 >>81875045
>>81874921
Probably going to buy thc syrup and play old rainbow six and ghost recon games.
Anonymous No.81875045 >>81875082 >>81875089
>>81875013
nice, I've never played a ghost recon game before, well I did play one that had co op with my brother once

I might play more ps2 games today
Anonymous No.81875082 >>81875127
>>81875045
Do you think i should buy some ?
Anonymous No.81875089 >>81875127
>>81875045
I like socom better than ghost recon
Play socom on ps2
Anonymous No.81875127
>>81875082
um I don't know, i'm not an expert in this stuff, you should ask someone else
>>81875089
socom huh? I've heard about that game, I'll check it out
Anonymous No.81875263 >>81875317
>>81874821 (OP)
I had an irreplaceable 325 pound gf who was a 10/10. Obviously it was a fluke and I can never replace it so I relate to you. I tried getting a replacement gf and I hate it
Anonymous No.81875317 >>81875346
>>81875263
ugh if you are anything like me then I won't enjoy a replacement gf either...fuck...
Anonymous No.81875346 >>81875374 >>81876731
>>81875317
Why cant you get over her
Anonymous No.81875361 >>81875374
>>81874821 (OP)
I wish you go and rape her instead of not waiting for
Anonymous No.81875374 >>81875377 >>81875485
>>81875346
I don't know, I'm just an obsessive person I guess.
>>81875361
mmm m-maybe no NO!! never I don't want to hurt her
anyway how're you doing rape anon?
Anonymous No.81875377 >>81875504
>>81875374
Stop being an obsessive orbiter
An0nymous No.81875485 >>81875504
>>81875374
>how're you doing rape anon?
Fucking bad, anon. I've been losing lol all day
Anonymous No.81875504 >>81875511 >>81875621
>>81875377
hey I don't obsess over every single girl, just her!
>>81875485
losing? at a game? or at life?
Anonymous No.81875511 >>81875547
>>81875504
Post her picture
Do you even know what she looks like ?
I will rate her
Anonymous No.81875547
>>81875511
obviously I know what she looks like but no I won't post her picture! are you insane?
also I don't need your approval! I loved her and that's all that matters
Anonymous No.81875603 >>81875805
>>81874821 (OP)
hi yearn knight I'm gonna call you that now. I'm in the same position as you. difference is that my person leaves and times back so many times. you think you love them but sometimes you gotta love yourself more. i would do anything to make my person stay but they don't want to. sometimes you just gotta accept it. i think you deserve better.

that being said, what are you up to? I'm going to try to get my online friends to play games with me to get my mind off my ex.
Anonymous No.81875621 >>81875805
>>81875504
>at a game?
League of Legend.
Anonymous No.81875805 >>81875882 >>81875912
>>81875603
>hi yearn knight I'm gonna call you that now
hehe I like it.
> difference is that my person leaves and times back so many times.
I wish she would come back some day but that seems very unlikely at this point.
>i think you deserve better.
there was no one better than her :( at least that what it feels like to me right now.
>that being said, what are you up to? I'm going to try to get my online friends to play games with me to get my mind off my ex.
well I've been looking for a job this past month but no luck no one's hiring right now! but besides that I've just been playing videogames recently I replayed castlevania curse of darkness for ps2, it's one of my favorite games of all time god I missed it so much!!! I 100% that game and also beat it on crazy mode (hard mode) man games back then weren't joking when they said hard mode haha. I need to start playing something else soon to keep my mind off her too, not a huge fan of online games personally, I used to play metroid prime hunters online back in the ds games, I was really bad at it and I was always raging lol I think I'm going to play ico and shadow of the colossus next, for the first time in over a decade those two are also some of my favorite games ever! anyway have fun with your friends anon!
>>81875621
ah I see! I never played league of legends, it just wasn't my thing, is it like diablo? anyway I hope you manage to win!
Anonymous No.81875882
>>81875805
>I hope you manage to win!
Thank anon
Anonymous No.81875912 >>81875935
>>81875805
Do you live in the usa ?
It seems like you dont
Anonymous No.81875935 >>81876248 >>81876265
>>81875912
I just don't know anything about that stuff didn't know marijuana came in liquid form, I don't smoke weed believe it or not!
Anonymous No.81876248 >>81876263
>>81875935
Drugs effect everyone different. Maybe weed makes you feel bad.
You probably want to try weed. You just dont know where to get it.
I mix the syrup with pop like how other people mix codiene with pop.
Anonymous No.81876263 >>81876272
>>81876248
actually my brother smokes a shit ton of weed it's not like I don't have access to it but uh I dunno I'm just not interested plus there's a good chance weed will my me have a schizo meltdown or something like that, I mean I already hallucinate for no reason sometimes and I don't do any kind of drugs
Anonymous No.81876265
>>81875935
Here is an example of double cupping
[Soda and codiene]
Anonymous No.81876272 >>81876292
>>81876263
Sounds like a good story
Anonymous No.81876292 >>81876307
>>81876272
what if I go insane permanently? yeah no thanks I mean maybe I'll try it once but I dunno I don't really feel like it I'm fine with just smoking cigarettes
Anonymous No.81876297 >>81876341
Believe it or not. Drugs make me work harder and i might clean my car soon.
Anonymous No.81876307 >>81876341
>>81876292
The only drugs that can make you permantly high are lsd and mushrooms
Anonymous No.81876341 >>81876470
>>81876297
that happens to me with cigarettes, but i'm assuming other drugs have a stronger effect
>>81876307
but I've read that weed can trigger schizophrenia on certain people (assuming I'm not already a schizo)
Anonymous No.81876470 >>81876493
>>81876341
>weed can trigger schizophrenia on certain people
it can. it happened with me when i was 16 i started smoking weed and by 18 i was a felon and put into the psych ward and they studied my brain put suction cups on it and stuff. i wasnt allowed to leave the hospital for 30 days and when i left they told my parents i was paranoid schizophrenic. also when i was in rehab there was a girl there that would hallucinate and talk to imaginary friends. they said it was because of meth.
Anonymous No.81876493 >>81876562
>>81876470
....are you trying to troll me?
Mike !!s1jEdTQxfFE No.81876527 >>81876562
That's the reason I warn against it. It can cause a lot of mental disorders.
Anonymous No.81876562 >>81876667 >>81876684
>>81876493
no.
>>81876527
am i supposed to know who mike is ?
Anonymous No.81876635 >>81876667 >>81876684
why were you not good enough for her
do you suspect she will find another man soon?
is she homosexual or a-sexual ?
Anonymous No.81876667 >>81876716 >>81876807 >>81876830
>>81876562
oh I see.
oh and mike comes to my threads all the time I usually have no idea what he is talking about
>>81876635
I wish I had the answers anon, but she was not a-sexual (quite the opposite actually)
Mike !!s1jEdTQxfFE No.81876684
>>81876562
Hmmm maybe keep asking yourself that

>>81876635
Repressed self isolated asexual
Mike !!s1jEdTQxfFE No.81876716 >>81876734
>>81876667
Lol okay keep spinning. GL with that. I'm getting in the shower to get some sweat off, order some Uber eats, then back to the garage
Anonymous No.81876731
>>81875346
Lmao I drew this one, funny to see it used
Anonymous No.81876734 >>81876822
>>81876716
what are you working on in the garage?
Anonymous No.81876807 >>81876860
>>81876667
ok. im sorry i was hostile towards mike.
Mike !!s1jEdTQxfFE No.81876822 >>81876860
>>81876734
What do you think I'm working on in the garage?
Anonymous No.81876830 >>81876860
>>81876667
so you are saying she was nympho or trad ?
Anonymous No.81876860 >>81876929
>>81876807
is that the game you're playing today?
hey it's made by sammy! they made that berserk game on ps2!
>>81876822
uhh guns? I don't know I have no idea
>>81876830
a bit of both, does it matter?
Anonymous No.81876929 >>81876982
>>81876860
No. I am playing one of the greatest games ever made.
Anonymous No.81876982 >>81877019
>>81876929
oh neat, not a huge fan of sports games myself besides megaman soccer (and really I only played it for the music) and wii sports I guess lol
Anonymous No.81877019 >>81877062
>>81876982
this must be similar to blitz in blitz you have super human powers.
Anonymous No.81877062 >>81877158
>>81877019
ah like mario strikers and again megaman soccer!
Anonymous No.81877158 >>81877197
>>81877062
yea but i have a strange problem
when i played these football video games as a kid. i knew how to play them. now as an adult i cant figure out how to play. because the controls seem hard. tonight i was going to actually see if i am capable of mastering this game.
Anonymous No.81877197 >>81877280 >>81877293
>>81877158
it happens! I used to be good at river city ransom for the nes but when I replayed it years later I was struggling so much! though sports games have always had complicated controls for me.

good luck with the game though!
Anonymous No.81877280 >>81877359
>>81877197
what are you thoughts on this kind of music ?

https://youtu.be/D48eIs-Mj0o?si=SZbGZXNl7xJ6OnL9

https://youtu.be/x-KBYx1omAA?si=hhaPDKF-v_6OLXuk

https://youtu.be/jpLfgwFa-Jw?si=ilKNyfUi712p5sFz

https://youtu.be/QhBblfCPryE?si=6x-ZAjgG48psiknL
Anonymous No.81877293 >>81877359
>>81877197
i liked advanced wars on the gba
Anonymous No.81877359 >>81877426
>>81877280
not my kind of music honestly I'm more into stuff like bauhaus, nine inch nails iggy pop, david bowie.
>>81877293
oh is this game part of the advanced war series? I never heard of it before and I do like advanced wars and that one fire emblem game for gba and wii but I'm so bad at them! same with real time strategy games! I love age of empires 2 but I'm terrible at it I've only ever won on standard difficulty like twice in my life
Anonymous No.81877426 >>81877476
>>81877359
i played age of empires 2, red alert 2, and the conquerors as a kid. i also played sudden strike.
i think it is part of advanced wars.
i heard bowie on the radio today. it was bowie changes.
Anonymous No.81877456 >>81877485 >>81877515 >>81877517
what does it feel like being stuck on this forum
when she is out there in the wild being free?
Anonymous No.81877476 >>81877531
>>81877426
buhaus actually did a cover of a bowie song, ziggy stardust
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FFn_dS1hU5g

and this one is one of my favorite bauhaus songs I always show this one when people ask me about them (I know you didn't ask but still)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2GFnjLnLNwI
Mike !!s1jEdTQxfFE No.81877485
>>81877456
Replace the "she" with "he" and realize this is supposed to yourself
Mike !!s1jEdTQxfFE No.81877515
>>81877456
Replace the "she" with "he" and realize this is a post to yourself
Anonymous No.81877517 >>81877545
>>81877456
I want to kill myself anon, I've been considering suicide for the past week, are you happy? is that what you wanted to hear?
Anonymous No.81877531 >>81877570
>>81877476
it wasnt a bad song
it elevated my mood
Anonymous No.81877545 >>81877570
>>81877517
you are unstable
you need to isolate yourself
Anonymous No.81877570
>>81877531
nice! I'm glad you enjoyed it!
>>81877545
I think I need to do the opposite of that anon, being alone with my thoughts doesn't make things any better, why do you think I keep making these threads?
Anonymous No.81877621 >>81877686
As a girl even though it's hard to let go of her, please don't do anything to yourself. I promise things will get better :(( <33
Anonymous No.81877686
>>81877621
I'm trying my best not to do anything to myself, I appreciate your concern I really do!
Anonymous No.81877703 >>81877716
I hope your day went well. How are you feeling right now? :))
Anonymous No.81877716
>>81877703
I'm doing ok right now thanks for asking, well I've been looking for a job all months but I haven't had any luck, today I decided to stay at home and play some videogames, I'll try getting a job again on monday! hopefully I can get one.

how about you? how are you doing?
Anonymous No.81877756 >>81877777
I'm doing well! I really hope you get the job. It makes me sad to hear other people feeling like that. Everyone deserves love and I'm sure you will find someone who appreciates you<3
Anonymous No.81877777 >>81877803
>>81877756
thanks, you're really nice :)
I hope I do find someone who appreciates me, but for now I'm really hurt and I need to heal first, I'm scared of going through the same again
Anonymous No.81877803 >>81877811 >>81877818
>>81877777
Wasted as usual.
Anonymous No.81877811
>>81877803
what are those digits ?
Anonymous No.81877818
>>81877803
oh didn't even noticed, nice!
Anonymous No.81877822 >>81877853
Remember to be kind to yourself and do things that you enjoy!! Like watching a show! You seem like a lovely person and I really do hope the best to you!!

Also sorry I'm a slow writer :DD
Anonymous No.81877853
>>81877822
thanks ^_^
I might watch a movie or something tonight, maybe start reading another book.

and don't worry about being a slow writer :)
Anonymous No.81877861 >>81877909
>how are you anons doing this friday? any plans?

halo 2 . chips and dip.
with the boys
Anonymous No.81877884 >>81877909
What's your favorite movie and book genre?

I'm big fan of horror and mystery :33
Anonymous No.81877909 >>81877927 >>81877947
>>81877861
ohh nice! sounds like fun
>>81877884
hmm my favorite movie or one of my favorite movies is blade runner, the first one! and my favorite book so far is A scanner darkly by PKD but I also really like the vampire hunter D books a lot! it kills me that I haven't read more of them though! I've only read like 3 of them!
Anonymous No.81877927 >>81877976
>>81877909
did you ever play this is the boys on lan ?
Anonymous No.81877947 >>81877976
>>81877909
>and my favorite book so far is A scanner darkly by PKD
an absolutely brilliant piece of fiction. really able to get into it, very "immersive". evokes negative emotion in a positive way, in a sense. although not as visceral, i very much recommend Ubik by the same author. shit, i recommend anything PKD ever wrote. but check out Ubik. then maybe check out Job: A Comedy of Justice by Heinlein. cheers
Anonymous No.81877969 >>81877982
Ahh blade runner..maybe this is the sign to finally watch it! :D

Gosh I haven't even noticed the time! I better go to sleep, so I don't wake up a zombie! Good night to you anon! :))
Anonymous No.81877976
>>81877927
no but I did play a bit of golden eye! it looks really cool though I do want to play it!
>>81877947
actually the next book I was planning on reading was ubik!!! I'm trying to read all of his stuff! I already read electrical sheep and man in the high castle! (no i'm not a nazi I just thought the book was interesting!)
Anonymous No.81877982
>>81877969
you really should! goodnight anon! it was nice talking to you ^_^ sleep well!
Anonymous No.81878007 >>81878023
>>81874891
I've been with my current gf for 10 years, that's 8 years longer than my first ex. I'm still obsessed with my ex...

While my ex doesn't think about me, has a kid, married divorced, remarried. She's probably enjoying life while I can't even get myself out of bed most days. I wish I could move on.
Anonymous No.81878023 >>81878056
>>81878007
oh man, it's only been like 3 months for me.... the pain never ends?
Anonymous No.81878056 >>81878063
>>81878023
If you have the tism and/or OCD like me you might never be free. If you're more normal, you'll get over her eventually.
Anonymous No.81878063 >>81878089
>>81878056
I know I have ocd. autism? never been diagnosed but I'm pretty sure I have that too. and there was this other girl from middle school that 10 years later I still hadn't forgotten about her until I met my now ex girlfriend so looks like I will be obsessed with her now! fuck my life
Anonymous No.81878089 >>81878152
>>81878063
Generally, for me at least, it's only obsession with my first ex. Mainly since she left me due to her going to the military.
Anonymous No.81878152 >>81878277
>>81878089
I just tend to obsess with any girl that shows me some love, I was very affection starved growing up so you can probably imagine how nice it felt when a girl was nice to me and in the case of my ex gf how nice it felt that she was always telling me how much she loved me
Anonymous No.81878153 >>81878164
>>81874821 (OP)
Why do you need a "replacement"? Get over her first, start thinking clearly again instead of still having your mind clouded by pussy access you had up until now.
Anonymous No.81878164 >>81878729
>>81878153
I don't want a replacement but my friends and anons over here keep telling me I should but I'm not that kind of guy honestly I can't just replace someone like that!
Anonymous No.81878277 >>81878334
>>81878152
Women are not "angels" we, as boys, tend to believe at first. It is only with experience we realize they're people like everyone else. You don't see any guy on the street as a loving, good person, right? Same with women. By being needy, unable to let go due to your experiences growing up, all you will find is pain, eventually. No woman will replace your mother, none of them will become the affectionate, person who will love you no matter what. Instead, you must be ready to be silently evaluated, judged every day. "Is this guy really the one?" "Is he capable of supporting me and a family?" If she feels like you haven't done your homework, haven't crossed the boundary between a boy and a man, the years you spend together will be based all around fun, but you'll start noticing she's "shifty" around the topic of settling and starting a family.
Don't let yourself getting roped in into such a relationship. I had a few relationships in my life which just happened, I never ever looked for a woman. I never used a dating app or a site. Women, just like men nowadays, can be teenagers in adult bodies. All about fun, afraid of "missing out" on something, which tends to turn them into consumerism obsessed empty shells of a person. They will avoid important topics, while entertaining everything that is fun, that may be sex, even lots of it, travels, buying stuff you two don't "need", but "the fear of missing out" or "our friends have one, we should too!" type of arguments. Look for women who want to have a family but not "one day", "maybe in the next 10 years".
Anonymous No.81878334
>>81878277
honestly the only relationships that I've had also just happened I wasn't looking for a gf when they happened.
but still I see what you mean.
also I never felt loved by my mom or my dad for that matter which is why (I think) I am the way I am.
Anonymous No.81878729 >>81878785
>>81878164
Then don't listen to people, who are, in all likeness, so sick from the lack of female attention, that they'd take anything. It's the reason why guys get with obviously ugly Asians, who think they marry up, but then have their husbands work and work because their societies are very materialistic. Asians from SEA countries happily hunt for desperate white guys with self-esteem and loneliness problems because they see them as walking openings to a much richer life that they'd otherwise lead. I'm mentioning Asians because it's the worst thing a man can do other than getting with a black chick. They're the sort of people who only think about now and near future, but don't think what happens when they have kids with them, destroying their genetic line, but that's not the worst part - their children pay the actual price, as they're truly neither - never fully accepted by either race. Feeling of belonging is a major part of growing up, especially for boys. It's not that important for females, as they get showered with attention regardless. They become an exotic fuckmeat and they realize it only after it's already too late.
Plus, boys always inherit the X chromosome, a major chromosome with a massive amount of genetic information, from their mothers. This is why hapas born to Asian men and white women tend to be more "white passing", while the reverse situation has you with a full chinkoid, with whiter skin. But the people see the difference. Instinctually, men of a given ethnicity see it as something wrong.
Anonymous No.81878785 >>81878856
>>81878729
I never got the appeal for asian women desu not that I'm racist they are just not my preference, but yeah I'm not desperate enough to just date anybody
Anonymous No.81878856 >>81878914
>>81878785
I'm happy to hear that. It's not about racism. It's about thinking about long-term results of one's actions. You can find love in places you'd never expect. Don't be desperate, don't do things rashly, be patient and do your own thing meantime. Don't get hung on a single woman, because what you really miss is the image of her in your head and the good times together, while ignoring the bad and that she's not an image, but a person with all the good and bad that everyone has. It's just that there are some people who have more "bad" (like BPDs or borderliners) which are medical terms for a certain type of shitty character. The only people I've seen to change were guys that worked hard on understanding their actions and feelings and finding ways to change their behavior up to now.
Anonymous No.81878914
>>81878856
yeah I'm not one to do things without thinking about the future! I can't understand how some people don't stop and at least think a week ahead before doing something, it boggles my mind!