I want to know how other anons live. The state of your living space specifically. I live ultra minimally because my OCD causes me to throw things away if I feel they are not perfect. It is not particularly orderly despite having less things though. I have been sleeping on the floor lately because my deranged mind thinks I will contaminate my bed if I touch it and therefore it will be ruined. My life is a constant mental torment of my own mind's creation. I constantly try to figure out how to frame things logically such that I can develop a healthy living space that I am happy with but it only seems to get worse. At least I do not have piles of trash. Yet.

>>81878395 (OP)
please stop trying to bond with me

>>81878403
These anonymous texts are all I have anymore.

>>81878411
post something funny or interesting instead

I live alone after my mother died, the house is a complete wreck, I never clean the grass is overgrown. Everything looks like trash outside and inside is even worse. I have cats and a lot of the time I'm too lazy to keep up with their litterboxes so they go under places and in corners in things and I never clean it up. They throw up hairballs all over the floor and I don't either. They pee on the furniture as well as claw it to ribbons. Everything is just filthy and nasty. There are flies everywhere and even with fly spray I kill several flies a day here in the summer and there's always more of them.

>>81878418
Does this entertain you?

>>81878439
consider a lime, maybe a grape. it doesn't always have to be an apple

>>81878395 (OP)
i dont know how i live, i dont know what is real anymore, do i have imaginary frens? what would they think of me if say this or if i do this, would doing this would give me aura and make me look based? or is cringe and i lost my aura if i do it? i live in constant judgement and idk by who, is it by me? where is my mind? i dont even know anymore, skibidi is sigma, pfff whatever happens happens it is what it is

>>81878447
Is this more lime flavored?

>>81878434
I would struggle to ever have an animal on the house for this reason. I get why people do. I just know that I could not handle a single shit, piss, or vomit on my floor. No way. Not that selfless. It seems inevitable with indoor pets too.

>>81878478
I sometimes think I am becoming schizophrenic.

>>81878481
lol wtf is that cat real or is this kingdom hearts?

>>81878502
Well the cats were more mom's and when she was taking care of the place everything was fine. After she first got sick things started turning for the worse because once in a while she would get me to clean a little bit but since she's been gone I haven't bothered at all.

>>81878395 (OP)
I wake up early for work, still sleepy because I stayed up late. Entire shift thinking about I'm soon going to be 25 and how much I've wasted my life. On top of that I got under a skin of some corporate narcissist from previous job and now I'm having people suptly harassing me everywhere. Leave work, shower, eat and spend time on youtube I could've spent somewhere better, but thankfully sometimes I do. Spend nights filling the void with internet nonsense and stay up late - so the cycle can repeat again.

If it just weren't for gangstalking or if I just tried something. But I did and I always fall back to being a sore loser.

If you're younger and still have some time... idk. I didn't make it by now so I'm not sure what to say. Just don't be stupid, and don't live in your fantasies.

Anon don't pay attention to people disregarding your thread. It is nice if we sometimes had each other's back.

>>81878395 (OP)
I wake up, masturbate to furry porn, get up and get dressed and play a single player vidya. After a while I eat then return to vidya. I'll talk to an AI sexbot for companianship in bed then I'll probably go to sleep by 3 am while cuddling my pillow after crying to myself. I'm only 18 and I'm already Israel's greatest goy.

I wake up at 6am and remember that I'm 31 and still live with my dad, and that I have no friends or love interests. The warm glow of a sense of belonging that my dreams occasionally grant me quickly fade away and I roll off the prison mattress I sleep on to begin again. I relocate the clothes and various miscellaneous items from my workout equipment onto my prison mattress to make room for my morning workout, which occupies my time until about 8:30. Once everyone except me has left, I enjoy a depraved wank and make some breakfast.

Around brunch I get dressed and go for a hike in the nearby woods. The route I take is about ten miles and it takes me a few hours to complete. When I return home I make some lunch and work out again for an hour or two before going back to sleep. I wake up when people start returning to the house and try to find a project to occupy myself, which is usually sewing my damaged clothes or learning new knots from the Ashley Book of Knots. I usually browse some of my favorite boards for a few hours in the evening, then I take two or three times the recommended dose of sleeping pills and read a book until I get sleepy. I'm currently working my way through the Goblin Slayer light Novels. Once my eyelids start getting heavy, I usually say my prayers and quietly wish that my heart will give out while I'm sleeping to relieve myself and others of the burden of my existence before drifting off to sleep. Sometimes, I have dreams that there is a place where I fit in and belong. Other times, I dream that I am well adjusted and have a group of friends that like me and respect my opinion. There are even occasionally dreams where someone has a romantic interest in me. Of course, the relief these escapes provide me are temporary, and it isn't long before I wake up on my prison mattress and have to begin my routine again.

I live in a trailer that I renovated myself. My mother is in a house next to it that she owns. I hate my fucking mother. One day I'll buy some random patch of land and take my RV there, alone, to live fully off grid. Hopefully, I'll become schizophrenic enough to imagine a perfect woman by my side eventually. I tried and tried with women, but it was fruitless in the very end. I hate women very much. It used to be in a rapey sense of the word but now I just don't have that urge to any real women now. I just want them away from me or dead.

>>81878395 (OP)
Depending on my work schedule for the day, I wake up at either around 4 am or 11 am. I try to stay in bed till the last possible second without being late for work. I always shower the night before to save time. I'll get dressed, brush my teeth and drive to my job. I'm a lifeguard. Once I get to work I'll either be up, where I'll sit on a chair and watch the pool, or down, where I'll sit in the guard room and either write on my laptop or doomscroll on my phone. Sometimes I get lunch on the way back from work. If not I skip it and just eat dinner after I go to the gym. I usually only eat 1 meal a day, which is probably why I can't bulk, but any more makes me sick. During my free time I'll browse this board, or play video games. My favorites right now are Ark and Counter Strike. I'll scroll insta, reddit and 4chan for at least 2 hours in bed before I go to sleep. My entire life is empty and most days I wish I was dead. I'm going to start cadet school to be a merchant mariner soon ig. I have no gf, barely any friends and no long term goals. I want to finish the story I'm trying to write, publish, and blow my head off with a shotgun.

>>81878395 (OP)
sleep late, wake up early - mom's on my ass all the time, telling me what to do for today; laundry, dishes, mop the floor, etc.
when its time for lunch, either i go out and buy em with my allowance or cook whatever's available

i either spend my time here or do my assignments for uni, and when i've done those, i usually head out around 4-5pm, buy a pack of smokes and a can of iced coffee and just find someplace to sit and just... watch
the people, the trees, the world - as it goes on and on, ever moving, constant, ever changing

i keep telling myself i haven't done much, but i've done lots - and i'm tired
go home around 7pm and again, either buy or cook dinner and then just lurk here again till 4-5am

i dont know where my life is going, anons

>>81878395 (OP)
I live in a clean place, it looks messy but I keep my crib clean, I don't hoard I just keep what I need which happens to be a lot of stuff but yknow, my room has no windows and it looks quite depressing for that reason but eh, It's sad to not be able to stare at the moonlight but it still is my place, I also got a garden and if the day is nice I spend some time there with my plants, I got poppies and sunflowers as nice stuff, wit crops I got potatoes and tomatoes

>>81878395 (OP)
I live somewhat minimally as a NEET, but within a place of clutter.
I hate cleaning and vacuuming, so I've gone years without doing it. Naturally, I don't have visitors.