Thread 81878616

Vent your feelings, order your drinks, pay with cash or cards

Suicide, arguing and fighting is against the rules of the feels bar

Listen, I'm gonna be a little absent but always read your ventings so feel free

my plans for a lounge keeps failing. how is this bar so successful?
gin and tonic please

can I hab a shirley temple ? I need to drink less

I wan 2 cry in2 anyonez arms

>>81878616 (OP)
i just fucking hate this world and the human worms feasting on its carcass

>>81878616 (OP)
My parents were reminiscing about the one country before the rebels took over and set up one of the worst dictatorships on the continent. It sounded like a wonderful place before that happened. I hope that things are better and we could go back, but the regime hates us and think of us as foreigners despite settling a century before they threw us out. I just wonder why it has to turn out this way.

Just a water for me.

>>81878616 (OP)
Being terminally online means I always have up to date slang, but I am now old enough that I come off like that Steve buscemi meme even though I am using the words normally.
Being old sucks. Just kill yourself. There is nothing for humans here.

something heavy.

you know it's crazy. i have like 3 life paths open to me now and each one makes me want to shoot myself. the least bad one is literally developing a game with my art talent and trying to succeed all on my own.... but it's hilarious because that would literally take years, and i'd have to do everything myself. but y'know, i'd rather do that than have a normal job again, because that stuff -really- made me want to blow my brains out. the anxiety, the stress, the fluorescent lighting, having a boss... it's all shit. i wish when we were kids our parents would let us know how incredibly difficult some of our lives would be, because then we'd have time to prepare. mentally i feel like a kid who was thrown into the jungle on his 14th birthday and told ahahahahahahahha gooood fucking luck bro!!! what's the problem is the jungle too hard for you?? hahahha good luck out there!! etc

>>81878639
No ideia, I just give drinks and listen to people vent their hearts out
*gives gin and tonic*
Here's your drink but please drink with moderation; don't drive
>>81878645
*gives Shirley temple*
Take it easy
>>81878680
You remind me of Eito, a character from the hundred line last defense academy game >>81878686
*gives water*
>>81878710
NO. FUCKING. SUICIDE TALK. IN MY BAR. >>81878721
*gives cold beer*

>>81878616 (OP)
Just scotch, and a pepsi

quest to find GLT in person has been going fucking horribly. Don't wanna order it cus my apartments haven't given me a key for the PO box thing (moved in years ago) and the only other address I can have it shipped to is my grannies house, and she opens every package that comes to her door so that's a no no.
pretty much every book store I've went to doesn't have it.

I've given up on suicide because it's gay as fuck and humiliating.

Also I found out I'm French, I thought I was just Spanish and Dutch.

>>81878795
>found out im French
Im so sorry for your loss. My condolences.

>>81878827
it is le over

>>81878616 (OP)
Give me a glass of bourbon. Neat.

I fucking despise this job market. Every fucking job is either looking for 2+ years experience for a fucking entry level position, or they will absolutely pay bare fucking minimum whilst being 2 to 3 hours away, making it borderline worthless due to car costs. Honestly, if I knew being in the IT field was going to be this shitty I would have rather graduated with something else or be a fucking pipe fitter.

>>81878872
Pretty sure you just described the average job field now

>>81878869
Andou my darling please put the gun down

>>81878883
So they all fucking suck? Well I at least I know I'm not alone.

>>81878616 (OP)
I'd make it if I had like 71,000 dollars to build my dream home by the beach. I could air bnb it for like 3,000 a month and it would pay for itself in 2 years.

Better. Around a week sober now. Learning nocode AI stuff so I can freelance to a few people I know IRL. Learning some other programming/security stuff and going back to college. Eating cleaner and I'll gym today. Taking my meds consistently and I feel calmer although a bit restless today.

>>81878891
no, it's le over. I am le french, I thought I was Montaya.

>>81878616 (OP)
Two screw drivers and a shit ton of cherries. Hag ass co worker gave me the money she owes me yesterday. Bitch still owes me money for today though. New job is taking forever to hire my ass and those fucks would have fucked me over cause they somehow lost my paperwork that they had ME SUBMIT TO THEM SO I CAN EVEN APPLY TO BEGIN WITH. Thankfully I saved the scans of it before submission. I just want to have a nice day at the beach tomorrow with my mom and sister.

>>81878616 (OP)
Give me a rum on ice please. I HAVE NO FEELINGS BECAUSE I AM NUMB INSIDE BUT I LIKE BIG BUTTS

>>81878616 (OP)
Keep my triple IPA full, barkeep, I'm not particular.
I'm married to the most wonderful wife I can image, but I can't get away from memories of my ex dying in a hospital. I have flashbacks constantly. It's been over a decade.
How can you be married to a woman and engaged to a ghost at the same time?
I spent my most formative years with her, if I was to talk to a psychologist (jew) I'm sure he'd say that so much of my identity is tied up in that relationship. From my ideal life to my personality. I start hyperventilating whenever I think about her too much. I know it's not healthy. I spent a lot of years in complete social isolation, doing things alone and pretending she was there with me, imagining her as a ghost by my side. Even now I can hear her laughter, and her gentle teasing that was always followed by physical intimacy.

I want to bury her, water her grave with my tears and leave but I can't seem to get any further past the graveyard's gate before turning around.

>>81878616 (OP)
>Suicide, arguing and fighting is against the rules of the feels bar.
I want to unalive your mom's scrotum grease wound.

I never drank before and I'm not sure if I should start now. Just give me a root beer.

My mother presses me to find out once wrong and then threatens to kill herself when I suggest I want to travel to visit someone. I guess she'll be out out my life soon and my mom gets what she wants.

>>81878616 (OP)
I can't drink alcohol right now so I guess i'm gonna ask for some good coffee right now.

I've been hopeless and like a husk for a while but recently I started to feel alive again, sad but alive you know, atleast there were feelings in my head this time around, however right now I feel in heaven doc

>>81880602
Fuck that's sad, I have no excuse to give a fuck about my shitty ex after reading this. Visit the grave, it's painful but you must do it.

Bottle of Bells whiskey with some ice please.
Had seven 'chances' to finally get an unpaid fuck this year collapse.
Now matched with a teacher MILF with big tits on Hinge.
She likes my 'forward' profile, but takes a couple of days to answer.
Also told her I'm socially/sexually anxious, and she's at least curious.
Decided to be forward and go brutally honest in a bunch of my fuck app/site bios.
I'm hoping she wants to meet for coffee soon, and take me back to her place.
If I could escape inceldom before I hit 40 next year, I will be so relieved.
I think my only hope of getting sex is with a post-fertile fuck-buddy.
Naturally, I expect it all to fail, like the others.
TFW raining, so I can't go to the park.

>>81880864
Same order, and same as this anon. Except I feel like a worse husk and am dead inside now.The light is gone.

>>81881319
The feelings are temporary anon, are withdrawing from something? if the answer yes I can tell you, the feelings are temporary, three hellish weeks of being a husk before you can be normal sad again

>>81881437
>are withdrawing from something
No I lost something, and it will take far longer than that unless certain unlikely things happen. I know it will too because it took years the last time, and this time it is worse.

>working weekends back to back
>literally 15+hr days and also on-call when I leave
>stressed to hell literally can't fucking sleep from work nightmares
how's your week going

>>81878616 (OP)
>need to use the microwave
>dad put a frozen bag of pork in it to thaw
>no plate just plastic bag now dripping in raw meat juice
>microwave is also covered in juice
>put the bag on a plate, wash my hands and wipe down the microwave as best i can
>he comes into the kitchen and starts feeling up the bag, takes a pair of scissors from the drawer without washing the raw meat juice from his hands
>takes the meat out and throws the bag in the sink
>opens the cupboard and throws the bag in the trash
>all with dirty hands
>rinses off his fingers, no soap
>dries them on the kitchen towel (full of various stains)
>leaves the mostly thawed meat on the plate in the kitchen
>indoor temp is 82
>it's going to be at least 2 hours until he cooks it
i used to think the reason i was sick and had the runs so often was due to my diet or some kind of illness but i'm starting to think it's because my parents don't give a shit about food safety

>>81878616 (OP)
Decided to fully deconstruct my mind and i dont like the conclusions im getting