I am still looking at her old pictures and it still hurts. This world is just so cruel for a hopless romantic like me. I never wanted to be with anyone else but her. I know she does not care about me since she has ghosted me over 4 months ago. That is over 100 days. I wish I could let go but my heart simply won't allow it. I am not sure if I can ever love someone like her again. For me she is the world but I am nothing to her and yet I still love her. Why does it have to be this way.

>>81907919 (OP)
She is a slut for Chad and could not care less about you. She doesn't care about your existence or what happens to you. You could die from a heart attack tomorrow and she couldn't care less. You are less then nothing to her. As she is having sex with Chad (far superior men compared to yourself) you are thinking of her.

>>81907945
Idk about that she was a virgin back when we were still talking. She told me that she is looking for real love but that could all be a lie. I don't like to think about that but yes you are right she doesn't care what happens to me or else she would have talked with me at least once just simply updating me. I hate that I can't let go, I know it is wrong. I am thinking about visiting her during my next vacation just so I can get an answer. It destroys me inside.

I feel you brother. I've been on the same boot for a few months now, it only started to feel better when i deleted all the photos we had together and block her in every social media so I can't see her updates. Out of sight, out of mind.

>>81908011
I can't delete the pictures they are one of the few things I still have from her. That would be like cutting into my own soul. She is offline in all her accounts ever since so no point in blocking.

>>81907919 (OP)
i fear this will be me in a few months and i have no idea how i'd cope with it so, i just hope you manage to get over her soon anon.

>>81908094
I tried but I can't I don't think I will meet a girl like her ever again. It is like one in a million. I wish I could close my heart for her but that would mean I would have to find someone like her and I don't think that is possible.

>>81907919 (OP)
I felt this same way with a cute guy I met here and I did not get over it for many months

>>81908082
Understandable. Tbh, I didn't delete them either. What I did was put them all in a winrar file with a password, and I hid that file deep in my computer's hard drive. I also uploaded a backup to Google Drive, just in case something happens to my PC.
That way, you don't lose the photos but you don't see her when you open your phone's gallery. I don't know about you, but it hurt like hell every time I saw her.

>>81907919 (OP)
I know what you mean. It is a brutal existence. All you can do is try to find some copes until you die.
>>81907997
Women lie like crazy and do not mean anything they say. They do not love in the way you think. I have had multiple girls say they would never date again if I broke up with them then suddenly their feelings change (they find chad) and never respond to me again. They manipulate to get what they want

>>81908335
It is not simple attraction, we told each other that we love the other one and that we would stay togheter no matter what and that we are soulmates. I still think that way but the fact that she has ignored me all this time means she does not. I bet she has made new accounts just to get rid of me this is why all her old ones show no activity.
>>81908341
Oh no they are not on my phone only on my pc in a folder, I don't look every day at them but I just did today and all the feelings I had for her are still the same.

>>81908393
I don't think there is much cope I am just wasting away my life right now. I think so much to just travel to her since I know where she lives and confront her. She found 4chan since she watched a docu about incels and wanted to see how they are. Why giving a guy like me any hope only to take it away like that.

>>81908433
Did she have BPD anon. Kinda sounds like pic related

>>81908493
No bpd as far as I know. She never lovebombed me.

Why are you chasing me?

>>81907919 (OP)
keep your chin up fren, r9k is not the place to come for this
people here are demoralized and will just drag you down
maybe one or two people will give you some good advice

Time heals everything, you just have to wait. Try to put your mind in other stuff. Gaming, working out, your job, whatever keeps your mind from thinking about her. You will get better King