I know there are constant posts like this but I'm so fucking lonely. I have friends to be fair so ik I have it better than some of you & I'm sorry that your lives are terrible but I just want to kill myself so bad. I want to be held by someone and I have nobody, if I complain to my friends they'll just go "Damn bro don't kys" and they won't get it, they don't have the emotional bandwidth to actually comfort me. I'm not even complaining about women although that is a large part of the problem (don't talk to any women from 4chan they're all either catfish or bpdemons). I just want somebody to hold me and tell me they love me or that it will be ok or even just say nothing. I just feel so cold and dead and there's nobody who would ever even consider touching me at all and it's so fucking depressing. I also feel like I have so much love to give but every time I want to the person I try to give it to forces it away and replaces it with hatred and anger and so I've ended up becoming so resentful towards everybody that ik because they're not really there for me in a meaningful way. It all just feels so superficial a lot of the time, like I could just leave and it wouldn't impact anybody. Nobody ik considers me their closest friend, nobody ik wouldn't be able to just replace me in 3 days it's just pointless, even if I want to have an impact on people I can't because they don't want my thoughts or feelings. My family is no help either because they only seem to care about me to the extent that it benefits them personally if at all. They just want me to do well in life so I can give them the money I make. As a child they would just scream at me and at each other in front of me, they always left me as the last priority, if only because letting me go to school starved and with bruises would call to attention the terrible home life in a much more physical way. I'm only acknowledged for work or humor.

TL;DR I'm going to kill myself but not really because I'm too scared to die fml.

Holy fucking fuck
EAT YOUR RITALIN GODDAMN

Please look at my post
>>81913204
Damn what the fuck is wrong with your computer?

>>81913318
>Damn what the fuck is wrong with
Is that a trick question?

>>81913037 (OP)
>They just want me to do well in life so I can give them the money I make

This is what a world centered around mammon does. Eventually people are reduced to nothing more than their purchasing power, love is buried under the weight of economic transactions. You are not alone in this, single member households are rising, bachelorship is rising along with substance abuse as healthcare becomes unaffordable. The world is a fuck good luck

>>81913476
So how do I be happy?

>>81913037 (OP)
sorry bro what are you saying? cant hear you sorry bro

>>81913544
I don't know catposter. Right now I take solace that I have frens that appreciate what I do and that I get to do stuff for them. How does one become truly happy? I don't kno

>>81913037 (OP)
I'm sorry, anon... I know things look bleak, I felt like killing myself a while back. I straight up planned it out and everything.
I promise that things can always improve though, I'm feeling a bit better now.

I no longer want to kill myself, I know the same will happen to you.

>>81914064
You were really serious about all that baww posting? Hire a professional cuddler, it'll hold you over until you get some real friends.

>>81914164
Oh you got it wrong. I take joy in the fact that I can in some way show back my gratitude to my friends although I can never really repay them in full. My frens have been the realest. I baww tears of joy for how lucky I am to have them

>>81914064
>>81914123
Thank you anons
>>81914164
honestly I might consider this

>>81914381
Consider it? Just do it. You only live once. Do all kinds of stuff. You gotta commit.