dreamed about my bpd whore ex again. i hate when this happens. normally i'm fine but i'll get a dream like that and be depressed all day because it all comes flooding back. the gaslighting. the emotional abuse. the unbelievable sex. the way i let that experience damage relationships i had afterwards. how i wasn't strong enough to walk away when i should have.

its been 8 years and there are times when it still hurts.

>>81916479 (OP)
carry on soldier

>>81916479 (OP)
I hope you see her outside and she has a husband and kids.

>>81916479 (OP)
I've been there. It's alright for it to hurt, and acknowledge that it does hurt. It's not even 'wrong' to miss aspects of it even when you know it was ultimately bad for you. I still think about my BPD ex myself, and really, that's just a part of being a human; one that's gone through a lot of rough abuse from someone that was important to you. I'm not gonna tell you things will magically shift for you out of nowhere or that you should just ignore it. What I will say is that you've surely already been through more than your fair share of strife and anguish. If you do anything, give yourself the kindness of acknowledging your feelings, and accepting how you naturally process it. You probably had to shut down a lot of that during the relationship...and nobody is going to let you have that back but yourself.

>>81916479 (OP)
that sucks. I don't dream of my exes anymore. Last one was about two chubby girls where we were all dating each other and sharing a bed together in a lesbian relationship

>>81916520
me too actually, "not my problem" on steroids

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>>81916524
thank you frens it means a lot