Thread 81919850

I don't know what I have done wrong to deserve this never ending loneliness. So many guys have gfs yet I never had one outside of one online where she ended up ghosting me after 6 months. I am still a khhv I just want to hug a girl and cuddle with her while we watch a movie or anime together. I look normal, I am tall, I have even lost most of my fat and I am no longer overweight. Is autism really such a curse. I just want to give love and receive love back why is that I never ever get a real chance.

>>81919850 (OP)
I've had way more women mistreat me throughout my life for being autistic than men.
They're really so judgmental and cruel no matter what.

>>81920082
It is just so sad that it has to be that way. I wish autistic women would at least understand it but also but the one I talked with also has treated me bad and ghosted me. I don't know what to do anymore I am really cursed to be alone forever?

>>81920251
anons will never look in the mirror and realize they are the problem and not some innocent autist

>>81920339
Yeah I know I am a 5 I said I look average. So many guys who are average and even bellow average have gfs so why not me.

I guess my love is worthless.

>>81920082
i know the feeling ive been through shit myself and even though it took a while i know you can get over it.

>>81919850 (OP)
>Is autism really such a curse.
Yes. You're not like, nonverbal and licking computer screens though.

>I just want to give love and receive love back why is that I never ever get a real chance.
This is a misuse of terms and the clarification should clear up the misunderstanding.
You are undersexed and you are lonesome. What you need is to satiate your sexual appetite and you need to be on the receiving end of affection. My prescription is to visit a prostitute to have sex with, and keep an animal that will thank you for caring for it with physical affection. I'll reiterate. Go fuck a whore with big tits and have a golden retriever that will sit by you on the couch.
If you still have a problem then come back to my office.

>>81919850 (OP)
Girls like Ashbie IRL are always with Alpha Nerds. You know, your local DM or side-DM in your tabletop scene who is extremely tall and has sperg charisma (did drama in school, maybe speaks multiple languages, probably plays bass) and probably has at least a few tattoos. These guys always put up a front of being laid back but are generally narcissistic and aggressive when push comes to shove.

>>81922172
No I don't want a prostitute. This is disgusting. I rather stay a virgin. I don't need sex as much as I need affection and love. Sex like that is just hollow, it is just her job, there are no real feelings. I refuse to ever do that.
About the dog idk I would be less flexibel and a dog costs a lot of money. Maybe I get one when I get depressed again.
>>81922197
Where can you even find girls like this?

>>81919850 (OP)
I don't get it either.
I've had gfs and sex so you'll tell me I don't understand, but trust me I do.
>>81920082
They can't love you, they only ever love neurotypicals.

>>81922312
You generally find them at volunteering organisations or community college classes. Sometimes church groups or your local game store. They are either taken or genuinely believe they will meet the IRL version of their fanfic OC any day now.

>>81920251
Nobody hates autistic men more than autistic women.

>>81922315
But you had gfs and sex that means women did love you at some point. I did love the girl online but even I know that this is not a real relationship until you have meet at least once.
>>81922350
>volunteering organisations
Are you sure? What kind or just generaly volunteering? I am no longer in education and don't really plan to so classes are out of the question. I was thinking about going to church but am very bad socially so I am not sure if I could even talk with one to get her to like me. I have never ever seen a single woman in any game store I went only guys.

>>81922366
But why? She didn't seem to hate me at all at first and was happy that she can talk with someon who is like her. Still ghosted me like am worth nothing after a few months.

>>81922517
I used to run into a lot of them when I volunteered at community childcares and thrift shops. Relatively, I mean. As in one would appear every few months, mostly you will be around old ladies (which can be to your benefit if you are somewhat handsome and have a good attitude as they will try and force you to meet their daughters or granddaughters). If you are over 23 then you probably won't ever meet an Ashbie because they tend to get married young or become total recluses after 21.

>>81922312
You mentioned KHHVdom in your complaint, so it's bothering you that you are a virgin in addition to your desire for sexualized intimacy. You did say you have a desire "to love" but from a woman's perspective, what is that truly worth? So you want to fondle and kiss and gyrate. All on the tab of your own calorie expenditure. How thoughtful. I'm glad I was mistaken.

So since none of this bothers you and you'd rather remain a virgin, then you can stop complaining about being a KHHV. Now, to your currently halved demand of affection and love: You should be made aware that love in any form is conditional and it is a tremendous burden on the part of the thing doing the loving. However, it is freely received. This means that you cannot compel anyone or anything towards loving you, and you can only strive towards the higher likelihood of the same outcome as compulsion. Striving will feel like a burden to the point of wasting away to nothing.

Fortunately for you, the insular and cushy modern times we live in (at present) make this burden exceedingly light. Technically, you can feel affection for anything in your life that you've grown fond of simply by its proximity to you. It could be a goldfish on your desk. But you mentioned wanting physical affection, and for that you will need something a little bigger. For a dog that thinks you're its adoptive father, affection for you is the most likely outcome. Obviously it will be expensive, so just take time out for it and make more money. These burdens would be easy to shoulder if you're motivated by love to begin with, but since you are an "empty and would be filled" type, it will be significantly harder unless you somehow experience an internal paradigm shift and are suddenly a "full and flows over" type.

So yeah. TL;DR:
If you want to do this the secular way: work up to getting the dog.
Or get-your-ass-to-Mass as they say and pray for a pittance of grace from God Himself to fix the problem at its root.

>>81922551
Are you from some hispanic country? This never happens here old women never ever try to to hook you up with their daughters or granddaughters.
>If you are over 23 then you probably won't ever meet an Ashbie because they tend to get married young or become total recluses after 21
Oh okay I guess that's it then.

>>81922635
I live in a smallish town in Australia so it's basically the third world. I have had extended family try to hook me up with cousins before. Sorry about your loss regarding age.

>>81922621
Ofc it bothers me at my age. I don't want to stay a virgin where did I wrote that?I just don't want anything to do with a prostitute. Empty fluid exchange is not what I am after.
>You should be made aware that love in any form is conditional and it is a tremendous burden on the part of the thing doing the loving
I know that and I know I can't force anyone to love me. I am simply asking why I never got a real chance for love
Again with the dog, it is not the same, you can't love a dog like you love another human and especially not like a woman. I am not against a dog by any means but it is simply not something I want. I can not talk with a dog, or do many things with one
>inb4 then get a friend
Again not the same as a gf.
And I already prayed to god enough and he did nothing.

>>81922668
It is okay I would be happy with any girl who would be okay with my autism.