Thread for discussions about self harm and mutual support

late edition x3

Hello ^^
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

Hello
Here's a bunch of helpful links

>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

>a first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

> wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

> bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>>81921177 (OP)
hiii cat!! hru? :D
>late edition x3
ah dw ^^

>>81921221
Hiiiya :3
I ate pizza and was on a bike ride today
How was your day?

>>81921177 (OP)
good evening, catbro! did you enjoy your ride?

>>81921221
hey meowster! how was your day?

>>81921284
>I ate pizza and was on a bike ride today
what kinda pizza? :0 also how was the ride?

>>81921292
>hey meowster! how was your day?
hiii! :3 ,woke up late so haven't done much, went for a ride earlier and it was nice :D I'll upload a pic in a few mins
what about you?

here it is :D the insects were annoying though lol

>>81921292
Hellou yuanon
>did you enjoy your ride?
ye :D
it wasn't super long but it was nice
also had pizza :3
how was your day??

>>81921322
>what kinda pizza? :0
just typical ham and cheese
my favorite
>also how was the ride?
pretty nice, it wasn't very long though but that's okay
Made some pics wanna see?
but unfortunately the nicest views have to appear when I'm going fas and comfortably after a tiring climd and I don't feel like stopping :/
>for a ride earlier and it was nice :D
o u too? that's nice :>
dod you yo alone or with someone
>I'll upload a pic
pls ^w^

hello frens in our computer
in our phone rn rather we're at work still so don't have any buns to post
got the ref sheet work for the avatar update done so gonna eat more diet meth once we're home and work on the actual model
you guys seem pretty neat so fugit may as well start namefagging

>>81921498
hello bunanon !
>we're at work still
hope it's going smooth and nice :]
>don't have any buns
unfortunate but we'll have to survive
>avatar update done
good work ^^
>gonna eat more diet meth
you have to take it every day?
>home and work on the actual model
when can you finnaly come home?
>you guys seem pretty neat so fugit may as well start namefagging
thanks for thinking that :>
one of us! :3

>>81921322
>woke up late so haven't done much, went for a ride earlier and it was nice :D
as long as you had a good time overall that's what matters.

>what about you?
worked out, got some groceries, went to work, made tacos as catbro suggested and now i'm doing some laundry. that's my day so far.

>>81921420
looks abolutely beautiful :0

>the insects were annoying though lol
can't live without them, but sometimes i wish we could. though what really would have killed me in that pic would probably have been the grasses. kinda allergic to those. ^^'

>>81921436
>ye :D it wasn't super long but it was nice
quality over quantity. glad you enjoyed yourself. :>

>also had pizza :3
could the day get any better? i made the tacos we talked about and they we're also pretty good.

>how was your day??
see above in my reply to meowster. just a very regular day after all.

>>81921498
hey bunanon!

>we're at work still so don't have any buns to post
best of luck at work. hope you'll be done with that and can go home soon.

>got the ref sheet work for the avatar update done so gonna eat more diet meth once we're home and work on the actual model
good job! will you show it off when you complete it?

>you guys seem pretty neat so fugit may as well start namefagging
thank you kindly. i'm sure you'll fit right it. :>

>>81921420
cool picture !
it's nice you got so many big lakes over there
I'll post too !

>>81921786
and dis :3

I'm not into self-harm, but I would like to have a cool scar in my arm, like if I stopped a knife attack with it.
Any advice?

>>81921177 (OP)
>How are you doing today?
stressed. I got a test tonight. My job took most of my time. I'm doing overtime every week now.
>Any plans for today?
Just studying now.
Did a job interview but the job would take even more time.
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Just the amount of work I'm doing. I'm trying to apply for the supervisor spot I didn't get in my last job. I don't know if I'll secede.
>>81921420
hi meowster
>pic rel
That's a really nice scenery.

>>81921723
henlo cat
>you have to take it every day?
nah just when we gotta have motivation to do things
>when can you finnaly come home?
about 20 min
>one of us! :3
it has begun
>>81921767
hallo yuanon
>good job! will you show it off when you complete it?
no cause we've got a bunch of friends in other generals and would rather not have them find out we're posting here since that would make them worry a lot
hell, the few people we've talked to about our bullshit keep asking us if we're doing okay like every other day and that's not ideal desu
really don't wanna drag people down with our bullshit
>thank you kindly. i'm sure you'll fit right it. :>
ty fren
>>81921860
assuming this isn't bait kys otherwise congrats on the (You)

>>81921767
>glad you enjoyed yourself.
thank you :>
>could the day get any better?
I don't tink so :D
>i made the tacos we talked about and they we're also pretty good.
o nice, you probably know I've never had tacos ever, are they crunchy?
>just a very regular day after all.
was the worl at least a little less stressful?
and best of luck with the laundry! don't mix up the colors!
oh and howbdid you sleep? any dreams?

>>81921860
Hello anon
>scar in my arm
I suggest not doing it, but if you really want to you could look if there are any scarification studious or something like that in your city?
they're like tattoo studios but instead if getting stabbed with a needle you get chucks cut out of you
They're pretty rare though
>stopped a knife attack
also not trying to be mean or anything but if you do it because you wanna impress people just wanna say that no one will ask what's the backstory of your scar, other than kids
so ig if you wanna impress kids them you can get it

>>81921947
>got a test tonight.
aaaa D:
bestest of luck!!!!
>doing overtime every week now.
why? you need more money?
>job would take even more time.
yeah ig it depends if you'd rather work of study

>>81922010
>just when we gotta have motivation to do things
I see, it's good it works
just don't overdo it :<
>about 20 min
so the end is in sight :D
hopefully it's not a long drive hoem
>has begun
hehe ^^

>>81921860
don't do it yourself. there's body modification artists who do scarification. stay safe.

>>81921947
hey cynic! how's it going?

>stressed. I got a test tonight. My job took most of my time.
i know it won't be easy, but i'm sure you can do it. i believe in you! (*^*)

>Just studying now.
best of luck!

>I'm trying to apply for the supervisor spot I didn't get in my last job. I don't know if I'll secede.
if you get it, you deserve it and if you don't, your employers are just plain stupid. :p

>>81922010
>no cause we've got a bunch of friends in other generals and would rather not have them find out we're posting here
that's a shame, but i totally get it.

>the few people we've talked to about our bullshit keep asking us if we're doing okay like every other day and that's not ideal desu
it's good you felt comfortable enough to open up to them and that they keep an eye on you, but i guess it can get a bit annoying. ^^'

>really don't wanna drag people down with our bullshit
that's commendable, but of we don't get this stuff out of our heads once in a while, it just get worse.

>>81922036
>I don't tink so :D
better not do anything else then, so it can't possibly get worse! just chill!

>you probably know I've never had tacos ever, are they crunchy?
i think you said so before. mine are not crunchy, though. i make the tortillas myself, so they're softshell tacos.

>was the worl at least a little less stressful?
a bit less stressfull, but the more i work the more tired i become, so it evens out. ^^'

>and best of luck with the laundry! don't mix up the colors!
thank you and don't you worry. today is only the white stuff, so no pesky colors involved. ^^

>oh and howbdid you sleep? any dreams?
i think i slept ok. little later than i would have liked, but i just had a bit too much caffeine again lately. i need to tone it down a bit. no dreams, though. you?

>>81922262
>better not do anything else then,
okay ! I'm in bed watching mario party
>mine are not crunchy,
it's okay if you like it that way
>make the tortillas myself
:0
it's good you bday present is getting some use
>but the more i work
eid you have to work more today?
>no pesky colors involved. ^^
phew
are you done with the laundry and can chill now?
>think i slept ok. little later than i would have liked
that's good, what matters it that u got enough sleep to get through the day
>no dreams, though. you?
yeah I got one though it was a little different

>>81922467
>I'm in bed watching mario party
best game to fall asleep to. i can barely stay awake when i play it. ^^

>it's okay if you like it that way
yeah. softshell is way better in my opinion.

>it's good you bday present is getting some use
at least i can quickly throw together some tortillas wheneve i want some.

>eid you have to work more today?
nah. rest of the week i do, though.

>are you done with the laundry and can chill now?
i can. just have to throw it in the dryer later.

>what matters it that u got enough sleep to get through the day
that i did. luckily with my current schedule i can sleep in most of the time. no alarm bothering me.

>I got one though it was a little different
why? what was it about?

>>81922111
nice trips
>just don't overdo it :<
dw we may be mentally ill but we're not retarded overusing that stuff can actually fuck you up bad
>hopefully it's not a long drive hoem
we're lucky enough to only be a 5 min drive from our job
once the move happens tho that's probably gonna change a bit
>>81922262
>it's good you felt comfortable enough to open up to them and that they keep an eye on you, but i guess it can get a bit annoying. ^^'
it's not necessarily annoying just doesn't feel great having people worry about you
especially if it's things that started super recently and perceptually kinda came out of nowhere. granted it certainly didn't come out of nowhere, the reason this all started happening is like super obvious but either way it feels like we're bringing our friends into something they didn't sign up for. super appreciate that they care about us and want to support us, but really wish there was a better alternative.
biggest worry is that they think we're suicidal which couldn't be further from the truth. hell, despite the many theories backed by award winning scientists about what actually happens when people die, one of the more prevalent ones being the idea that there's very likely a separation between the brain and consciousness, the idea being that the brain is an antennae and our actual selves is the electrical signals passing through our neurons, so whatever "we" are is not only being pulled from somewhere else but also technically can't be destroyed since energy can only be converted into another form, the concept of death is literally the scariest thing possible for us. unfortunately considering what we've been doing it's doubtful that anyone would believe us in that regard
>that's commendable, but of we don't get this stuff out of our heads once in a while, it just get worse.
fair, but unfortunately part of what we're dealing with makes us constantly wanna get worse so either way it would make our brain happy in a way

I'll go sleep goodnight ^^

>>81922709
>barely stay awake when i play it. ^^
hehe ^^
well they guys I'm watching are pretty fun though
>softshell is way better
interesting interesting
personally I think I'd like that crunch
>rest of the week i do, though
what!!!! :0
why?
>can sleep in most of the time. no alarm bothering
at least that
>what was it about?
It's a bit embarassing but in the dream I was at a store of some sort and saw some girl having some trouble with a vegetable scale so I helped and she grabbed me hand and she kisesed me and we hugged
kinda wierd because I've never had a dream about kissing before

>>81922779
>nice trips
oh thank you
>overusing that stuff can actually fuck you up bad
it's good you know that
I just wouldn't for someone to just thik more pills=more motivation, but ur smart
>be a 5 min drive from our job
that's nice
you probably could even walk there on nice days
>move happens tho that's probably gonna change a bit
but at least other things might change for the better

i had a super bad day today and i was thinking seriously about suicide but i crashed out and woke up hours later but still felt shitty but i feel better now because i cut. im starting on SSRIs tomorrow and i dont know what to expect i dont think theyll do anything to stop me cutting or feeling this way and i havent eaten anything in 3 days and i dont care i dont wanna eat

>>81922779
>just doesn't feel great having people worry about you
that's true.

>it feels like we're bringing our friends into something they didn't sign up for.
i wish one of my friends would be as reasonable as you are. i think it's fine to tell your friends if you're unwell, but basically all he does sometimes is talking about his issues. after all those years it can be hard to still care about it all equally.

>there was a better alternative.
well, for me the alternative is this thread. at least i have a place i can share the mind worms that are burrowing their ways through my brain.

>biggest worry is that they think we're suicidal which couldn't be further from the truth.
good to know that you aren't. have you told them?

>the concept of death is literally the scariest thing possible for us.
i can understand that, but i think i've stopped worrying about it. whatever happens or doesn't happen after death is so completely out of my control that it's nothing i need to concern myself with.

>part of what we're dealing with makes us constantly wanna get worse so either way it would make our brain happy in a way
our brains truly are the most fucked up junkies we'll ever have the misfortune to meet.

>>81923032
>I'll go sleep goodnight ^^
good night!

>well they guys I'm watching are pretty fun though
as good a reason to watch them as any other.

>personally I think I'd like that crunch
can make it very hard to eat, though. a bite or two will usually shatter the rest of the taco.

>what!!!! :0 why?
cause i have to go to work? ^^

>at least that
it's a luxury.

>kinda wierd because I've never had a dream about kissing before
that really is a weird one. any clue why you might have dreamed it?

>>81923437
hey anon!

sorry to hear your day has been that bad. glad you fell asleep and didn't have deal with those thoughts for a bit, though.

>i dont know what to expect i dont think theyll do anything to stop me cutting or feeling this way
probably best to not expect anything and just observe what happens. maybe you'll be lucky and it will help, after all.

>i havent eaten anything in 3 days and i dont care i dont wanna eat
hm. fasting can actually help in certain cases, but that depends a lot on your current situation. if you're just not hungry, it's ok not to eat. do tell your doctors about it before taking any meds, though.

i'll be heading to bed now. good night, everyone!

>>81921177 (OP)

>How are you doing today?
tired and suddenly feeling worse than yesterday

>Any plans for today?
nothing much other than cutting some more

>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
around friday ??!?! i am planning to do more tonight ^^

>Why did you hurt yourself?
stress of a friend group and having my feeling feel invalidated despite them saying they weren't trying to do so and feeling shameful for even caring about things.

>Is there anything bothering you right now?
People are acting as if I don't exist or didn't exist since I'm taking a break from social media !!! also how I'm going to hide my cuts so I'm going to start cutting my thighs since I work and wear short sleeves !! its too hot to cover up with a jacket :((((

Holy fuck I used the full 2 and half hours.
Half the questions were written response.
I have to drop this course if I didn't do well.
>>81922262
hi yu
>best of luck!
thankyou
>your employers are just plain stupid
yeah, probably
>>81923543
goodnight yu
>>81922111
hi cat, how's the night going?
>why? you need more money?
No they just keep scheduling me for it.
I also agreed to cover for a guy today.
>yeah ig it depends if you'd rather work of study
honestly, I rather work but at a place I care about.

for some reason I feel so bleh. I just wanna sleep/do nothing. I did some family thing today and that definitely was super draining and sad so definitely was that but still just exhausting. but yea love you

I've been feeling awful today. Drank so much yesterday and for this entire day I've been gagging.