Thread 81932302

Thread for discussions about self harm and mutual support

chilling inside edition

Hello
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

Hello
Here's a bunch of helpful links

>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

>a first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

>a bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>>81932302 (OP)
This is my daily routine whenever /cat/ posts a thread.

https://voca.ro/144nO7oNJ4yV

i can't imagine tripfagging and constantly posting about cutting yourself on 4chan of all places to get recognition.
i'd rather jump off a bridge than ever associate with scum of the earth like you.
every time i see your threads it reminds me of the abhorrent existences some people will resign themselves too, and i feel immense pity and disgust for you.
>inb4 you reply, i've hidden your gay thread.

>>81932703
hello femboyanon
how are you doing today?

>>81932302 (OP)
hello cat!! :D hru? how was your day?

>>81932703
oh gosh, femboyanon spotted??

>>81933122
Hellloo!! :3
>hru? how was your day?
I'm doing alright
I spent today just chilling out, didn't go anywhere
oh and I got some clothes I ordered
I'll probably game some roblox now
How are u doing today??

>>81933122
>pic
actually crazy/depressing how real ai images look

>>81932302 (OP)
>chilling inside edition
i should switch on the fan, but that would mean i had to get up from the couch...

>Hello
hi catbro! how's it going?

>>81932703
hey, dude! what's up?

>>81932720
>i've hidden your gay thread.
good job. only smart thing to do with threads you don't like.

>>81933122
hi meowster! getting ready for our routine now. brb.

for some reason i feel so self conscious today. i feel like everyone hates me and I'm not good enough for anyone

>>81933694
i feel like that very often myself. don't forget it's just an episode that will be over eventually. if there's anything you can do to distract yourself, maybe do that. if not, hiding under a blanket for a bit is always an option. oh, nearly forgot because it's obvious: we don't hate you and we're glad you're here. :>

>>81933775
I just know the feelings will come back, so feels like no reason to try to distract or do anything. I'm really just a loser. and thanks

>>81933237
Heyoo yuanon!
how are you doing?
>would mean i had to get up from the couch...
oaghh that terrifying I can't even ponder that D:
>how's it going?
just chilling playin roblox

>>81923554
hey vuss! sorry for the late reply.

>tired and suddenly feeling worse than yesterday
hope your better today.

>nothing much other than cutting some more
did you patch yourself up afterwards?

>stress of a friend group and having my feeling feel invalidated despite them saying they weren't trying to do so and feeling shameful for even caring about things.
you have a lot going on there, haven't you? what happened to make you feel that way? and don't worry. we all get like that sometimes.

>People are acting as if I don't exist or didn't exist since I'm taking a break from social media !!!
that sucks, but i guess that's what you can expect from people on social media. :/ how long was that break? did it help you feel better?

>its too hot to cover up with a jacket :((((
maybe you could wear some long-sleeved shirt made out of breathier materials, like linen or hemp? i had a very nice shirt made of a mixture of hemp and cotton that i could wear when it gets hot.

>>81933932
>I just know the feelings will come back
yeah, seems like there's no turning that off completely, but it can get better over time. like the episodes getting shorter and less frequent.

>so feels like no reason to try to distract or do anything.
that's completely fine. i can't do anything either when i get like that. just try to calm down, relax and don't bother with anything today.

>I'm really just a loser.
same, but i've made my peace with that. not everyone needs to be an overachiever to try to be a positive influence in people's lives.

>and thanks
anytime, fren. :>

>>81933942
>how are you doing?
i'm good. just did my stretches and now i'm watching some guys play peak. that game looks fun.

>I can't even ponder that D:
luckily i had tk get up for the stretches, so i just combined stretching with turning on the fan. i'm so smart i scare myself. ;D

>chilling playin roblox
found anything nice?

>>81932763
>how are you doing today?
Improving. I'm going to the gym and practicing positive thinking.
>>81933122
>that pic
That's you and /cat/. Hru btw?
>>81933237
>hey, dude! what's up?
Nothing. Just pushing throught it all despite being numb. A while ago I halved my daily dosage of antidepressants in half. My libido has come back but my mood is worse. At least I'm motivated to do stuff now.
>hi meowster! getting ready for our routine now. brb
>pic
>My reaction.

>>81932302 (OP)
>>How are you doing today?
Taking it easy.
>>Any plans for today?
I was going to another interview but I decided to reschedule.
Now I'm just doing homework and reading absolute batman.
>>Is there anything bothering you right now?
I took a physics test last night and it hasn't been graded yet. The deadline to drop the course is tonight. I feel like I'm on a hope and a prayer.
>>81932703
I don't know what that's from but it was funny.
>>81933694
hi anon
> i feel like everyone hates me and I'm not good enough for anyone
I know you mean people in general but I don't hate you. I think you just need to hear that sometimes.
>>81934222
hi yu
>i'm good. just did my stretches
what kind of streching routine you got going now?
>>81933203
hi cat
How do you always, at least pretend, to keep your head up here?

>>81934222
>good. just did my stretches
good job !! d(-w-)
>some guys play peak.
oo who you watching?
> that game looks fun.
it really does !
>combined stretching with turning on the fan
WHAT?! that was though to be impossible!
>found anything nice?
just played blood and iron
and now im in bed :3
thinking about what to watch

>>81934460
>Improving.
ooo :0
>I'm going to the gym and practicing positive thinking.
that's cool
hope it all pays off
Why did you decide to do that?

>>81934460
>Just pushing throught it all despite being numb.
not the best situation, but at least there's some progress. rooting for you! (*^*)9

>I halved my daily dosage of antidepressants
yeah, when i read that one of the side effects of my antidepressants was "death", i decided for myself that there must be another way to deal with depression. i had a vitamin screening done and it showed that my b12 and d3 storages were depleted. that gave me the push to finally do something about my bad diets, habits and addictions. it's not perfect, but i'm doing way better than a decade ago now.

>My libido has come back but my mood is worse. At least I'm motivated to do stuff now.
i hope you'll continue to improve. it can take a long time, but you can claw your way back.

>pic
>My reaction.
honestly, no clue who that is or what the reaction is supposed to be. ^^' gator, meowster and i are doing some beginner mobility routines about 3 times a week. it's nice and (for the most part) relaxing.

>>81934670
>Taking it easy.
well deserved.

>I was going to another interview but I decided to reschedule.
i think that's ok. you've been quite busy lately.

>I'm just doing homework and reading absolute batman.
sounds chill. how is it? it's been a while since i bothered reading any comics.

>I took a physics test last night and it hasn't been graded yet. The deadline to drop the course is tonight. I feel like I'm on a hope and a prayer
hope it worked out for you. fingers crossed.

>what kind of streching routine you got going now?
we're doing tom merrick's 5 beginner flexibility routines and his "stuck at your desk" one. every monday, wednesday and friday we're doing one of those and then start over. that's about it. do you have one?

>>81934222
I don't knownl. u did take a nap to try to feel better, kinda just feel worse to be honest. i just want to do something with my life

>>81932703
https://voca.ro/1mBRRCGFCumI

>>81934710
>good job !! d(-w-)
thank you kindly. :>

>who you watching?
just my usual guy from bonjwa and he's playing with other german streamers (h0llylp, smashlunatic and kdrkitten). i thinks it's funny, but you kinda just have to take my word for it. ^^'

>WHAT?! that was though to be impossible!
seems like by our powers combined we can work up the motivation of one well adjusted individual :0

>just played blood and iron and now im in bed :3 thinking about what to watch
sounds like the night is progressing well. found anything interesting yet?

btw, i had a dream. kinda odd, to be honest. not as odd your lasr dream, but still... so there was this hand sized bug in my room. it was sentient and able to communicate that it needed to be brought to a certain place where it could live by drawing a map of that place on the wall. we went out and it stayed on me while we travelled like pet rats do. sometimes in my hood, sometimes up my sleeve. that's about what i remember.

>>81935051
sorry to hear that. naps only work for me when i'm sick, i feel. maybe take a shower?

>i just want to do something with my life
makes sense to me and i hope that you'll manage at some point, but you have to work on that in the times when you feel better. fighting even harder during the times you feel down could drain and burn you out even harder if you're not careful. i don't want to demotivate you, but you need to pick and choose the battles you can win.

>>81935123
https://voca.ro/1gb7vV6MlXBX

>>81935159
i already took one shower today. and yea i know i need to work on doing something and stop being so lazy and useless. i always try to do something but i just never do nearly enough

>>81934670
Hey
>Taking it easy.
very good!!
>another interview
you go to so many of those
> homework
hope it doesn't take long to finish
>to drop the course is tonight.
what happens if you drop it?
>always, at least pretend, to keep your head up here?
I'm not sure my heads always up I do sometimes feel sad or angry but in a wierd way like the negativity, what I dislike though if feeling stressed but when I'm very stressed I just don't post much like when I have exams or something
I also like talking to you guys and I don't wanna bring your moods down

>>81935159
>thank you kindly. :>
oh u deserve it !
>thinks it's funny, but you kinda just have to take my word for it. ^^'
hm idk maybe I'll have to write a research paper about it to prove it
>seems like by our powers combined
it's the fabled power of friendship ! :00
>found anything interesting yet?
just some old hitman 3 vod
it's okay, I had a movie in mind I wanted to watch but I forgor what it was
>that's about what i remember.
strange but drams do that
though I often have dreams about stuff i think aboutbor do, have you been dealing with any bugs recently?

>>81935237
>i already took one shower today.
hm. ok. no need for a second emotional-support shower, i suppose.

>i know i need to work on doing something and stop being so lazy and useless.
i don't think you're lazy or useless at all. maybe depressed and burned out.

>i just never do nearly enough
sounds like you're very hard on yourself there.

>>81935272
>oh u deserve it !
you now what? yes. yes, i do. :>

>maybe I'll have to write a research paper about it to prove it
we'll you'd have to learn german for that first and then unearth the vod for that. i guess you'd be like an internet-archaeologist at that point. ^^

>it's the fabled power of friendship ! :00
word. i couldn't have done it without you guys.

>just some old hitman 3 vod
good enough. i never had the patience for those games. at some point i always decided that i've sneaked around enough and let the guns talk. i don't think i ever finished a single mission. ^^'

>I had a movie in mind I wanted to watch but I forgor what it was
hm. was it a certain genre? was it animated? did you want to watch it for the plot or maybe the practical effects?

>have you been dealing with any bugs recently?
i watched some vids about pet lizards. maybe the lizards got turned into a bug somehow?

>>81935561
>yes. yes, i do. :>
^^
>around enough and let the guns talk
that's what hes doing heh
>was it a certain genre? was it
no idea
maybe I'll remember tomorrow
>watched some vids about pet lizards.
and we talked about geckos so maybe that's that

anyway I'll be goin to sleep
goodnight!!

>>81935944
>anyway I'll be goin to sleep
goodnight!!
i think i'll do the same. good night.

>>81935272
>what happens if you drop it?
not much. just take it again in the fall I guess.
> I also like talking to you guys and I don't wanna bring your moods down
that's fair. it's nice just talking to people sometimes.
>>81934953
>do you have one?
I was trying to do one stretch day on Saturdays. But with working weekends, I've dropped it for the time being.
>tom merrick's 5 beginner flexibility routines and his "stuck at your desk" one.
maybe I should start doing that on days like this. wednsday is a cardio day for me already. I could do stretches in the afternoon while doing homework.
>it's been a while since i bothered reading any comics.
This one's actually good. It's a batman built like a brick. pic rel. But it's an interesting take too. He has no money. His rouges gallery are his childhood friends. And he's doing underground detective work. But that bat logo/axe does not look like a bat.