>got a job
>got my own apartment
>started hitting da gym
>started playing piano
>made acquaintances with normies at the gym and work
>been chasing a whore for a while
>feel even WORSE
explain this to me you filthy kike nigger faggots. What do I even do at this point? WHAT is broken?

IKTF. Sadly, there is no avoiding or curing some depression. Some of us, it's stuck in our souls.
I thought wage-cucking would help me. It actually made me worse. Turned out I could not deal with people, which traps me as a perma-NEET now. I'd like to think I'd feel better if I actually got some regular sex, but that would just be another worry. Unless it was just sex, she'd definitely leave me, as I am a shut=in.

>>81944497 (OP)
Reality is fundamentally broken. Existence is pain.
The more you mire yourself in worldly affairs, the worse it gets. The more you try to understand and interact with it, the harder you'll feel it.
As if pressing your chest against a grindstone, first it will peel away your skin, then it will gore your flesh, then it will pulverize your bone, then you'll just experience pure pain signals as your nervous system breaks down before you are completely erased.
The only relief is to hide from reality as much as you can.

>>81944497 (OP)
>>feel even WORSE
doing (thing) wont solve your life or fix things, it's meaningless and useless, what is the problem is your mental state
you are most likely stressed, ruminating something, anxiety due to life style factors
there is literally nothing more to it than that
humans are an anomaly, we were supposed to be like animals, just live in the moment, now you got brain, and it can analyze things and worry about things in the past and future, it's a literal nightmare
only once you live in the present only and don't care will you be happy, easier said than done
no life style fixes is gonna fix your mental state, it's all memes
you have to will it mentally