Thread 81944668

Any other loser here that used to cope with "at least I'm intelligent" but eventually realized they're actually unironically retarded? The cope is probably pretty common since the mind is the one thing you always have with you irrespective of your achievements. Honestly, it was only after hitting rock bottom that I started seriously questioning if I might actually be stupid. I think when I was still part of the "rat race" I was unconsciously protecting my ego so I could still have a drive to compete but that's just my best guess. I'm aware intelligence is multi-faceted, but if you never consistently succeed at things there's really just so many excuses you can give until you should acknowledge you might just not be mentally equipped enough for life. If you're good at doing a single intellectual task but so bad at the rest it's a detriment to your life, then calling yourself intelligent is like calling a pile of shit with a diamond in it a pile of diamonds. "I didn't have the tools I needed", "I wasn't really trying", etc. There's only so many times you can say that before you should start reconsidering if you even have what it takes to begin with. There's lots of people here clamoring to their supposed IQ scores but I have a hard time believing most of them aren't also retarded, not to mention how dubious IQ testing as a concept even is. Sure, there might be a few ones that really are intelligent, but it takes a lot of cracks to fall down to end up a poster here in regards to your ability to function. Most people get defensive if you question their intelligence, but I think they should consider how liberating it is to accept being retarded because there's nothing to prove anymore after that, you're free.

>>81944668 (OP)
>I think they should consider how liberating it is to accept being retarded because there's nothing to prove anymore after that, you're free
Why do you think 4chan has 140 IQ posters who post shit like "fuggg :DDD" ?

>>81944700
Because they aren't actually 140 IQ, or at least what that's supposed to say about your cognitive abilities.

>>81944717
I disagree. The ability to make sharp observations with humor and rhythm changes societies. It's philosopher-king level shit.

>>81944744
Most anons aren't really that creative though, it's a few ones that others start aping.

>>81944761
I've noticed this! Being copied makes me feel seen and appreciated.

>Any other loser here that used to cope with "at least I'm intelligent" but eventually realized they're actually unironically retarded?
no, im actually literally intelligent.

The actual intelligent people like myself generally don't use this board because the men here are a bunch of armchair psychologists thinking they can somehow outsmart the blackpill if they watch enough Andrew Tate videos, and the womyn are either obviously larping trannies or mentally ill attention whoring fatherless brownoids.

>>81944970
What makes you think you're intelligent?

>>81944985
I'm in mensa for one.
And other reasons that would dox me if I talked about it

>>81944668 (OP)
i had the complete opposite, used to think i was dumb as bricks due to ADHD and once my self hatred got bad to the point i finally had motivation to change myself for the better I realized I was very smart if I actually applied myself into academics

>>81945065
The mensa one doesn't sound that reliable, but what about the other reasons? Could you make them vague?

>>81945078
Did this make you better succeeding at things?

>>81944668 (OP)
Not really relatable. I've always been a very fast learner and had interests in more intellectual oriented fields since I was like 14.

Even still, my IQ isn't enough to offset all the mental issues I have. Oh, and I want to kill myself when I interact with 140+ IQ people.

>>81945155
yeah i scored in the 0,5% percentile in my country and got a medschool scholarship

>>81945276
What age did you start changing?

>>81944668 (OP)
i used to feel like i was very intelligent, I used to be the best in chemistry,maths and physics in hs, but like at age 17 i started huffing paint thinner and drinking in the hope that i will get stupid because stupid people have big dicks and having a big dick is a chad thing. I was being really ironic.
Idk, failed a class in high school, huffing paint thinner and doing drugs. But something changed after I failed grade 12, i started living like a total ascetic, literally only eating bread, cooked oatmeal and water, doing sports and studying all the time.
And then i aced my MsC in physics and after that I neeted as a webdev working 10h/week, barely coming by, constantly going to parties and nightclubs, stealing drinks, climbing fences in an attempt to hook up with women, approaching them on the street.
I didnt get laid until 25 ( after i finished my MsC), it is why i consider myself unsuitable for usual human life tasks.
All in all, I am just retarded, the effort it took me to change myself to be able to hook up with women was astronomical. These days i am just a mundane c++ programmer

>>81945288
i was 20 and neet for 2 years, technically 4 if you count covid

>>81945310
What age are you now?

>>81944668 (OP)
I was on the intelligence cope for a long time. I eventually came to terms with the reality that I'm actually below average intelligence. The ironic thing is that if you're smart, it actually makes being a loser worse because you don't have any excuse for it. If you're a loser who is just some idiot doing the best they can, you at least have a reason for it.

>>81945329
now i'm 28. Living in pain and regret.

>>81945338
you can be smart and severely autistic or with some other disorder like adhd. being smart and having adhd is like having erectile dysfunction with a 9 inch cock

>>81945338
>The ironic thing is that if you're smart, it actually makes being a loser worse because you don't have any excuse for it
I'm conflicted about this, while I understand there are people with circumstances so bad their intelligence isn't enough to save them, in most cases I honestly struggle to see the difference between that and actually being stupid. Executive functioning is part of what makes someone intelligent, the idea that there's "hidden potential" that's just never being used seems like a cope to me. How can it be called "high potential" if the person needs extremely good conditions to use it?

>>81945065
Yh right why would someone that smart post here? Go on /sci/ you nerd

>>81945241
>Oh, and I want to kill myself when I interact with 140+ IQ people.
Hellooooooo :)

>>81944668 (OP)
according to IQ score i'm intelligent but not genius-tier (between 130 - 144). it still takes effort for me to succeed academically, which i'm too lazy for. i'm average at memorization/learning. i'm a good programmer but that's about it, not even good with math or science.
i always had a fucking weird brain. while the other kids were playing outside i would just be moving a sliding door back and forth the whole time, or other repetitive behaviors like that. that put me permanently behind in social development.