>>81950646sending out a hug for you, entertain yourself with something else
listen to some asmr, read a book/manga, play a nice game, debate with your inner self, watch some garbage on jewtube, i dunno
i don't think stressing yourself over the fuckery here will do you much good
>water jugnot a bad idea, keep it up
look into core exercises as well (sit ups, plank, etc.) since a lot of those can be done without weights