i love suicide
no matter how bad things get i know i will always have suicide

>>81952558 (OP)
Steppenwolf. Herman and his razor.

>>81952558 (OP)
i tried dying once, shoved a gun into my mouth and shot it. went black and then woke up in the morning like i hadnt done it. the gun was on the floor tho, so i mustve tried something. im kind of spooked about it, what if suicide isnt possible?

>>81954050
Was there a shell casing ejected or were you using a Sig P365?

>>81954183
nothing was ejected, it didnt seem like it fired. i didnt get a good look at it tho, i panicked and put it back with my dads things, since i did it when i was a teen and didnt have access to my own firearm. he never noticed anything wrong so maybe it was some sort of dream. still creeps me out though

>>81952558 (OP)
yeah same
but I worry I won't be able to do it when it's time
I'll try to regularly hang myself for a few seconds at a time to get used to it

>>81952558 (OP)
This mindset comforted me for a long time and I wrote suicides to cope.
It worked until I suffered severely from anxiety disorder, thought I would have to kill myself because I was so scared, but it didn't comfort me.

all i can think about these days is killing myself

>>81954322
Too bad it wasn't a P320 instead, it would have gone off when you dropped it. Or at any point while you were just holding it in your mouth. Not that I want you to die, just for your own sake.

>>81952558 (OP)
>always
not necessarily, well maybe in your case but it depends on where you live
a lot of the debate over assisted suicide (in non-Canada countries) is about people so disabled they can't take their own lives and yet hospitals keep them alive against their will