Thread 81955775

Sick of loneliness edition

I'm gonna be 30 in less than a year and I hate it I don't wanna turn 30 noooooooooo I'm fucking killing myself

lvl 36 wizard here

Most of the things I do, I do for escapism.
I think that I only get actual joy from reading and writing, and I'm not sure of that.

>>81955969
well it doesn't have to be that deep

I just turned 40.
Haven't had sex in around 10 years now.
Only had one real gf in my life and that relationship only lasted a year.
The loneliness, social isolation, and depression is actually causing me brainrot now; my short term memory is suddenly terrible and I have crazy brainfog if I don't sleep well now.
I just want someone to love me and touch me again.
I don't want to die alone.

>>81956115
Are you male? Pretty sure you just have to tough it out

>>81956131
I am male, yes. What do you mean by tough it out? Just except loneliness for the rest of my life or hold on to hope ?

>>81956160
use your brain, what kinds of guys in your life are dating at the moment?

>>81956168
I have no guys in my life. I haven't had guy friends since highschool.

>>81956187
you look like you need to unplug mate

>>81955775 (OP)
32 now haven't had sex since I was 15 (was only once) haven't had a girlfriend since then either. I kinda just gave up after realizing it's all bullshit. I'm alone but not lonely. Just another asocial schizoid waiting for death's embrace.

>>81956115
I've had the same problem for a while, too. I manage to socialize a little bit, but it's tough to do more than that coz everyone is "too busy" to do anything unless they feel like they can somehow profit from you. Everything is transactional now, it's shit

Oi guys, OP in this thread >>81956353 is answering all the questions you have on how to get the girl. It works 100% foolproof. Don't miss out.

Do... Do the older people on this board like talking to youngns?

>>81956405
I don't, I already feel dettached enough from people my age.
Usually I don't have anything in common with younger people.

>>81956405
everyone online is 12 years old until proven otherwise.

Wasted six days on a Hinge match. A teacher in her 50s with big tits. Started promising, then she went silent. Finally blocked her this morning. Now matched with a chunky big-titted woman in her mid 40s, who's been out of town. Naturally, she hasn't bothered to respond in more than 24 hours.
Other than escorts, years ago,, I have been incel all my life, and I turn 40 next year. Every few weeks I cruise Grindr and blowjob sites, and I can't even get a feminine one to orally service me. All the masc bottoms want me, naturally. It's deeply depressing that I even have to consider going fag to get a willing mouth to go down on me. I'd literally fuck old women if they actually wanted me, yet even they don't.

I'm feeling threatened by the teen who attacked me last year. I guess there's nothing to do. One of them apologized but this other piece of shit seems to think he was in the right still. It makes me so mad.

Also, In tribute to St. Elliot, I caused two foids move tables at the bar today because they skeeved me. Yes, even the fatty.

>32 in a few weeks
>no real savings, shitty job
>in debt (but working on it)
>no real close friends
>directionless
feels good

>>81955775 (OP)
i turn 30 on tuesday, am i allowed in?

>>81958901
sure why not im not a legislator

>>81955783
be happy you're turning 30. I'm 27 and got diagnosed with a brain tumor last month

> 31
> no job, no gf

atleast the house i live it's mine.

No woman wants to be around me, i'm seriously thinking about using a shotgun and blow my head.

>>81959495
damn, can anything be done about it?

>>81960772
still waiting on biopsy results (40 days!). I don't know if it's cancer or not but after waiting so long, I can't imagine it's cancer, they should know by now unless it's something benign. still, having to face this really makes you appreciate your life

need to get off this board desu
does nothing but make you self pity and half the threads are just mind poison

lads it's actually over for me
i have a rash/chaffing right arse cheek that means it hurts to stand up or sit down
just lying on my side like a beached whale

>>81956405
I enjoy talking to people of all different ages and backgrounds, gives me perspective and I learn a lot
>>81960815
Man that sucks, I hope it comes back as benign or operable. I've had a few brushes with death but I can't imagine what it's like to be waiting on news like that. Do you just keep living on like before or do you go nuts trying to do everything on the bucket list?

>>81961101
put some bandaid on that shit or something

looks like we're gonna get a medical problems 30+ rather than a successcunt 30+

>>81960248
use a fan instead its better

>>81961101
fukken chafearse syndrome, lost so many to that

>>81961102
>Do you just keep living on like before or do you go nuts trying to do everything on the bucket list?
Yes and no. I've already had a first operation to the brain. I had an associated cyst that was making me go blind due to mass pressure. They played around in my brain and emptied it which fixed my eyesight but it feels like I've had a lobotomy and I feel like a zombie half of the day. My psych floated the idea that I'm having a depersonalization episode in reaction to the sudden shock/trauma. I need to look into this.

I'm not doing anything crazy, as in my mind, it's admitting I'm going to die. It did change my perspective on life, though. Before, I was very depressed and suicidal. Going through this, I realized I'm not ready to go yet so it pretty much cured my depression over night. I enjoy everything that I do now. Life has a new color.

>>81955775 (OP)
I think about if my life had gone differently. If I had children and a wife. It would be ridiculous and depressing. It would be a loveless marriage with ugly autistic children. To rot alone is the noblest endeavour a wastrel fool like me could embark upon. Let earthquakes and tsunamis, and lightning strikes, and all that the earth raise up to destroy mediocre lives prosper and proliferate. I curse all of you. If there be mystical forces in the world beyond the hard reality of fluttering lungs and effeminate dances, let them damn you all the faster. Fuck you.