Thread 81959848

My father will die from cancer.
I have no other reason to live for.
Thats all I have to say.

I wonder how hard is it to get a 12gaQt in a third world country, without first getting mugged and stabbed into a painful and agonizing death. Ideas for a self-checkout device?

I also have benzos and some opiates, but from what I read its a long fucking agonizing death. First vomiting, then perpetual seizures, and who knows what else.

>>81959848 (OP)
I wish you could know how fucked up my life is just to feel better about yourself and not do anything stupid

>>81959848 (OP)
just think or bump

do they sell 12gaQTs on Grindr??? Never tried that avenue but I know some people who get different exotic items in that app

>>81959848 (OP)
Is he leaving you any cash? Do you have a passport?

>>81959848 (OP)
I once read about a method where you make a small room completely airtight, light a charcoal fire next to you and take some sleeping pills. The air gets used up and you suffocate painlessly in your sleep. I think you should be able to decide when you want to die and I dont know your circumstances but trust me, killing yourself is not the correct choice. You can always start over and in a few years you will probably thank yourself you decided to continue living

>>81960397
Big chunks of sleeping pills I bet. I tried zopiclone, zolpidem and they never worked. I wonder what could make me fall asleep. Either booze + flexeril or something like that.

I just wonder how hard getting a 12gaQT it is... That must be the fastest way I could think of.

>>81959848 (OP)
My father is gonna die from cancer too but idc care that much. I really just want to die too, I have absolutely nothing to live for, every day I'm just so tired.

>>81960999
i meant idc not idc care, I'm retarded

>>81960999
To me my father is the only person I love in this world. I dont really give much of a fuck about anybody else. I dont want nothing else but my father by my side. I thought I was going to grow up to take care of him, love him, give him a nice retirement and take him out to places.
Once he dies I wont have any other reason left to live. People say "you just move on", but I dont want to. All I want is my father and I planned my entire life and the things I ve done all around him. This is all I got

>>81959848 (OP)
Helium, inhale and you won't feel anything. I got kinda scared when I learnt how easy it is to do it using it because the thought of me doing it occurred to me.

I hope you don't though. Think of all the people you hate, the people who led this world to its current state, don't let them win, live and make them reap what they sowed. Godspeed anon.

>>81959848 (OP)
Killing yourself after you dad dies will be a huge fuck you to him and everything he did for you

Dont' do it anon. We eventually all die anyway. Try to make a good life for yourself

>>81961174
it sounds like you are a good son and you have a loving father. you dont need to move on, but killing yourself is not the solution. I am not a father, but I would be devastated if I heard my son wants to kill himself after I die. by killing youself you kill part of him too, what he raised and what he worked for his whole life. respect what he accomplished by continuing to live and nurturing what he gave his life for