>>81965707 (OP)I've always found humans to be ugly things. Cartoon porn is just my coping mechanism.
The women's movements don't want me sexualizing them either. So when I don't want them, they find it offensive. Men get offended when they're trashy enough to ask my opinion on a "hot girl" and I give them the blunt truth that they're okay-looking. Not into men either. I just don't care. I don't like how it feels dehumanizing to sexualize people. That's why fantasy will surpass reality for me every time.
Sometimes it feels like the porn is the only thing helping me retain my humanity at times. Like if I stopped caring about it I'd just completely lose interest in anything related to sex.
I think my twisted heart would have collapsed if I didn't have a wall of pornography in front of me. If I had to look at people without the concept ever entering my head, I think I would have gone (more) mad ages ago and done something regrettable.
I'm an utterly socially-severed person, I don't think the porn does anything harmful to me that wasn't already done by other people in my childhood. Not sex or outright abuse. Just misery.