abandonment issues really suck :((((

literally me fr ong

>>81973102
were you also afraid of you mom abandoning you forever when you were a kid? :(

>>81973072 (OP)
>>81973102
You two should look into lifestyle slave stuff. If someone owns you they won't throw you away

>>81973112
but the won't love me either :(

>>81973072 (OP)
so does gaslighting and abuse

>>81973148
i would prefer to be abused than being abandoned honestly

>>81973135
You can make them love you by being obedient and useful anoni

>>81973168
that would make me a better slave!

>>81973180
And the best slaves get the most love!

just thinking about everything... everything... everything and why it couldn't stop me from becoming a nothing to you.

just... thinking...

>>81973193
>>81973180
Don't listen to this pervert anon
Love isn't conditional on usefulness

>>81973227
Of course it is, why are you trying to keep anon alone for his entire life? You must be a sadist just trying to hurt the poor guy. Shame on you.

>>81973223
what happened anon? do you want to talk about it?
>>81973193
:D
>>81973227
from my experience love is very conditional and also i apparently don't deserve it because no one has ever loved me not even my parents

>>81973255
>:D
You haven't earned the right to smile yet anoni. You need to polish my shoes first and I swear to god if there's even a single splotch on them when you're done you're getting the belt. And if you do a good job I'll give you a headpat and let you smile for 5 minutes.

>>81973285
sorry >_< it's ok i don't need to smile it's not necessary! i'll polish your shoes please don't hit me :(

>>81973072 (OP)
i will never forgive the people that made me into the paranoid person that i am. god its so fucking awful to be terrified of being left alone. ALL the time

>>81973111
afraid? they did! who tosses their own flesh and blood out at the age of 15?

>>81973072 (OP)
I wish I had a fear of abandonment instead of a fear of rejection that prevents me from even trying to form relationships with other people in the first place.

>>81973294
You're lucky you're cute, I'll overlook you trying to tell me what to do. Just keep being useful and we can stay together for a long time anoni. Just you and me. Forever and ever. unless you mess it up

>>81973303
who made you like this? my mom made me like this!
>>81973310
i'm so sorry anon! my parents didnt kick me out of the house but they never gave me any real love and the rare instance they did it felt conditional and mom would always leave on the weekends and i was always afraid she was never coming back.
>>81973325
im sure fear of rejection is just as bad if not worse than abandonment issues i'm so sorry fren :(
>>81973326
y-yes master can i call you master?

>>81973255
No, love isn't conditional.
I'm sorry you weren't loved by your parents, usually that's where people get their internal sense of self-worth to some extent in early childhood.
I'm sorry you've never been loved before. It's not your fault, it's not like you did the wrong things to end up unloved. Love isn't something you can earn, so you should stop trying to earn it from others. It's something that is given or that is not given. You could do the greatest things for someone but they can still not give you their love, and you might do nothing and someone nonetheless gives you their love.
But you can also give your love, maybe. I'm not sure you know how to love, if no one has ever loved you before. Love is also something you learn by example, I think. I hope someone loves you, so you can learn to give your love to yourself.

>>81973358
>y-yes master can i call you master?
The only thing you may call me is master. You also must not stand in my presence and if you leave a room I am in you must remain in a bow and back out slowly, only turning when you have left my vision. You will also need to create a shrine to me and worship at it twice a day, when you wake and before you sleep, thanking me for taking in a wretch like you and begging my forgiveness for making me put up with you. In time you may earn more privileges, like being able to worship at the shrine thrice a day, if you are a good slave.

>>81973389
well i did have someone that loved me once or claimed to love me but she left me and now my abandonment issues have been multiplied by 10 i did everything i could to love her or rather i did and said everything i think love is or what i would've liked to hear personally but apparently it wasn't enough i was always afraid she was going to leave me for someone better and eventually she did without even saying goodbye

>>81973389
Stop lying to this wretched creature! You are filling his head with smoke and leading him down the path to ruin. I deign to feel sympathy for this creature and attempt to right his wicked ways and you act as a great deceiver? How horrid. The world is such a dangerous place for little things. OP, do not allow yourself to be misled by this evil-doer!

>>81973072 (OP)
I feel like neglect is worse

>>81973406
understood master! i will be a good slave

>>81973426
well i was neglected too actually seriously i once fell out of my crib and hit my head trying to get my mom's attention i'm a complete mess honestly

>>81973437
It warms my heart when something like you know its place. +1 good boy points to you. If you collect enough I'll buy you some nuggies and a sugar drink.

>>81973456
t-thanks master f-food won't be necessary please don't waste any money on someone like me

why are these 2 faggots larping now what the fuck?

>>81973424
The dramatics are cute, maybe I'll make you my slave

>>81973468
Oh, you poor thing. Good behavior must be rewarded just as bad behavior much be punished. You will accept the food, you will thank me, and you will be happy.

>>81973487
y-yes master i should be thankful i'm so sorry for turning down such an act of kindness that was very disrespectful of me my apologies

>>81973510
At least you understand! I'll work you harder tomorrow but I won't bring out the lash... not yet anyway. I do love a slave who is easily educated.

>>81973536
i try my best master i'll gladly work harder for you

>>81973559
Good good, that makes me happy to hear. Now we need to have a health inspection. You'll have to... disrobe, anoni. This may be somewhat unpleasant but I assure you, I'm doing it for your sake.

>>81973596
y-yes master...there...

>>81973653
Ah a feminine penis, just perfect. Such a good slave. I need to check your prostate for...cancer anoni. I'm very worried about you you know. This will only take a few seconds just close your eyes and think of England.

>>81973389
>love isn't conditional
it took me a long time to realize this. I was only a fraction to meet the criteria of their love but I was bullied into not showing any less than 100%

>>81973478
i don't know man! my thread is ruined now!

>>81973988
Should have taken the slave pill. Then I could just tell you your thread was good and you could say "Yay thanks!"

>>81974009
you know what i'll say it anyway

yay thanks!

>>81974031
>didn't take the pill first
I'm abandoning you and your thread anoni, hope you're happy.

>>81974052
everybody leaves me eventually T_T

>>81974081
it's what people like the most about me. when I leave

>>81974196
honestly same for me

Please help. All I feel is empty I hate being alone I feel like I want to kill myself

>>81974314
me too fren I wish I could help you but I'm in the same situation as you :( please don't kill yourself though!

>>81974314
I don't want to kill myself so instead just find those who want me to leave after fooling around

>>81974362
They want you to leave? Do you fool around with them or they do to you? I honestly can't. I get attached to people.

>>81974404
like for hookups and stuff