Losing a game makes me spiral into depression and it feels like I cant win anything at all in life. Everything I try turns out to be a loss.

>>82044761 (OP)
used to be half decent at csgo, stopped playing years ago
started playing cs2 recently and im extremely washed
im getting pinned down and sodomised every match and it makes me want to blow my head off

Have you considered trying single player games?

>>82044878
yeah i got bored last night and booted up manhunt for shits and giggles

>>82044878
I do that too... but I still want to play other multiplayer games but I always feel like shit and am such a bad loser

>>82044761 (OP)
Try doing your best, then you'll not feel like shit even if you lose.

>>82044761 (OP)
hahaha FAGGOT

what are you playing btw?

>>82044761 (OP)
play gears of war reheated microwaved leftovers in 3 weeks, we're all 30yo boomers in the nursing home trying to relive the glory days of 2006 so you will win very easily and feel good about yourself

>>82044761 (OP)
Losing a game makes me furious
And I channel that fury into making the opponents in the next game suffer.
Every loss only makes me stronger as my fury has a multiplicative stacking effect
If I lose enough games in a row I'm 100% guaranteed to pubstomp a lobby.

I still like playing alpha centauri but it's actually tricky to get running on windows. Basically you need Linux because it's from the time games were still fun. And it's turn based vs ai strategy so you can easily put it down and read for a bit or do the dishes without feeling like you're missing something. If you're a lorefag it goes pretty deep. I remember when I first got it the manual was basically a whole book.
Idea is you're a multinational colony ship and you are to establish a population on a new planet. There's multiple factions you can play as. Chinese George Droid borg, Ali Ackbar world peacekeeper, Redhead Christian Nationalist chick, Black man robber baron, Warmonger brown girl(copy paste of George Droid minus the borg angle), Euphoric Russian fedora tipper science nerd, and Deanna Troi but she's Ted Kaczynski. There's multiple victory conditions, you have to manage your own citizens as well as relationship with the other factions. Wage war by economy, terraforming, espionage/sabotage, good old fashioned blowing up bad guys, and more. The story unfolds with a really cool angle I don't want to spoil, but there's a lot going on.

>>82044906
Be sure to try manhunt 2 afterwards, it's one of my favorites cuz I accidentally played back when I was like 7 and that shit traumatized the shit out of me, then I like the gameplay a bit

>>82046063

Great game and absolute underated. I love the point when you fight a total war against the human and alien enemys and the fuckin' planet itself. My other fave is Master of Orion 2

>>82047275
yeah i was already going to bro, manhunt 2 is fuckin awesome
i started a new save on the first game last night, played through all the hoodz scenes and im gonna play through all the skinz scenes when i get later today

>>82047575
*hoods
dont know why i typed that shit with a z lmfao

>>82047591
Shit my favorite gang from the first gang were the skulls, were and are all things considered, now I feel like playing but setting all that shit up and on linux will be a pain in the ass

>>82044761 (OP)
keep play it even if you suck then win eventually, can't win today? do it again in tommorow that's what i did

>>82044761 (OP)
>losing a game
Same here, I can't play competitive games for 2 reasons
>the matchmaking system sentencing you to a 50% winrate no matter how you good you get (unless genuinely in like the top 10 guys worldwide) means you are in purgatory forever. impossible to maintain a winning record
>i wind up literally Practicing and Studying the game on a level far, far beyond the amount of effort games are worth

I don't care about losing, I know my level, I only care about losing to shitters that then think they really did something
>>82044839
I tried that it doesn't seem worth playing